After I met her, one day she asked me, why have you never written poems for me? I said, when I met you, I had lost the ability to write poems, and I may not be able to give you the romance of writing poems, but in my heart, I am so eager to be your hero and make our lives wonderful.

Whenever walking on the raging streets

Looking at the vast sea of people

I will feel like I am there for you

Tell yourself it's like a race

I'm going to make our lives

Get wonderful

From Wang Feng's "Hero"

Love allows a person to be completely transformed. I will never write poetry again, the warm winds of spring, the youthful fields, the fiery passion of summer, the laziness of the afternoon, the bleak nights of autumn, the soft sound of the leaves, the innocent snow of winter, the smiling faces of people, the thick fog on the glasses as they enter and exit the room...... All this, in the beginning, has nothing to do with me. Because of love, I forgot everything, I embraced love, embraced happiness. I began to admit that like the wheat in the rice field, because of its ripeness, began to bow its noble head.

I can no longer sway in the wind

I can no longer sing in the wind

I'm because of my maturity

bowed his noble head......

From Hu Pan's "Wheat"

It was at this time that I started to want to make this website. 17 Rejoice, rejoice together. One night, I was surfing the Internet all night at an Internet café with my friends, and I listened to songs all night while thinking about something that could make my girlfriend happy. Later, I used my only programming knowledge to write a little software for her, called Joke Robot, and when I clicked on it, it could tell you jokes.

It's a little piece of software that couldn't have been simpler, and if it were today, I probably wouldn't have spent the time writing it at all. Now, when I do something, I often think about whether it is worth it, and it takes time and effort. But that little ingenuity at the time reminded me of the concept of "17 Happy Bars", and when I told my girlfriend and other friends what was in my mind, their eyes were full of wonder because they didn't think my idea was good.

But my heart was filled with great enthusiasm, and I finally found something else to do besides writing. You may never know how happy I felt when I remembered that concept, when I bought a domain name and set up a website. A pleasure that borders on madness, a pleasure that is overwhelmed by oneself.

So I stood at the intersection again. To make a website, I needed to update the content, and at first I just forwarded the good posts I saw, but soon I was not satisfied with that. When I see something good written by someone else, I can't help but ask myself, why didn't I write it myself? Can I write it at the same level? In the dead of night, the whole world stops, and I often wake up from my dreams when everyone else is asleep. In the darkness, I began to cry, I began to fear, I began to miss the past, and I began to realize that although time passed year by year, I could not betray my heart after all. Just like Chen Sheng's song sings, maybe one day I have a full sun, but I will also wake up alone in the dark night.

I don't have good faith, I have beautiful fantasies in my head

In the song of life, there will be nothing

I'm not afraid of how short life is

But I'm afraid that it will come to naught

From Chen Sheng's "Intersection"

Ten years ago, I was singing on the road, and now, ten years later, I wear headphones and listen to others singing. But whether it is a change or not, it is a journey, and every journey is the most precious treasure in life. I don't want to live a boring life, I hope that there will be more freshness in the daily time, more stories that can be told to the younger generations in a few years, I don't want to go to bed at night, remembering that today is no different from yesterday, I don't want to see my empty eyes when I look in the mirror...... I don't want to stay in the same landscape for too long, I don't want to stand still, so I have to make sure that I'm always moving forward, always on the road, always going, with my stubbornness, leaving my back with a goodbye.

And so it struggled for the whole decade. I am such a me every night, I get up in the morning and I am another me, at night, the poet who is not satisfied with the status quo and is unwilling to be mediocre comes to life, and in the daytime, he changes to another fresh and real self. Perhaps, my state will be that I will always be on the road, never finished, doomed to struggle. Perhaps, these ten years have been the age of struggle. The ancients said that standing at thirty and not being confused at forty is not confused, and I am far from the age of not being confused, so it should be normal for me to feel confused and experience struggles, but when I think back on the past ten years, I can't tell what I have gained. I can't tell, it's progress or regression, it's not clear, it's right or wrong. It's just that along the way, I tried to do everything, and I had many dreams, big and small, and finally found that the mood of two thousand years, the face of twenty years old, did nothing after all.

There's a twenty-year-old face that I'll let you see

There is a 2,000-year-old mood, but who knows

I don't do anything, but I want to do everything

I want to leave, but I can't......

From Zheng Jun's "Wu Wei"

Ten years ago, I was singing on the road, and now, ten years later, I wear headphones and listen to others singing. But whether it is a change or not, it is a journey, and every journey is the most precious treasure in life. I don't want to live a boring life, I hope that there will be more freshness in the daily time, more stories that can be told to the younger generations in a few years, I don't want to go to bed at night, remembering that today is no different from yesterday, I don't want to see my empty eyes when I look in the mirror...... I don't want to stay in the same landscape for too long, I don't want to stand still, so I have to make sure that I'm always moving forward, always on the road, always going, with my stubbornness, leaving my back with a goodbye.

Ten years ago, I was singing on the road, and now, ten years later, I wear headphones and listen to others singing. But whether it is a change or not, it is a journey, and every journey is the most precious treasure in life. I don't want to live a boring life, I hope that there will be more freshness in the time of the day, there will be more stories that can be told to the younger generations in a few years, I don't want to go to bed at night, remembering that today is no different from yesterday, I don't want to see my empty eyes when I look in the mirror...... I don't want to stay in the same landscape for too long, I don't want to stand still, so I have to make sure that I'm always moving forward, always on the road, always going, with my stubbornness, leaving my back with a goodbye.

——2012-11-2

When the ashes sealed the eaves of the frost

When the chrysanthemum grass turns into late autumn dew

I made my bag out of stubborn withered vines

He walked into a thorny land

From Wang Feng's "Brightness"