After the snowy night of Christmas, the temperature plummeted, and the streets were still covered with unmelted snow, but most people had lost interest in having fun, and everywhere was the opposite of Christmas Eve.

Because it was the New Year's Day holiday, Zou Yi didn't rush to the company early in the morning, he sat in a quiet living room wrapped in a blanket, even though he had taken an overdose of medicine, he still didn't feel sleepy.

The morning light lit up the night, but the room was still dark, Zou Yi put his head on the back of the sofa, holding an empty bottle of alprazolam in his hand, in the silence where even breathing seemed to be no longer distinct, the hanging clock gears made an extraordinarily clear ticking sound, accompanied by each mechanical repetition, stretching time into an unbelievable torment.

At this time, the doorbell rang suddenly, Zou Yi casually threw the medicine bottle into the trash can, got up and went to open the door.

The visitor who suddenly came was Xiao Qifeng, who had not heard from him for a long time, his face still had the vicissitudes of wind and dust, and his originally anxious expression suddenly became strange after the door was opened.

"Come in and sit. Zou Yi didn't ask him about his intentions, but just let people into the house, then poured a glass of water and handed it over.

Xiao Qifeng sat on the sofa, but he didn't drink the water after taking it, he held the cup in both hands, and looked at Zou Yi silently folding the blanket that was put aside, and then turned his head to ask himself, "Did you come to see me folding the quilt today?"

Xiao Qifeng's eyes flashed a moment of struggle, he subconsciously avoided Zou Yi's gaze, watched the hot air coming out of the water cup, and pondered for a while before he asked softly, "What happened?"

Zou Yi's indifferent expression froze instantly, he lowered his eyelids, picked up the unfinished red wine glass on the coffee table, and drank the scarlet liquid in it in one gulp, before sitting back on the sofa next to Xiao Qifeng, and pulled out a disapproving smile.

"It's nothing, it's just a breakup. ”

Xiao Qifeng was stunned.

"Xu Yang said that he wanted to go back to Meng, so I let him go. Zou Yi was still smiling, that smile stopped on his pursed lips, but he could no longer move his eyes that were as silent as stagnant water.

Xiao Qifeng looked at the old friend in front of him who had known him for more than 20 years, he had seen a lot of high-spirited or gloomy or angry expressions, but none of them were like Zou Yi today.

His appearance was still so glamorous, as if it had ended in an innocuous love, but no one would have noticed that he had hidden his increasingly withered and dilapidated soul in a life of conformity, day by day, until his final demise......

Xiao Qifeng didn't say his intention in the end, and when he left, he asked Zou Yi, "Are you going to go on like this?"

Zou Yi stood in the foyer, hearing this, he lowered his eyes slightly, "When he left, he wanted me to live well, and he wanted me to live a long life...... I promised him. His voice seemed to be laughing, but his eyes were as red as blood.

Xiao Qifeng turned around, and when one foot had already stepped out of the door, he saw Zou Yi's eyes.

That look that was too dead made him suddenly have a premonition - his friend was going to die.

Xiao Qifeng resisted the door, this cruel premonition made him feel an abnormal anger, he punched Zou Yi to the ground with a backhand, and then rushed over and grabbed his collar, and asked angrily, "Do you don't want to live at all!"

Zou Yi spit out the blood in his mouth, he stared at the empty white above his head, and asked lightly, "Why do you think so?"

Xiao Qifeng threw off his collar and directly choked his neck, "Answer me!

After a long silence, Zou Yi finally tore through all the disguises he had made, he tightly grasped Xiao Qifeng's hand clamped around his neck, and his eyes were full of deep despair after the extreme pain, "Yes!"

He clenched his teeth and stared at Xiao Qifeng with scarlet eyes, "After he left, I lived every day, as if I had torn a piece of meat from the tip ......of my heart, and I was so painful that I was about to die!"

"It was my own choice to let go of him, and it was my own choice of this ending...... But he's my life! Xiao Qifeng! That's my life......"

For the first time, Xiao Qifeng saw such complete despair on a person's face, he selfishly wanted to keep his friend alive, but he only pushed him from one abyss to another.

He took a hard breath and let go of the hand that was clamping on Zou Yi's neck, "Since you already have the heart to die, there is no need to hide some things anymore...... Zou Yi, do you remember what happened at the end of last month?"

Zou Yi didn't know what Xiao Qifeng was referring to, he pieced together the memories that had become messy and blurry since the last inexplicable coma, and then suddenly found that what Xiao Qifeng specifically pointed out was a complete blank.

Xiao Qifeng also got the answer from the other party's suddenly stunned movements, he turned his head with a complicated expression, and pondered for a while before continuing, "A month ago, something happened to me, so the phone has been turned off, but a few days ago, I suddenly found two very strange missed calls. I called one of them back, it was a hospital number, this was nothing, everyone will dial the wrong number sometimes, until I dialed the second number, the girl inside asked me, is it Zou Yi's family ......"

"Binmao Pedestrian Street Underground Parking Lot, Zou Yi, do you remember?"

A somewhat unfamiliar place name is like a key, opening all the sealed memories - gangsters, blood, and the pain of the blade sinking into the body......

"I've been stabbed ......"

Xiao Qifeng said, "The knife stabbed into your spleen from behind, you shed a lot of blood, you need to notify your family on the way to the hospital, the girl left my number, but they never contacted anyone, and even in the end, they couldn't even issue a death certificate." ”

Zou Yi's face changed instantly, and he glared at Xiao Qifeng in disbelief, but the latter confided a very cruel truth very calmly, "Zou Yi, you were already dead at that time. ”

"How is this possible! I'm not a good ...... now" Zou Yi couldn't believe every word Xiao Qifeng said, but the inexplicable coma a month ago, the severe anemia and the heavy smell of blood in his throat when he woke up all verified this terrible truth......

Xiao Qifeng closed his eyes, forcing himself not to pay attention to the change in Zou Yi's expression, and only followed every step he had discovered, peeling off the truth and revealing it.

"I wondered why I didn't hear anything about your funeral until I arrived here and it dawned on you the moment you appeared behind the door......

Zou Yi tilted his head and pillowed his arm in front of him, the hollowness of the darkness temporarily engulfed the fear and shock caused by "death", allowing him to have a brief respite to accept the more brutal truth that followed.

No one would be indifferent to his known death, Xiao Qifeng couldn't watch Zou Yi gradually die in a dead silence, but he didn't know if all this he told would also force Zou Yi into another round of desperate situations.

Xiao Qifeng regretted a little, his original intention of telling the truth was just selfishly hoping that his friend would live, but time will eventually calm down all the enthusiasm, and despair will not be an exception, nothing will remain the same, but it may take ten or twenty years......

"Tell me, Xiao Qifeng. Zou Yi suddenly said calmly, "I want to know what I am living for." ”

Xiao Qifeng exhaled a few deep breaths, then turned his head, looked directly at Zou Yi and asked, "Do you know why Xu Yang left?"

Zou Yi's heart tightened, and he suddenly sat up, "What does it have to do with him!"

Xiao Qifeng was silent, but pointed his finger at Zou Yi's chest.

"Here you are the Neidan of Xuyang. ”

In your place,

It's Xuyang's Neidan

Xuyang's ......

Nedan ......

Everything is revealed, the memories that have been deliberately sealed, the unexplained coma, and the inexplicable pain before the breakup...... Every clue points to the most unlikely choice-

Xu Yang's choice.

Tears that had been suppressed for too long rolled down from Zou Yi's red eyes, "He let me live well...... He said goodbye to me, but only so that I could live......"

After extreme grief, Zou Yi suddenly got up, grabbed the car key on the shoe cabinet and was about to open the door and go out.

Xiao Qifeng grabbed the person, "What are you doing!"

Zou Yi shook off his hand, "I'm going to look for him in my dream." ”

Xiao Qifeng stopped several times but didn't stop him, and couldn't help shouting in a hurry, "Zou Yi, don't waste your efforts!"

"What do you mean?" Zou Yi suddenly guessed the meaning of Xiao Qifeng's words after a very brief period of doubt, and he roared and grabbed the person by the collar against the wall, "Xiao Qifeng, what do you mean!"

Xiao Qifeng said, "Resurrection is a forbidden technique to change one's life against the sky, do you remember the thunderstorm at the beginning? That is Xuyang's curse!"

Zou Yi remembered that when he woke up, the nurse mentioned that it had been thunderstorming for three days, and the lightning strikes were terrifying......

There are also wind chimes that were bitten off in front of his window, and dried blood dripping from the wind chimes......

Seeing that Zou Yi seemed to be persuaded, Xiao Qifeng slowly let go of his hand, and just wanted to say two words of comfort, but saw the man walk to the entrance with a calm expression, and then took off the cold coat hanging on the hanger.

Xiao Qifeng didn't stop him again, but only asked Zou Yi in the original geology, "Don't you understand?"

Zou Yi put on a thick down jacket, and when he heard this, he raised his head and asked Xiao Qifeng, "Then why did you raise that ghost in your soul sea in the first place?"

Xiao Qifeng replied wordlessly.

After a while, Zou Yi picked up the key again and unlocked the door to go out, and before leaving, he heard Xiao Qifeng ask, "What can you do if you go?"

Zou Yi said, "Yes, I did my best, but I only gave him back what belonged to him ......."