That day, in that sad place, I saw that everyone was sad and crying. I stood in front of my dad and watched where he was lying.

I don't know what it's like, yes, I don't know. Since I was a child, in fact, my father was not very good to me, because he liked his daughter, hehe, I was also helpless!

I want to be a girl more than he does, at least I don't feel awkward in my clothes. So, I just stood there, not crying, not moving, not thinking.

Until I saw a child as old as me in the crowd, sitting on his father's neck, just curiously watching.

At this moment, for some reason, suddenly the feeling of sadness, heartache, and heartbreak poured in together. Then I remembered that when I made a birthday wish every year since I was a child, my wish was simply to sit on my father's shoulder, hold a balloon in his hand, and go to the park together as a family.

It's simple, right? But after so many years, it hasn't been realized. Now, it seems that there is no possibility of realizing it!

At this moment, I finally couldn't hold back my crying, crying hysterically, crying painfully until I ...... Until I cried until I didn't know anything.

I don't know how I should face the reality when I wake up, I only know that before the age of twelve, I said that I didn't want to wear boy's clothes anymore, even in the face of the ridicule of my classmates, in the face of no peers willing to play with me, in the face of being always thrown in the mud by bad children on the way home from school every day, I felt that I didn't care, I felt that I deserved it.

In addition to Andy and Qianqian, they will still accompany me every day. My daily routine is to go to school, go home to cook, and read some literary works that I can't understand at all, like "Jane Eyre", "Hugo", "Notre Dame de Paris", etc., you ask me why I read these books?

Because, just these few books...... I didn't have anything else to watch, and no one was playing with me, and I didn't want to always pull Andy or that violent maniac, because every time they told me to play, the other kids would isolate us together.

I'm just going to do it alone, so why bother letting them do this with me, right? I'm going to say that among all these books I can't read, my favorite is Sherlock Holmes.

Although it's still the same, it's basically hard to understand. After all, Chinese and Western cultures are different, and I was only seven years old at that time.

As for why I cooked, because in order to buy a cemetery for my father, it would be very expensive, so the family owed a lot of debt, and even sold the TV, and because of this, I could only read books!

My mother has to work two jobs by herself, trying to earn money to pay off her debts, and she has no time to take care of anything else, so I can only cook, and leave some for my mother to eat when she comes back, basically I have slept when she comes back, so I don't feel like I have seen my mother for a long time.

As for my grandparents, for some reason! In short, I didn't pay much attention to my grandparents until I was 12 years old, and I always didn't see them when I knocked on the door, not because I was unfilial, but, hey!

Because my mother took me to withdraw the money and went to pay the money to the cemetery, I saw a Astro Boy toy on the side of the road, and clamored for my mother to buy it for me, and after a while, the money was stolen, and as for how I stole it, my mother hung the bag on the bicycle, and she went to pay the bill and told me to stare at the bag, and I, except for a hum, never left the Astro Boy toy, until I found out that the money was gone, so this toy became my only toy since that day.

After returning home, my grandparents didn't believe anything, and they didn't go out of the money in the cemetery, my mother was crying and almost fainted, at that moment, I knew that I was the only man next to my mother, and my mother needed a shoulder, let me come!

I grabbed my mom and left. And that's what happened.