I've talked to many people about the word "worthy," and many have approached me to ask me if it's worth it.

I talked eloquently, but in my heart I rolled my eyes that could jump to the sky - ask me a fart! The old lady herself didn't understand it.

On the eve of the Spring Festival in 2009, I first said this word, to Qi Li, who was lying in a quilt with me, she was curled up into a four-happiness pill, complaining that the lack of heating in my house was terrible.

I asked her, "Is it worth it for you to carry the black pot like this and receive such a big punishment?"

In the past, I always pursued the principle of "do what you want to do, regardless of the result", and that day, for some reason, this word popped into my head, and at that moment I felt like I had grown up, and I was very good.

"There is a difference between right and wrong between enemies, and there is a loss between businessmen, he is the one who will come to marry me in the future with colorful auspicious clouds, and we don't talk about 'worthiness', only 'willing'. She leaned over to me, "Are you a hot water bottle? ”

"Then if one day, he rides the colorful auspicious clouds to marry not you but your dog, don't you regret it?" I asked her.

"Fuck you!" she lifted her foot and kicked at my calf, and I was thrilled by the touch of a frozen pig's trotter. "Sleep, sleep!" she turned her back in anger, and she wanted to be two meters away from me with a one-meter-five bed.

After a while, there was no more dialogue between us. Her breathing was soft and even, probably asleep.

I rolled over and lay flat and closed my eyes.

What kind of man would let a woman be punished for him? I remembered Tang Jibei's words.

Men who don't love you. I remembered Shanshan's answer.

If love in this world really doesn't talk about "worthwhile" and only says "willing", why are there so many pairs of tearful eyes in the moonlight under the cover of night?

(1)

That day, Shan Shan was like a female boss who came out of a Hong Kong film, with neat short hair, sleeves rolled up high, anger between her eyebrows and eyes, and she was going to kill the teaching office menacingly with a split-like pace.

Tang Jibei and Yu Qiuyun walked behind her left and right. Tang Jibei took off his coat and put it on his shoulders, inhaling snot as he walked in the cold wind, and Yu Qiuyun's left ear still had a half-pulled earphone.

I followed them like a minion, constantly looking at the bricks and shovels in the flower beds all the way - I remember that whenever the bigwigs in Hong Kong films went to "talk about business", they always had no pistols in their butt pockets. We don't have guns, and Shan Shan doesn't have a butt pocket. But we can have slabs and bricks, which are just right to be stuffed into the chest of Shan Shan and Ma Pingchuan.

We don't need these weapons.

We had a murderous look on our faces, and we met Qi Li who was putting his hands in his pockets and looking relaxed at the bottom of the administrative building.

A few of us are in a group, and Qi Li is fighting alone. The two sides face each other, as if they were confronting police and criminals on the rooftop.

"What about the grandson?" Tang Jibei snorted.

"Which grandson. Qi Li looked cold.

"Lin Suhao's grandson. Tang Jibei's snot flowed out of his nostrils again.

"Who is your grandson. Qi Li glanced into the distance.

"Lin Suhao!"

"Boom!"

Tang Jibei covered his crotch with his legs, couldn't make a sound for a long time, watched his face turn from white to red, and finally suffocated purple, and escaped an eggplant that accidentally fell into the popcorn machine.

"!" he roared after a while.

"I don't care if you recognize your grandson all over the world, but if you take advantage of him, you take advantage of me. If there is no way to speak again, I will let you cut off your children and grandchildren. Qi Li loosened his ankles and turned sideways and walked away from us.

I looked at Shan Shan, and then at Yu Qiuyun, I guess I should be the same as them at the moment, except for a stupid face, there is no murderous aura.

I was the first to react, and hurriedly turned around to catch up with Qi Li: "You admit it?"

"It was originally my cheating, of course I admit it. "Qi Nei has been charged without changing his color, if it weren't for Tang Jibei and Fang Chaomu's evidence, I would almost have believed her nonsense because of this expression.

"Damn, eldest sister, are you Oscar?" Tang Jibei also hurried up, but always kept a distance of one meter from Qi Li. "It's obviously that Sun ......"

He stopped suddenly, immediately subconsciously protected his crotch, and changed his words: "Sun ...... Lin Suhao, who is cowardly, cheats! Then the answer is what he asked you for! I said that you are pretending to be a female hooligan to save the little white face, and you will be punished for cheating!"

I echoed and nodded vigorously, shouting loudly in my heart that this two hundred and five is right, you big idiot!

"I was not disciplined. Qi Li stopped, turned to us and smiled: "The goddess will not be punished." ”

Tang Jibei sighed: "You can pull it down! Venus was also cut off two elbows!"

I rolled my eyes, and secretly scolded the old man in my heart for being dizzy, these two hundred and five in front of me are a natural pair.

"Can you be tight?" I pulled Qi Li, "Let's talk about it, why didn't the jealous leaders punish you." ”

"It's not that there is no punishment, it's that there is no punishment. They said that I had excellent grades, and if I got into a good university next year, the punishment would be a stain on the file. ”

Tang Jibei opened his eyes angrily and wailed to himself, "Is there any justice! My grades are better than yours! Why did I give my punishment so simply! I don't care if I want @Principal Wang, I want @Secretary Bai!"

Qi Li sneered, "Cheating is a matter of integrity, and if you trespass into the women's toilet, it is obscene, and the nature is different." ”

"Then how is the school going to punish you?" Shan Shan stepped forward, full of worry.

"All the final exams will be cleared, the scholarship for the next semester will be cancelled, and there will be ......," she paused, "and the competition for next year's guarantee will be disqualified." ”

(2)

A philosopher once said that the most suitable occasion for bragwning is a hot pot restaurant, and a more suitable place than a hot pot restaurant is a barbecue stand.

This philosopher's name is Tang Jibei, and at this moment he is leading a group of us to eat kidney and tripe in this barbecue restaurant with low tables and low benches and broken fans on old walls.

I don't really understand why the owner chose such a name, but it is said that it used to be a shampoo shop. Probably the boss is good, I thought, whatever, I'm a woman, I don't need to wash my hair, my waist is delicious.

Tang Jibei is trying to use his unshaved stubble and the dusty action of unbuttoning the two buttons on his chest to convince the boss that we are not middle school students, so that he may be able to buy a few bottles of beer from the boss.

The boss glanced at our school bags piled on the stool and politely and gently told him to get out of the way.

Shan Shan is still worried about Qi Li's inability to participate in the competition. Tang Jibei didn't get beer, so she drank three cans of coconut water with a drunken look, and poked Qi Li's head: "Are you stupid? ”

Qi Li angrily and funnily shook her hand away: "Okay, don't act, eldest sister, you drink Lulu, not nine degrees." With that, she opened a jar and poured it down.

That's it, she wiped the dampness from the corners of her mouth, and looked at the empty jar for a long time, "Then take the test yourself, if you don't pass the test, it's my life." It's better not to be escorted than to be punished. In fact, the teachers knew very well how I could copy the answer of someone who failed math. But I don't admit it, and they can't help it. ”

I felt very uncomfortable in my heart. Sure enough, sacrifice and fulfillment are the eternal themes of love, and there are always people who can't wait to burn themselves into ashes to light up the fate of another person.

If I love you, I'm going to do my best to fulfill you.

So if you love me, do your best to be yourself.

What bullshit logic.

I chewed the roast tendons in my mouth and turned my head to look out the door, where the neon lights flickered, and the steam of the hot pot and the smoke of the barbecue stall were intertwined with the steam and laughter.

The night was dispelled by the lights, and the foreign city at this moment seemed to have no worries.

It was a foreign city that I had never seen before.

I was fascinated by it and couldn't come back to my senses for a long time.

In the countless neons that flickered in the night, under the brightest one, I saw a boy in a thin shirt in the cold winter.

He was shivering.

The girl next to her was wearing a men's down jacket, which I guess was the one that the boy was missing.

She still seemed to be cold, shivering with the boy.

The boy took her in his arms, and strangely, she trembled even more.

After a while, it dawned on me that her trembling was not because of the cold, but because she was crying.

The boy gently patted her on the back, gently soothing.

I patted Qi Li next to me and pointed out this beautiful picture to her.

It was a long time before the girl straightened up from the boy's arms, and the boy's fingertips carefully stroked her tears.

"It's so gentle. Qi Li propped his chin and sighed deeply.

The next second, they turned around and stopped a taxi.

The moment they turned around, a cold wind poured in, blowing the smile on my face.

I didn't dare to look back, but I could clearly hear the sound of "so gentle" shattering little by little.

"That's ...... Lin Suhao?"