Extra: Past

Winter 1995.

Liu is rubbing her hands and shrinking her neck on the way back to the dormitory, the street lights in the factory area are not too bright, dusk and yellow, dragging her shadow for a long time. She kept her head down, her eyes not squinting, and her steps hurried.

This is the third factory she has changed jobs, and the salary is relatively high, but the work intensity is very high, and she works overtime every day.

Liu is pushing open the door of the dormitory, and the strange smell of people's heat mixed with various foods came to his face. Liu closed her breath slightly, then breathed slowly, slowly getting used to the taste. The originally lively chirping sound in the room suddenly quieted down, and several women sitting on the shelf bed turned their heads to look at Liu is while spitting melon seed shells. Several of them came out of the same place, and their actions were very consistent on weekdays, and they went in and out together. Liu is smile and said, "What are you talking about, it's so high."

The dormitory is a private house next to the factory, and a large room is about 100 square meters, densely packed with dozens of shelves and beds. The huge curtain between the bed and the bed is roughly divided into several areas, but it is convenient to come and go, although it is lively, but it is extremely private, and it is common for someone to drop some small things.

Liu came late, and all the good bunks were occupied, so she had to settle down in a lower bunk in the middle of the room. This position is not good, it is transparent on all sides, and if you pay a little attention, you can hear the whispers on all sides, and usually those who like to get together to chat will sit cross-legged on her bed nearby for convenience. Liu is crossed the thick melon seed shell paved ground in the aisle, came to his bedside, Zheng Qin's buttocks moved slightly, leaving a place for her, and then exaggerated his face: "Liu is." You know, no, we have a pervert here! Xiangxiang hangs the underwear and underwear outside, and I lose it!"

Liu is messy quilt was neatly arranged, and said in surprise: "Isn't there a female worker who lives here?"

Spit out a mouthful of melon seed shells to Xiaolan on the bed. Disdainfully: "There are more men coming and going, who knows who it is?"

Willow is to think about it too. The people in this house are all adult women, and there are more people who fall in love, and those men all treat this place as if they are vegetable fields, and they can come and go as soon as they want, where are they scruples? So they smiled and said, "I'm afraid it was blown away by the wind, right?"

Zheng Qin straightened his chest. said: "Hey, someone also saw the shadow of that person, it's a man!"

Liu is eyes slipped, and she saw Zheng Qin's little belly bulging without a coat, she reached out and grabbed a handful, and said, "Look at this belly, don't have it!" After speaking, she smiled and took out a change of clothes from the box at the head of the bed.

Zheng Qin's face stiffened, his hands were on his stomach, and he said, "How can it?"

Xiaolan took a sip. Said: "Where can't it? If you vomit in the sky and want to eat sour, ask Mengzi to take you to check!"

Zheng Qindi's face became uncomfortable. I couldn't sit still, so I slowly rubbed to the side of my bed. Xiaolan snorted coldly: "You can take a fancy to that fierce man." If you don't earn any money, you'll be looking for it. There is no return, and you will not be killed!"

Xiaolan's mouth squirmed a few times. He didn't spit out anything, so he had to bow his head.

Xiaolan looked at Liu is and said, "How many things have you done today?" Look at your stupid appearance, working overtime every day, you can't be tired!"

Liu knew that she was a person with a knife mouth and a tofu heart, so she didn't say much, and said, "If you can earn it, you can earn it!" After speaking, she lifted the towels and clothes that were dried on the road and walked to the water room at the end to wash clothes. 1---6--- Xiaolan sighed: "Her younger brother is in high school and wants to take the university entrance examination, this college student spends money unusually!"

In winter, the water is cold, Liu Yes's hands are red, she watched the water flow out, and reached out to wipe her eyes.

After washing the clothes, Liu is carrying the basin to the dormitory, but saw a few dark shadows in the dim corridor, she walked by without squinting, and out of the corner of her eye, she saw those shadows enter the next room. She went into her room, grabbed a few clothes racks and hung them on the ropes that were pulled up between the beds, and then froze at the head of the bed for a long time.

Xiaolan walked with a broom and swept the melon seed shell, and said, "What do you want?"

Liu is mouth Nunu said to the door, "Someone just entered that house?"

Xiaolan snorted coldly, and snorted at the shelf bed behind the layers of curtains in the corners of several rooms, and said, "What about more?

Liu is heart tightened, and subconsciously went to see Zheng Qin, but saw that she was wrapped in a quilt with her clothes, and she didn't talk as usual. She fumbled for a long time, took out a tattered copy of "Dream of Red Mansions" from under her pillow, and read a few pages in the dim light.

The coastal factory area is full of young people from all over the country, the hormones of youth are flowing on the various paths between the factories, young women, enthusiastic men, on the way to and from work, you look at me, I look at you, look at a few more and see the right eye. In those days, the evening television was always filled with boring TV dramas, commercials, and orthodox news programs, but all kinds of pornographic books were secretly circulating. Those books are called treasure books, and some of the chapters in the treasure books are always very old, and sweat and saliva stain layer after layer on the paper, exuding a strange smell. Books are passed through the dark corners of the dormitories, and in the dim light they are hungry for stories that will never exist in reality. The suppressed lust of youth is slowly fermenting, becoming sour, and spreading, and the entire factory is shrouded in young enthusiasm, uncontrolled, suppressed and exciting lust. Secret love, open love, successful engagement and marriage, unsuccessful disappearance, every day there are countless love stories staged here, everyone is the protagonist of the story, but only limited to their own story.

Liu watched the men and women come and go coldly, listening to the occasional laughter and gasping sound from an unknown corner every night, and felt as if the room was a huge monster. Those dark shadows were like the slime in the monster's body, slowly secreting it, accumulating little by little, slowly flowing, filling the entire room, and finally forming a sea of slime. She was surrounded by such slime, her whole body was stained, and she was clutched tightly, and she couldn't break free with all her strength.

It was another day after work, and Liu was still walking back to the dormitory in a hurry. Strangely enough, there was no one chatting in the room, she looked at the shelves around her, pulled one and asked, "Why is it so deserted today!"

The man said: "Something happened!" Zheng Qin took medicine indiscriminately and shed a lot of blood. It's all over the water!"

Ryu opened her mouth and was about to ask, but the door slammed open. The man shrunk his neck and said, "Xiaolan is crazy today." I had a fight with the fierce man, but I still didn't get the money!"

Xiaolan ran in and yelled, "If you don't gossip, you're going to die!"

The man quickly lay down and said no more.

Liu is turned to look at Xiaolan, her hair was dirty. His face was full of tears, and there were a lot of nail marks on his face. Xiaolan wiped her eyes sideways, pulled Liu is forced out of the dormitory, she pulled Liu is into a corner, and said, "I know you have money, how much can you borrow?"

Liu is heart calculated for a moment, and said: "My brother is about to take the university entrance examination, and there is not much land left!"

"It's not much, it's a lot, it's a life-saving thing! Mengzi, that bastard, Zheng Qin's salary came quickly. If something happens, you can't find anyone. I told her a long time ago that the man was unreliable, and she didn't listen, and now she could do something ugly. Look at how she will see people when she goes back!" Xiao Lan wiped her eyes and looked at Liu Shi. "I know you're a calculating. Earn more money every month, and save money. There must be a surplus!"

Liu didn't say much, and said, "Borrow 600 at most!"

Xiaolan is grateful, this is already life-saving money.

Liu watched Xiaolan disappear at the end of the corridor in a hurry, and then went into the house and took the basin to wash clothes and walked into the water room. There was a faint smell of blood in the water room, and Liu Shizai looked carefully at the wet concrete floor, as if he wanted to see something from inside.

At that time, Wang Juan was worried that the life of the third year of high school was really painful, and she even had to make up classes for the New Year, she secretly put her own in Cheng Lin's house, and she used the excuse to go to Cheng Lin to ask for her homework when she had nothing to do, but in fact, she was. Cheng Lin grinned, feeling that his most wonderful life should still be in college!

Winter 2000

Liu put the finished clothes next to the huge sewing table, and the Hong Kong designer was about to come to inspect them. This work must not be sloppy, and once the designer is dissatisfied with something, Liu may lose his job. But everything went well, and Liu saw that the designer did not look dissatisfied, packed up his tools, and prepared to get off work.

The designer walked over, looked at Liu Shi, and said, "You are very good, if you can, it is better to continue your studies!"

Liu smiled and politely said thank you.

She was in a very good mood, and when she walked out of the factory, she saw a public phone on the side of the road, and she plugged a phone card and dialed the number of Liucai's dormitory. "Liu Cai, are you about to graduate? Is there a decision on the place of work?" Liu is has been in a good mood recently, her work is going well, and she is emotionally settled, and her younger brother is about to graduate from college, which means that her responsibilities as an older sister are about to end.

"I've seen a few units, it's okay!" Liu Cai spoke very slowly, "But the teacher said that if I have this grade, I can consider Baoyan!"

Liu is leisurely remembered that night a few years ago, she nervously ran out of the dormitory to hang up the phone at home, and had to let the aunt in the store run a long way to call Liu to answer the phone. She doesn't remember what she said, but she still remembers that she said repeatedly, "Liu Cai, my sister likes ** university the most, you must be admitted." My sister can't go to college, so you can go there and tell me about it!" Liu Cai really succeeded in going to that university, and his mother kept yelling on the phone, "You asked him to fill in that school, the teacher said he could take the exam better, you are a junior high school student, you don't understand anything, just talk nonsense!" Liu Cai Nuo said "I chose it myself!" As a result, she knew that Liu Cai's several volunteers had all filled in ** university, and those bright red words fluttered in her eyes, and they became a knot in her heart.

Liu said cautiously: "What do you think?"

"I want to hear my sister's opinion!"

Liu Yes's eyes fluttered, she remembered that the designer said in her ear, "It's better to continue studying", and when she came back to her senses, Liu Cai said: "Okay, I'll listen to my sister, Baoyan is good!" Liu is heart chuckled and smiled bitterly.

This year she was already 24 years old, and a 24-year-old country woman could no longer find someone to marry if she did not get married; this year she finally found a person of the same age, personality and family background, she saved some money, wanted to buy a dowry for herself, and when she was ready for the New Year, she would tell the parents of the two families to settle the matter.

She walked back to the dorm room in a trance and called the subject out. The object is an honest countryman, because she learned the technical work of model making, the salary is okay, and what she covets is not his high salary, but that this man is honest and honest in this environment, and he can still keep that bit of sincerity in this environment. She told the subject that her brother wanted to study for the university, and expressed her willingness to continue to support her brother's study, and she might have no money if she got married.

A man is an honest man, but he still attaches great importance to such a major event as marriage. He said, "It's good that you can provide for your brother to go to college, why do you want to go to graduate school? What can you study?"

Liu Shi bowed his head and said, "Hello graduate student, you can earn a lot of money when you come out in the future!"

The man's face turned red, but he couldn't tell any big reason, so he felt that this was wrong, so he had to say: "Then what should we do if we get married? You have been working for so many years, and you don't have a decent dowry------

Liu is understood, so he had to say: "I only have this younger brother, and I will give him whatever I can give!"

The man said: "You have decided to tell me, then what do you say?" Liu is head is stuffy and does not speak.

The man huffed angrily: "Your younger brother is so old that he can't make money, you came out as a teenager to earn money, and you haven't saved money for so many years!" The man looked at the people next to him and said: "Anyway, studying is a bottomless pit, I can't fill it, if you want to marry me, don't support him, you have to support him......" The man couldn't go on, after all, he was still reluctant.

Liu is sullen back to the dormitory, took out the rotten "Dream of Red Mansions" from under the pillow, just saw Lin Daiyu burning poems, a bright teardrop rolled down, Liu is seeing that no one paid attention to her, as soon as she stretched out her hand to wipe it away, she turned the book back to the part where Tanchun scolded the old mother and looked it with relish.

The marriage was over, and the man went back to his hometown to get married, and made a phone call to ask before getting married. Liu didn't say a word, only listened to the man intermittently finish a sentence on the phone, and hung up the phone.

What the man said was, "You...... No...... Regret!"

This sentence will torment this willow for countless nights in the future, you don't regret it, you can't regret it, if you regret it, everything you did was wrong.

At that time, Liu Cai wanted to listen to his sister and do everything that his sister wanted to do but did not do; Cheng Lin had been an exchange student in the United States for a year, enjoying a free life, trying to make himself one of the most famous streets; Wang Juan counted the time every week and called the person on the other side of the world, but unfortunately the kite flew too far and the line could not be recovered.

At that time, none of them thought about what kind of fate people who were far away would have in the future.