"If you were born again, what would you do?"

Bai Ningyuan typed down such a line in the dialog box, and then clicked send.

"I'm going to start Alibaba, Taobao or something, or enter real estate, and talk about love with a few little stars!"

"It must be the use of foresight to become the richest man in the world, and the worst of the worst must be the richest man in the country or something!"

"Buy a lottery ticket and win millions on the top few times!"

"Silly, you've been hit a few times, and you're not afraid of being pulled to slice!"

"By the way, Demon Yueda, what about you, what if you do?"

"Ask ...... same question"

“+1”

“+1”

It's a spacious living room in a dim place, only the LCD TV not far away and the screen of the notebook in front of him, emitting a faint light, and when this information keeps popping up in the dialog box of the QQ book friend group, Bai Ningyuan casually glanced at the program being played on the LCD TV, and then refocused on the notebook, tapping on the keyboard with his fingers, chatting happily with his book friends.

At this time, the hour hand had already pointed to 23 o'clock, and the parents, wife and daughter had already fallen asleep in their respective bedrooms, and only Bai Ningyuan, a person whose biological clock was upside down, was still watching TV with great interest.

Today is the breakout competition of the third season of the Mango Channel program "I Am a Singer", in fact, for Bai Ningyuan, he didn't like this kind of variety show, but this time there is his favorite singer Li Jian in the show.

Pinching his fingers, he has been listening to Li Jian's songs for more than ten years, and he has changed from a high school student who is ignorant of the world to a middle-aged man who is still in his prime, and he is crawling every day for life.

Bai Ningyuan is a standard "post-80s" , born in 86, resumed classes for a year after failing the college entrance examination in 04, was admitted to a third-rate university in 05, studied a major that I studied for four years before I found that I didn't like it, after graduating in 09, I worked as a writer in Chinese, and later because of physical reasons, I worked as an engineer, mixed in the automotive industry for several years, from a marketing manager to a sales manager, and finally became a victim of the group's high-level politics, and was also tired of this immutable mechanical life, and returned to Dianniang Chinese after resigning, only to find that this online literature industry has long been turned upside down, and can only conscientiously climb up from a rookie。

"The next song is from a Korean movie "If Love Has Providence......"

At this time, the sound of the host's announcement came from the TV, which attracted Bai Ningyuan's attention from the notebook and turned to the show, he knew that this was the last song of the evening, and it was also the time when Li Jian, who he had been looking forward to, appeared on the stage.

"At the same time, the soundtrack of the movie also touched the singer who will appear next, it is said that he watched this movie seventeen or eighteen times, and once wanted to fill in the lyrics, why does he have a soft spot for this movie? What kind of yearning does this person yearn for love? What kind of flavor can he sing this new song with his own lyrics? Please the next singer, applause!"

Bai Ningyuan didn't have any impression of this movie, so before Li Jian appeared, he still hesitated slightly, and first typed a line of words in the dialog box: "If I am reborn, I don't have much ambition, in fact, like many people, I am just an ordinary little person who can no longer be ordinary, and I have no outstanding ability, but the first thing to do is to be admitted to a good university! Then make more money, and don't have to run around for a living! At the very least, don't take out a loan to buy a house!"

At the end, I put on a smiling emoji and clicked send.

At first glance, it looks quite playful, but under the closer inspection, it is full of the sadness and helplessness of a middle-aged man.

The house, in this era of the country's wealth and the poor, has become a pain in the minds of many people, the house in front of him is a second-hand house that Bai Ningyuan just bought the year before last, almost emptied all his savings, and the fruits of his parents' labor for most of his life, so that he can be regarded as a family with a car and a house, in the eyes of some people, it is also quite glamorous, but behind these envy, it is a loan of thousands of yuan a month, which makes him a little breathless.

Since buying a house, even the expenses of daily life on weekdays are borne by parents with pensions, but Bai Ningyuan's daily expenses are also extraordinarily budgeted, and they really can't wait to tear a dollar in half to spend, and even buy some new clothes for their wives, both of them have to think about it for a long time, after all, their daughter will soon go to kindergarten, and it will be a huge expense, the economy is sluggish, and there are more and more places that need money, but the salary and savings are getting less and less.

Seriously, for many months, looking at the pitiful manuscript fee, and thinking about his confident words before, Bai Ningyuan really felt very sorry for her, although his wife never said anything, but the disappointment that flashed in her eyes made Bai Ningyuan's self-esteem as the head of the family ache faintly from time to time.

I obviously want their mother and daughter to live a good life, but why are they so tired!

Sometimes, looking at the various happiness, travel, and food of classmates and friends in the QQ space of the circle of friends, but his life is like a pool of stagnant water that can't stir up any waves, he will feel unwilling, but equally strong, there is jealousy and loss.

People always have a huge sense of disparity when they are in contrast.

For many nights, Bai Ningyuan also remembered in his mind the ideals he had promised when he was young, but all of them were gradually buried in the mud in the increasingly difficult mire of life.

It's easy to live, it's easy to live, it's not easy to live!

"The star on the edge of the sky appeared,

You know I'm starting to miss again,

How much love can only be seen from afar,

It's like moonlight shining on the surface of the sea......"

Li Jian's soft singing voice suddenly came from the TV, murmuring like reading a poem, coupled with the melodiousness of the violin and piano, which instantly attracted Bai Ningyuan's mind from the cranky thoughts just now, and quickly immersed himself in it.

"When we were young, we thought,

Those who love each other will be forever,

When we believe in love to the depths together,

Can't hear the sigh in the wind......"

Bai Ningyuan's face moved slightly, and at this time, he could feel that some of the softness in his heart seemed to be touched.

"Who knows what love is,

A brief encounter but never forget,

Spend a lifetime of time,

I won't forget ......"

When I heard this, a figure quietly looking back appeared in my mind, with a soft smile on my face, and those memories buried deep in my heart seemed to have completely surfaced all of a sudden.

The warm kiss on the street on the snowy night of Jinmen, the mutual snuggling under the fireworks on the campus during the Lantern Festival, the heartbeat in the cinema, and the stroll on the seaside of Qindao, like a movie, are presented in front of me, unconsciously, and suddenly a little blurry in front of me.

"Now that we are apart,

Live like the people around you,

The person in front of me gives me the most trusted dependence,

May you be gentle......"

It's a pity that after the sweetness, there is more endless bitterness, Bai Ningyuan still remembers the faint pain that appeared in his heart when he heard the news of her marriage, diluting the joy of becoming a father for the first time.

"How many times in a trance,

As if I saw you flowing in a sea of people,

Vaguely you have emerged,

In the blink of an eye, I didn't see ......."

How many days and nights, Bai Ningyuan once thought in his mind, if the result of the two people was not like this, then what would life be like now?

Speaking from the heart, Bai Ningyuan loves his wife very much, but the figure in his mind has been deeply implanted in his life, and he has become an inseparable symbiote, lingering, after those unbeautiful things are washed away by the flowing water of time, only those beautiful pearls remain.

After listening to a song, Bai Ningyuan was already in tears.

In the dream at night, Bai Ningyuan seemed to have returned to her school cafeteria, and sitting in front of him was her thirty years old, familiar and strange.

"Are you doing?" she asked.

"Very good!" Bai Ningyuan nodded, perhaps because of that pitiful self-esteem, he didn't want to be too cheap in front of her.

"You're still so stubborn!" a faint sneer appeared on her face, "If you're doing well, then why does she sit next to you all the time?"

Bai Ningyuan turned his head sharply and looked at the face of the person next to him who was subconsciously regarded as his girlfriend, it was her when she was twenty years old.

The two faces kept alternating in front of him, gradually becoming blurred, Bai Ningyuan opened his mouth to shout something, but his throat was like a ball of cotton, and the surroundings gradually became dark, and his heart suddenly panicked.

He snapped his eyes open......