"Three or four years, I don't know, maybe I can continue my studies, maybe longer, or just stay abroad. Tang Wan said.

I chuckled in my heart and stared at Tang Wan.

She actually said that she wanted to stay abroad, looking at her appearance, it seemed that she really had this plan, not like she was joking.

"Why do you want to stay abroad?" I asked.

"Don't you know yourself?" Tang Wan looked at me.

I was asked, and I didn't make a sound for a long time, and I couldn't answer Tang Wan's question.

"It's actually very good in China, you go abroad alone, you are not familiar with the place, the customs and habits are different, there is no need to go abroad, even if you want to study, go to further study, you don't have to settle there, it's not good. I said.

"It's okay to be alone anyway, I've long been used to being alone. Tang Wan said, "It's the same everywhere, when I go abroad, no one will show me a look, and I won't gossip behind my back." ”

I smiled bitterly, and Tang Wan's words were sarcastic.

"I'm really afraid that people will say, it's good to change cities, at least know the roots in China, have some confidence, go abroad, have a headache and brain fever, and no one takes care of you when you get sick and cold. I persuaded.

It is precisely because I know that the reason why Tang Wan went abroad may be related to me, she went abroad with a temper, if she really went to study, of course I did it with my wishes.

But if you go out with resentment, just to escape, or even not come back after going abroad, I don't want to see this.

"No one in the country will take care of it. Tang Wan glanced at me, "Will you take care of me?"

I was silent.

Tang Wan turned around and left.

"Hey. I stopped her.

Tang Wan turned her head to look at me.

"I was in a bad mood just now, and I wasn't angry with you. Really, no matter what you do to me, I won't be angry. I said, "You don't have to go abroad because of this." ”

"You're not angry, but you got angry on my birthday, and I just explained to you that Liu Chuang took the recorder, and you were indifferent, didn't react at all, and refused to talk to me. Tang Wan said.

"Angry...... Getting angry is just a pretext for me to play. I sighed and said to Tang Wan, "I don't want to hurt you, and I don't want to hurt others, all I can do is try my best to make a choice." ”

"Is the other person you are talking about Tong Wangjun or Su Ran?" Tang Wan looked at me, "The choice you made is nothing more than to abandon me and choose the two of them, don't say that you are very wronged, it should be me who is wronged." ”

After Tang Wan finished speaking, she left.

Looking at the back of her leaving, I still have a lot to say, she is gone, what will happen to her company, is she really not returning to China, and where is she going to settle?

It's a pity that these words couldn't be asked after all, because they didn't make any sense.

Maybe Tang Wan left and changed to a farther environment, which could reduce the resentment and grievances in her heart a little, and return to the appearance of high school.

Tang Wan who will be there is the best.

Nowadays, there are too many of them to be beautiful.

But I can't blame it, because it happened to be me who brought distracting thoughts to Tang Wan.

Tong Wangjun moved with the child, there was no news, Tang Wan was leaving, my guilty women were far away from me, and my world was calm again.

I don't want to admit it, but I do feel a lot more relaxed.

But I know that this is only because of the distance, and that guilt is hidden in the depths of my heart, and I don't know when it will resurface and mess up my life again.

My life is like a lake in front of me.

The bottom of the lake was full of mud, and the water looked clear, but that was only because no one stirred it, and if someone went in and walked around twice, it would definitely be muddy.

I stared at the water, slowly walked to the edge of the lake, and squatted down.

Looking at the indistinct reflection in the lake, I slammed my head against the surface of the lake, held my breath, and after a while got up, and then slapped myself hard.

This slap is a punishment for myself.

I'm a scumbag.

Tong Wangjun's departure, Tang Wan's departure, I actually feel a sense of relief in my heart.

Their departure made me passively make a choice, and the original chaotic life, like a life like a muddy lake, precipitated the impurities inside.

I relied on the initiative of the two of them to get the comfort I was looking for.

Wiping the water droplets from my face, I walked out of the grove and returned to the road before I was about to get into the car, but I found that the paint was peeling off on the passenger door.

The paint is off.

The new car I bought was actually painted.

For no reason, something that shouldn't have happened at all, I found a rock next to the tire of the car, and I suspected that someone had hit it with this stone.

I'm a little confused.

looked left and right, but didn't see the bear child, could it be that it was Tang Wan?

Shaking his head, I didn't want to pursue it anymore, and drove back to the community.

After taking a shower, I lay on the bed, ready to sleep well, I was too sleepy, I waited outside Tong Wangjun's house all night, I didn't sleep well at all, and I had a cold.

But before I fell asleep, my phone rang, and I received a text message, which was sent by Tong Wangjun, and I immediately clicked: You told your parents about our quarrel?

Her name has changed again.

Tong Wangjun's anger seemed to have subsided and he regained his senses.

I called her immediately, no one listened, she still put me on the blacklist, and I messaged her back: answer my phone. My mother misses the child a little, it happens to be the summer vacation, and it is inconvenient for you to take two children, let me watch the children.

Tong Wangjun quickly replied to my message: You don't have to worry about the child, I will take it myself. Don't tell your parents about us in the future, I won't answer your phone, I don't want to talk to you.

I called Tong Wangjun again, but she didn't reply to me.

I wondered why Tong Wangjun suddenly sent me a message back, and asked me if I told my mother about my quarrel with her.

Could it be that my mom called her?

With this guess, I immediately called my mother: "Mom, have you called Tong Wangjun?"

"Well, I beat it, and I didn't say anything, just to persuade the two of you to stop quarreling, and by the way, I will apologize to her for you, no matter what, it's not right for you to hit someone. My mother really called her, "You two have a good time to ease the relationship, but it's a good day, but I don't know why it's like this." If you two can have a good life, you don't have to come back often, your father and I can still work for a few years, and you don't need to take care of it, you just take care of yourself. ”

"I know. I sighed, not knowing what to say about my mother.

There are some things that I can't do if I say yes, and it's not that I didn't apologize to Tong Wangjun, but she is still angry, and I can't control it.

"The two of you really can't get by, it's better to get together and disperse, don't make a fuss, the girl named Su Ran is also very good, are you two still developing?"

I didn't know what to say, so I was silent for a long time before I said: "Mom, you don't care about this, fate is here, you can naturally succeed, fate can't be reached, it's not interesting to be entangled, and besides, there's nothing wrong with not getting married, there are not so many things, just live happily by yourself, isn't life just about pursuing these things, can't be too pedantic." ”

"What pedantry? How is this pedantic? Look at the people around you who don't get married, everybody has to get married, you have to have a companion when you're old, otherwise it's so pitiful, you can't have this idea. When my mother heard this, she was anxious, "Don't ask too much, be polite to other girls, men, let women be the way they should be, don't always be stubborn." ”

"I know. "I had to suppress the thoughts that were going to blow in my mind.

I can't tell my parents these thoughts.

In their eyes, life is a predetermined track, or conformity, what others do, they have to do what they do, especially marriage, you have to follow the crowd.

But I'm really tired.

Can't afford to love.

"If you really can't do it, find someone to introduce you to one?" my mother was still not at ease.

"What's the use of what you introduced, forcibly getting married, getting married and then getting divorced, what's the use, you can't get married because you're married, you don't care about it, I know it myself. "I didn't want my mom to get involved in it, so I said a few words and hung up the phone.

Lying on the bed, looking at the ceiling, I sighed heavily.

Do people have to follow the trajectory of other people's lives?

Do you have to live according to the concept that the public agrees with?

Can't you change anything, can't you just go according to your own heart?

As long as it is within the scope of laws and regulations, why should we care about the opinions of others, why can't we follow our own hearts?