"Zhang Yan turned on the computer to check Taobao's logistics and transportation, today is the third day, and the gift he bought for Mu Yao should have arrived!"

Every time I transport, three days later, I can see Mu Yao sending a WeChat message to Zhang Yan and saying: "If you buy me something again, you won't save a little money." ”

"And today this time is a little different, seeing the shipping address on the computer screen to replace. I hadn't seen this situation before, and Zhang Yan didn't care about what was the reason for changing the address.

"It's almost noon, and Zhang Yan has to go downstairs to cook a meal and wait for his parents to come back from work, so that they can eat directly when they return home. ”

Zhang Yan could only take care of his body at home during this time, because he was weak and had to give up his job in Goose City and return to his hometown to recuperate, he couldn't do any heavy work, he could only do some housework and the like, because he had just recovered from a serious illness last month.

"After the meal is ready, the waiting is for the family to come back. ”

Anyway, I am bored at home alone, so I can't help but go to my cousin to chat, these days I heard relatives say that my cousin found a job in Baise and went to work easily, and the salary is quite good, and the relatives also said that the cousin made a girlfriend and always brought it home these days, by the way, chat with them to pass the time.

As soon as I walked to my cousin's door, I saw two people busy in the kitchen, presumably just getting up. Looking at them is like a warm little couple.

"Thinking of when Mu Yao hadn't gone to Nanning before, we were also stuck together every day, commuting together, and resting together. ”

But now we can only learn about each other's lives through WeChat every day. ”

Zhang Yan sometimes buys gifts on the Internet and gives them to Mu Yao, Zhang Yan wants Mu Yao to see these gifts and not forget that Zhang Yan has been waiting for her in Baise.

"I still remember the last time Mu Yao came back to Baise, the night she was going to come back, she would tell Zhang Yan and Zhang Yan through WeChat voice phone call that she would come back to Baise tomorrow. ”

Zhang Yan bought a silver bracelet in a jewelry store, and specially asked the master to engrave eight words on the inside of the bracelet: "Never separate for a lifetime" Zhang Yan didn't tell Mu Yao, but just said that he wanted to give her a bracelet.

In Zhang Yan's heart, the meaning of this bracelet is to make Mu Yao see the bracelet every day as if she sees herself, she knows Mu Yao's personality, and he hopes that even if the two of them are in different places, their hearts will be linked together.

At this time, Zhang Yan sat on the bench outside the door, occasionally looking at the couple sitting at the dinner table and fighting.

Wait for them to finish eating and start chatting, now menstrual people are inseparable from mobile phones, all the time are brushing the circle of friends, the three of them chatted together and gradually began to rise, cousin's girlfriend asked Zhang Yan: "Brother: Why don't you always go out to Baise at home? Go to find your sister-in-law, do you rest assured that she is alone in Baise?"

Zhang Yan said: "She is working in Nanning now, not in Baise."

Out of curiosity, my cousin's girlfriend asked, "Brother, show me what your girlfriend looks like, whether she is beautiful or not." ”

The cousin interrupted and said: Chunyan, "You don't know my brother's girlfriend, you don't know you when you see it!"

Zhang Yan smiled and said, "It's okay to see if you really know it, so Zhang Yan handed the phone to Chunyan and said: Na······ That's my girlfriend. ”

Chunyan took the phone and saw the photo, her eyebrows tightened and she stared at the photo on the phone, as if the person in the photo had the kind of expression she knew. She said this woman·········

Zhang Yan immediately interrupted Chunyan's words: Ask, do you really know her? Can't it? After speaking, Chunyan replied: I have a friend whose girlfriend is also very similar to your girlfriend, I don't know if it's your girlfriend's brother, they went to the mall together to buy clothes yesterday.

When she heard these words, she muttered to herself: No, no, she was chatting with me on WeChat last night, she said that she still has to work in Nanning, and she will definitely tell me when she comes back, Zhang Yan said. ”

"Then I don't understand you, anyway, I feel like it's exactly the same person, I still have that man's WeChat, this man is my ex-boyfriend, maybe your girlfriend didn't tell you when she came back!" Chunyan said. ”

At this time, his heart was beating so fast, and a hot breath on his body came up to his face, feeling that his face was hot, Zhang Yan didn't want the person Chunyan said in his mouth to be the girlfriend he had been waiting for for a year.

Zhang Yan clenched his fists and pinched his index finger with his thumb, although it hurt, he didn't seem to feel the pain, but no matter how much it hurt, it couldn't hurt everything that came suddenly.

Looking at Chunyan's ex-boyfriend's circle of friends, Zhang Yan recognized at a glance that this was the woman he had loved for several years and said goodnight to him on voice calls every day, and when Zhang Yan looked down again, he saw the video of her just putting on her shoes in the room.

Zhang Yan's eyes widened, shook his head, and took a step back, he couldn't accept this reality. ”

Holding the phone and turning his head to leave, Zhang Yan returned home and looked at the photos in the phone with his mobile phone, he was very entangled, "He kept asking himself in his heart if he wanted to make this call, and after taking a few deep breaths, he still dialed Mu Yao's mobile phone number. ”

After the phone was connected, Mu Yao's voice was still as sweet as usual, "Hey, honey, have you eaten?"

And Zhang Yan opened his mouth directly and asked: "Are you with someone else? Why are you lying to me, why?" Zhang Yan couldn't control his emotions, and after being silent for a long time, he only said three words. ”

"I'm sorry ··········"

"I'm really sorry, I just want to find someone to share with me, I'm sorry Zhang Yan. ”

A sentence of "I'm sorry" seems to put an end to Zhang Yan's hundreds of days and nights of waiting for more than a year.

Zhang Yan collapsed on the sofa, at this time he may have guessed that Mu Yao had already returned to Baise, but he just didn't want Zhang Yan to know, no wonder the express transportation on the computer had to change the address, it turned out to be transferred from Nanning to Baise.

According to this analysis, Mu Yao may have been back for a few days, Zhang Yan's heart seemed to be crushed, he didn't understand, and he didn't know what to do.

"It must be because of his illness that Mu Yao chose to leave and choose someone else. ”

It felt like a dream, and it also verified that the words of the relatives were right. ”

In this more than a year of illness, all relatives and friends looked down on him, saw him and stayed away from him, and he put all his hopes on his most beloved person, who was also her most beloved, and made him lose completely nothing.

In this year, Zhang Yan suffered what his age could not bear, and when he heard the words that his age could not bear, he thought about committing suicide to end himself, a person who died early and died late is also a death illness that brought him endless torture, if he was alone, he would really not care.

"There is no meaning for people to live in the world, what is meaningful is the people and things around them. ”

"Some things are as if they were meant to be, no matter how much you run away and how you turn around, you still have to go through this painful ordeal. ”

After hanging up the phone, Zhang Yan was silent for a while, wondering why this happened? Didn't you say that when we were together, no matter birth, old age, sickness or death, health or illness, wealth or poverty, we were all together?

Zhang Yan is very unwilling, after several years of love together, thousands of days and nights finally because he was sick, in exchange for a sentence of sorry, is this the truest side of the human heart?

"No! I must ask her why she would be so ruthless to leave after five years of love. Zhang Yan dialed the phone again, and after the phone was connected, he heard Mu Yao's tone very low: "Hey!" "I'm going to see you tomorrow, let's find a place to meet." Zhang Yan said: Okay, you can arrange the time and place! When you arrive, you can just call me, Mu Yao was silent after speaking.

"Every word you say is like a knife stuck in your heart inch by inch. ”

This day is the slowest day for Zhang Yan, since the afternoon to learn that everything about Mu Yao has dealt him a big blow, after dinner is ready, he is alone in the room in a daze, looking at the computer The photos left in the past few years, each one has the same memory, thinking about it and thinking about the tears still can't help but fall.

In the past, no matter how hard and poor his life was, he could survive no matter how much his relatives looked down on him, and he still survived it, since he began to be sensible, he was an independent individual, no one helped him, and even his closest parents were talking coldly.

His heart is also made of flesh and needs love to warm it, why is everyone around him like this to himself in this silent night, looking out the window at the dark patch, with a cold chill in the air, his heart is broken, and he even feels heartache when he breathes.

"He's wondering how he's going to face it tomorrow, what he's going to say when he sees her!"

He was very sleepy but couldn't sleep, as soon as he closed his eyes, he could imagine the kind of picture of her being with others, and the video that Chunyan showed himself just now. Seeing that Mu Yao was wearing shoes in the video, what shouldn't have happened has already happened.

He thought about tears and fell together, crying the most embarrassing since he was a child. ”

As the minutes passed, he didn't know how long it had been since he had been sitting in the corner of this room, and he felt that his whole body had become numb, he hugged his knees and buried his head in the middle, constantly looking through every photo posted in Mu Yao's WeChat.

These are his memories. ”

I thought that as soon as the morning dawned, he would have to face it alone, no longer two people.

Life is like a slow waiting for death, he doesn't expect anything, looking in the mirror, he only sees a pair of dead gray eyes, very dry, there is nothing in this world that can touch his joys, sorrows, and sorrows.

Zhang Yan was in this empty room, looking at the lights around him, like a small spring fire in the night, hoping that someone would give him a little hope, but no one would light a lamp for him, Zhang Yan unconsciously stretched out his hand, praying for a longing posture, but what answered him was the wind in his sleeve.

The night passed quickly, and when it was just dawn, Zhang Yan washed up and adjusted his mentality, he couldn't let Mu Yao see that he was crying last night, and his eyes were bloodshot.

He looked tired after not closing his eyes all night, and his face was even more pale and colorless after adding that he was not in good health, but he didn't care if he was thanked, and who knew how much pain he was in at the moment.

Before going out, Zhang Yan also called Mu Yao, and the phone was connected for a long time, and after the phone was connected, he heard Mu Yao's hoarse voice: Hey, why haven't I gotten up so early? After saying that, I heard a man on the side asking whom, did you call you so early to find something?

Zhang Yan clenched his fists tightly and said I have arrived in Baise, where are you coming out, let's make everything clear. ”

Zhang Yan pretended not to hear the man on the other side of the phone just now, and his heart was deeply stabbed again, and this knife hit the vital point.