As the start of school is getting closer and closer, Xiaoxi's heart is burning every day and panicking.

The creek still vividly remembers what happened on September 1, 2005.

Early that morning, the second aunt rented a motorcycle, loaded Xiaoxi's boxes and covers, and carried Xiaoxi to the countryside with her.

As soon as she arrived at the place, Chen Cui hurriedly took Xiaoxi to sign up, but there were too many people, so she asked the teacher about it clearly, and took Xiaoxi to the bedroom to make a bed first.

The dormitories in the school are basically in the inner courtyard, and the room on the right hand side of the door is Xiaoxi's dormitory.

A large room, dozens of iron beds, crowded nearly a hundred or so female students in the fourth and fifth grades. As soon as they entered the creek, they saw that most of the beds were made, and it was the girls from the school and some who came early.

Because everything in the creek was ready, there was nothing to be afraid of, as soon as he entered, he occupied a bed, so Chen Cui hurriedly helped the creek make the bed.

"Second woman, let Xiaoxi sleep in the same bed with our Pu Xiaoli. It turned out that Pu Xiaoli's mother brought her over. Because they came a little late, they couldn't find a good bed, so she only brought a quilt, and the school planned to sleep two people in one bed.

Seeing an acquaintance, Chen Cui cleaned up the bed, heard that he wanted to sleep in a bed with Xiaoxi, thinking that Xiaoxi had been classmates for so many years, and they were all on the same team, he thought about it, and asked Xiaoxi on the side: "Xiaoxi, you sleep in the same bed with Pu Xiaoli, okay?"

In fact, she wanted to sleep in a bed alone, but she didn't know how to refuse, so she nodded slowly.

In fact, later, when Xiaoxi thought of the decision at that time, he really regretted his death. Because Pu Xiaoli is tall and thin, a head taller than her, so they are in the same shop, and Xiaoxi is not less "bullied" by her.

She had long hands and long feet, and she was a little dishonest in her sleep, so she inadvertently put her feet on the mouth of the stream. And the most hateful thing is that later, in the summer, the hot weather will not be able to stand the quilt, so the cover roll is rolled up when sleeping at night. To put the quilt on the side of the creek pillow, her feet just rested on the quilt, the quilt is from the creek, and it happens to be a little clean, so she said to put the quilt on her pillow, which is good, Xiaoxi said, she didn't agree, so she had to sleep at night, under her head. But when it was time to take a nap at noon, she moved the quilt over again and propped herself under her head, what kind of trouble was this.

In fact, to put it bluntly, it is to bully Xiaoxi timidly. Really, when I was a child, Xiaoxi's courage was really small, and it wasn't until I went to high school and college that I slowly got better, I saw more people, my vision was broadened, and when I was confident, I became bolder.

A few people quickly packed up their beds, sat down and set up the dragon gate array for a while, and several people separated.

Chen Cui saw that the registration office was still crowded, so she took Xiaoxi to her mother-in-law's third brother's house for dinner, which lived in the countryside.

went, very warmly entertained Xiaoxi, their little granddaughter is the same age as Xiaoxi, and happens to have the same surname as Xiaoxi, named Chen Lan, who is also in the fifth grade this year.

After eating and resting for a while, Chen Cui was leaving, and her in-laws kept her again and again, so she said to her mother-in-law: "There are too many people who signed up this morning, and I have to take advantage of the lack of people to report my name." ”

In this way, it is important for children to sign up, and they don't say anything more, just repeatedly tell "you must come to play when you are free" and the like.

After walking back for a while, Chen Cui suddenly thought that the class would start tomorrow, and said to Xiaoxi: "Xiaoxi, you just won't go back tonight, anyway, you have to go to class early tomorrow morning, and go to Xiaolan's house to sleep for the night tonight." "I didn't even want Xiaoxi to live in school, those children basically went home after registering, she didn't worry about letting Xiaoxi stay in school alone, after all, she had met Xiaolan a few times, and she was an acquaintance.

Xiaoxi refused without thinking about it, Chen Cui wanted to persuade a few more words, but when the school arrived, she hurriedly took Xiaoxi to the inner courtyard, and everyone went to eat at this time, and there were only a few people at the registration office.

After registering, the teacher reminded me that the class would start at 8 o'clock tomorrow morning. Out of the school gate, Chen Cui once again said that he should not go back to Xiaoxi, it is rare to run tomorrow morning, but Xiaoxi still does not dry.

One is that I am not used to living in other people's homes, the second is that I miss my grandparents and mother-in-law, after all, I will go home every other week, and the third is that I am very panicked and a little irritable, I just want to go home. No matter what Chen Cui said, Xiaoxi only shook his head and said, "I want to go home."

It wasn't until later that Chen Cui's persuasion mouth was dry, and Xiaoxi said "I want to go home" with a crying voice. I had no choice but to bring back this "little oil bottle".

"Hey, you woman, don't listen to anything you say, hey, forget it, oops. I had to rent a motorbike and the two of them went home.

Go uphill, turn two more corners, and you're home.

An old lady walked towards the creek with a hoe on her shoulder. "Second woman, why did you come back, hurry back and see, your nephew was drowned......"

Because the motorcycle was moving, the old lady's words were a little unclear, and the driver didn't seem to hear it, and he didn't stop the car to ask clearly.

What, it can't be, it's a joke, it must be. Chen Cui's sobbing sound came from behind him, as if urging the master to hurry up. Listening to the second aunt's sniffing, Xiaoxi didn't have a single tear, and she didn't want to cry, but her head was empty, and she only repeated one sentence, "It's a joke."

It's only a two-minute drive, and the creek feels like it's been a long time. After getting out of the car, in fact, before they got home, the driver stopped on the road under the Xiaoxi yard dam.

From afar away in the stream, I could see a mat on the mill in the vegetable field, covered with a blanket, bulging, surrounded by many people. The eyes that had been empty for a long time suddenly squeezed into tears, sour, and suddenly seemed to be unable to accept so much, so they fell out one after another.

After crying silently for a while, Xiaoxi gradually heard the sound outside, and the second aunt was already crying hoarse at this time.

When a child dies, he can't park it at home, which is probably the same as what kind of custom it is, just like a child who dies and doesn't set up a grave, but has to bury it with a small amount of soil.

Xiaoxi looked at the blanket in her own field. Obviously when he left in the morning, he smiled and said goodbye to himself, but now he was lying there so lifeless, being watched by everyone, Xiaoxi couldn't believe it. But as soon as the second aunt came back, she pounced on it and looked at it, judging from her expression (Xiaoxi couldn't hear crying anymore, her world was silent at that time), Xiaoxi had to believe it.

"Creek, let's go, let's go back. Chen Cui pulled up the creek that was sitting on the ground and had obviously lost her soul, and walked home.

When I got home, I slept in a house full of people, standing or sitting. Granny Chen was leaning back on the recliner, her eyes closed, and the doctor was giving infusions.

Grandpa Chen saw his second daughter, whose eyes were red and swollen, come in with the stream, and hurriedly pulled the godless stream and sat beside him, and was startled, thinking about his grandson who had just died, this granddaughter can't be fine. He hugged the stream and shook it twice.

Xiaoxi came back to her senses, looked at her grandfather, and cried "wow". When Grandpa Chen saw her crying, he was much more relieved, thinking of his good grandson, he also started crying, which provoked everyone in the house to help persuade the two grandchildren.

After crying for a while, Xiaoxi gradually subsided, and Grandpa Chen took out a box of yogurt from the cardboard box under the desk, inserted it into the straw and handed it to Xiaoxi.

Listening to the sobbing sound in his ears, Grandpa Chen tried his best to suppress his heartfelt sadness and tell the people who came to mourn about the cause of his grandson's death.

"Today, the second child took Xiaoxi to the countryside to sign up, and the eldest woman and the third child came back to help me pick peanuts...... After lunch, I boiled hot water and bathed Binbin, but in the afternoon, Hong Wazi and Wei Wazi led the dog and called him to take a bath in the weir pond...... When the first road came, he wanted to go, but I didn't let him go, and the second road came again, but he didn't let him go...... As a result, after a while, the eldest woman said that the dog was missing (Xiaoxi's family had a wolf dog, which was caught from Chen Ping's house, and Chen Yubin would take it with him as long as he went to the weir pond to bathe), and wanted to say that it was bad, so he went to bathe in the weir pond...... As a result, before a handful of peanuts were picked, Hong Wazi ran back and said that Binbin was gone......"

Oh...... It was with Chen Yuhong that they went to take a bath and had an accident, Xiaoxi really hated the two brothers at this moment, and wanted to say why did you have to take your younger brother to take a bath, although the direct cause was not theirs, but the indirect cause was theirs.

At this time, another voice sounded again, "I heard outside the house that it seemed to be shouting "Xingwazi", I said that Jiang Wan's Xingwazi had been here for a long time, so I didn't pay attention, and after a while, I was shouting again, so I went out to have a look...... As soon as I came out, I heard that I was shouting "Bin Wazi" in the weir pond, so I ran over to see, Hong Wazi and the two of them were looking for Bin Wazi in the weir pond, and after thinking about it, I heard the two of them say that Bin Wazi was taking a bath in the weir pond, and the result was gone, I quickly took off my clothes and went in to find it, alas, the result ...... "It was the eldest son of the Chen family, he picked up Chen Yubin, and his house was close to the weir pond."

Hearing this, Xiaoxi thought to herself, why didn't you come out earlier, if you came out at the first sound, maybe my brother would be able to save him...... However, it was too late. Thinking of her brother's past, Xiaoxi couldn't help but cry again.

Time can make people forget everything. From the beginning, Granny Chen cried every day and said, "If my good grandson is still here, what would happen, it's a pity that I am such a good grandson." In the end, after a few days, a few weeks, and finally stopped talking, Xiaoxi thought she had forgotten, but she went to college in Xiaoxi, and one night, Granny Chen sat in front of the stove and boiled the pot, and suddenly said, "If my good grandson is still here, he will also go to college." At that time, Xiaoxi's tears almost rushed out of her eyes, and Xiaoxi hurriedly held back, turned around, and pretended not to hear.

There is also Grandpa Chen, since Chen Yubin entered the ground, he has never mentioned him again, Xiaoxi knows Grandpa's pain.

Every year, a few days before the Chinese New Year, paper is burned for the dead. After going to the cemetery to burn paper money for the ancestors and leaving the bamboo forest, Grandpa Chen said to Xiaoxi: "Xiaoxi, you go back first." ”

Knowing that Grandpa didn't want to let him follow, he turned around and walked home without saying anything.

After turning a corner, until he was sure that Grandpa couldn't see it, Xiaoxi secretly looked back, only to see Grandpa Chen holding a knife of paper in his hand, staggering to the edge of the ground.

Xiaoxi knew that his grandfather was going to burn paper for his younger brother, and in their place, they couldn't set up a grave for a child, so they couldn't burn paper and set off a cannon. Grandpa Chen was afraid that the child would have no money to use when he went to the underworld (in their case, the paper money was burned to the dead, saying that it was taken to the underworld for use), and after burning the paper for the ancestors, he would bring some paper to see his grandson, and by the way, he would tell the pain in his heart.

It wasn't until Xiaoxi was about to graduate from high school that Xiaoxi was taken by Chen's mother that Xiaoxi knew where his younger brother was buried.

Although time can make people forget everything, the deep wound in the heart is indelible, just when people think that it does not exist, they secretly come out and pull it hard, which makes people feel painful.