When I returned to the rental house after dinner with Brother Zhou, it was already more than nine o'clock in the evening, and my complicated feelings were not covered by this dark night, but even worse.

The dim room smelled of damp berries, and the countryside night was very quiet, and the old man had already fallen asleep. I lit a mosquito coil, sat on the old rattan chair given by the old man, looked at the empty room, the walls were dashing, and the mosquitoes buzzed around me nastyly, and suddenly there was a melancholy taste, and my heart was filled with loneliness and confusion, and my mood was extremely lost.

I was in a daze at the calligraphy I had written on the opposite wall, and those few words were my inspirational words:

The Ambition of the Sparrow

Taste the food under the claws

The intestine is not full of more than 100 grains

The sound is not far from the five furrows

Soar under the fence

It is also self-sufficient

Luan Feng's ambition

Thousands of miles in one fell swoop

Non-sycamore and not dwelling

It is not bamboo, and it is not eaten

Singing in the morning sun

The world calls it celebrated

Zhidu Meteorology

It has its own differences

I looked at these words and thought of Brother Zhou's words, and analyzed them very thoroughly. However, I really can't let go of Xue'er in my heart! Do I still want to go to Zhuhai to find her? Could it be that Xue'er really hates me so much? If her mother wasn't by her side, I thought, once I stood at the door of her house, she would let me in, Xue'er's heart for me, I understand! I don't have to doubt her.

As for Ah Zhen, even if I have an unforgettable affection for her, I can only let it go. But what I'm most afraid of is that Ah Zhenna is dead-headed, once she decides, she may not be able to let go, unless I am with Cher, she will not be able to pester us anymore because of her sisters.

But is this too much of a coincidence? It seems to be a copy of the previous generation of the two sisters, will their respective mothers accept this situation?

Perhaps, Xue'er's mother and Ah Zhen's mother must be difficult to tolerate such a situation! Therefore, it is estimated that it will be difficult for me to have a good ending with Xue'er and Ah Zhen? Ah Zhen may take into account the sisterhood in her heart, and can only let herself keep her grief to herself and slowly withdraw? I will also feel guilty for the rest of my life! But if I am with Jia Ling, the stimulation of Ah Zhen must be very heavy! She will also be unwilling? Therefore, she may continue to be in trouble?

Will I go to Jialing?Will I only be with her from now on?Until we get married?Will Xue'er and Ah Zhen really never get along with each other again?Shouldn't I see Xue'er again?Even if a few useless and pale explanations are fine.

Could it be that Cher and Zhen and I were separated in that way on the occasion of the opening day of the exhibition?

I asked myself:

Perhaps, these are the cases?

I don't dare to think about it.

…………

There was a sudden dog barking outside, which disrupted my train of thought, it must be the couple of Zhou Ge's relatives next door who came back, I estimated that it was late at night, and I didn't think about it anymore, went to bed, and prepared to get up early tomorrow to go to Buji Dafen Village.

Buji Dafen Painters Village is a small village in Buji outside Pengcheng Pass, in the early days of reform and opening up, there were some small oil painting workshops that moved from Hong Kong, all of which rented the former houses of the aborigines as workshops, specializing in imitating some famous Western paintings or making some inferior landscape oil paintings, because there was a market demand outside, so slowly gathered some painting dealers, painters, and some young painters who started their hands; 。

I spent the morning taking the bus three times and four times to noon before arriving at Dafen Village, and then I ate a fast food at a street restaurant, which was not expensive, two or three yuan, and I could eat enough.

After lunch, I looked for a few oil painting workshops, and I felt that it was too different from the Chinese paintings I was usually painting, and I thought that since this place was known as a painter's village, there must be some Chinese paintings, but after a long time, there was no one, and I wondered? I walked into a small painting shop, the boss was not there, there was a slightly fat middle-aged woman, dressed in fancy clothes, maybe it was the proprietress ? I chatted with her. As soon as I entered her shop, she first asked me:

"Young man, are you here to sell paintings, buy paintings, or look for a job? It seems that most of them are not selling paintings or buying paintings, they must be looking for work, so come, sit down and talk. The middle-aged aunt smiled respectfully and was very friendly, which made me feel closer to her.

"Thank you, Auntie, how do you know? Yes, I'm looking for a job, why isn't there a Chinese painting shop here?" I said politely, sitting across from the middle-aged woman.

"I don't know, I don't have any. It's all oil painting workshops, maybe there is no such demand in the outside market, right?" the woman was counting, and as she spoke, she looked up at me again, and then continued:

"There are a lot of people who come here every day, and when you are dressed like your age, you don't look like you're in business, you're here to sell paintings, and the first time you come out to sell paintings, you must have a painting in your hand, even if it's a small one, right? After the middle-aged woman spoke, she poured me a glass of water, her tone mixed with pride. I said thank you and asked her:

"Auntie, are you recruiting? But I'm not painting oil paintings, I paint Chinese paintings, can I do it?"

The woman looked up at me and said:

"It's not oil painting, it's difficult, it's a skilled hand, fast, the painter gets paid by piecework, and it's hard to make money with zero foundation." Beginners only have a salary of a few dozen dollars a month to make a foundation, but it is difficult for no one to take you yourself. Because other painters also have to paint by themselves, everyone makes money quickly by themselves, and who has time to teach, so, we don't want to be familiar with it, I thought it was unpleasant to work in another studio, and I wanted to change jobs?"

"Oh, I see. ”

"Yes, you think that the money is so easy to make, to put it mildly, even if the teaching aid of the Academy of Fine Arts comes, it may not necessarily make more money than our skilled painters? They can't paint our paintings, or they look down on our paintings, Qing Gaobei! Where did you graduate?"

"I'm not a professional, I'm just an amateur painter of Chinese painting, very beginner. "When I said that, I blushed a little, and my face felt hot.

"Then don't waste your time here, find other jobs, if you don't have a studio recruiter, you can go, I'll do business here." After the woman finished speaking, her eyes were a little pig-eyed, and she turned white to me.

I felt a strong sense of humiliation in my heart for a moment, but I politely quit the woman anyway.

Aimlessly, I went to several more oil painting workshops, and they all ran into the same problem - don't be a novice. I had to completely dismiss the idea of making money by painting, and maybe, this kind of painting work may not be suitable for me.

After an afternoon in Buji Dafen Village, I didn't get anything, so I had to hurry back to the city before it was dark. After several bus changes, it was already past 7 p.m. when I returned to the city. I got off the bus at the Cultural Palace bus stop, ate a fried noodle at the snack shop next to the entrance of the Cultural Palace, and went into the Cultural Palace to find Mr. Xiao Huanqun.

Some time ago, I imitated Wang Shuhui's "Atlas of the West Chamber", and also referred to Tang Yin's "Autumn Wind Fan Picture", and drew a "Yi'an Jushi Picture", Yi'an Jushi's face shape is based on Xue'er's face, which is not only similar in shape, but also god-like. This painting was placed by Mr. Xiao to ask Mr. Xiao to help with the inscription, and it was a silk book.

This painting took a lot of my energy, it is a meticulously made work of fine brushwork and heavy color, in the painting, Yi An Jushi is standing in front of the figure, holding a pen in one hand, looking out of the window, as if he has just finished writing new words, and the new words written on the paper on the desk are "Slow Voice-Seeking and Seeking". The calligraphy on the paper in the painting felt rendered to the point where it seemed that the ink had not yet dried, and Yi Anju was thoughtful, as if he still had thousands of thoughts. Because the painting is on the front, the face shape is very similar to Xue'er, and the portrayal is also very detailed and expressive, and the feeling of "what a sad word is deserved" is also drawn between the eyebrows and eyes! The environment outside the window is accompanied by cannas, green bamboos, Taihu Lake stone rockeries; the tone of the whole painting is mainly light purple and blue, and the picture is very elegant, but it is slightly deep and sad.

Originally, this painting was intended to be given to Cher, but the meaning of the painting was that there was a sign of it? Could it be that Cher would not have a good time in the future? I don't know if she would give this painting to Cher or not? However, if I have the opportunity, I must give this painting to Cher by hand, even if it is to make a souvenir for her.

Before I knew it, I arrived at the door of Mr. Xiao's house.

"Is Mr. Xiao at home?" I tapped the door a few times.

"It's Hanzhe, come in, here. Mrs. Xiao opened the door and let me in, she is also an art teacher who teaches at Pengcheng Middle School.

"Good evening, Shiniang, excuse me, thank you!" I casually gave Mrs. Xiao a bag of fruit that I had just bought at the gate of the Cultural Palace.

"Mr. Xiao is painting in the studio, let's go in, you're welcome. "Because I know each other well, I used to come to ask Mr. Xiao for advice, so Mrs. Xiao asked me to go directly to Mr. Xiao's studio.

Mr. Xiao is painting a large painting, 2 meters x 2 meters, the painting is Huang Zongying, the person in the painting Huang Zongying is sitting on the leather sofa, calm and relaxed, there is no lack of kindness in the smile, the eyes are full of energy, very wise, elegant temperament, noble and extremely beautiful feminine demeanor, very natural, not a little pretentious. The title of the work is "Actor-Writer-Manager". Mr. Xiao painted this work for several months, and he said that this work is going to be published in the "Pengcheng Special Zone Daily", and he will also participate in the National Art Exhibition every five years, which is a work of heart.

When Mr. Xiao saw me come in, he stopped the pen in his hand, took out the drawing that helped me write the good money, and then said:

"You kid, this painting is good! I can see that it is very attentive, it seems to imitate Wang Shuhui, but it seems that there is also Tang Yin's brushwork, which is very ancient, not bad. ”

"Thank you, teacher, for your encouragement! ”

"Where are you doing it now? Are you still in Yunlin? It's close to here, you can come over at night, and if you have time to rest on Sunday, you can also come to my studio to paint, there are more than 100 here, enough for the two of us." You have to find a way to squeeze more time and paint more, I think you might be better at painting landscapes, I seem to have heard you say, I have been in Wang Meng's paintings before?"

"Yes, teacher, I have learned to paint "Mustard Seed Garden Painting" before, and I have also been to some ancient paintings, including Wang Shuming's "Dongshan Thatched Cottage" and "Qingbian Seclusion", "Gezhichuan Migration Map", etc., as well as other ancient paintings, such as Shen Zhou's "Lu Shangao" and Huang Gongwang's "Fuchun Mountain Residence" and so on. But it's not systematic, there are also Yan Jiang's, Shi Tao's, today's people have Lu Yanshao, Li Lao, etc., sometimes I also learn to draw characters, please give me more guidance in the future. ”

Teacher Xiao motioned for me to sit down, and then said:

"If you have a long-term plan, you still have to study systematically, and then choose a good goal, metaphorically saying landscapes or people or flowers and birds, you can't paint this today and that tomorrow, you have to choose a direction, and then focus on the same, I think you may be better at painting landscapes. ”

"I prefer to paint landscapes, so I'll take landscapes as the main ones in the future, what do you think?"

"I also think it's good, but I still need to read more painting theories, such as "Six Laws Theory", or "Bitter Melon Monk Painting Quotations" and so on, so that I can have theoretical support and more understanding. The actual painting talent is also very important, I think you are particularly talented, of course, there are conditions to copy more ancient paintings, especially the Song and Yuan Dynasty landscapes, "Early Spring" and "Streams and Mountains" are also a must, there is a chance, but also to Wang Ximeng's "Thousands of Miles of Rivers and Mountains", that is almost the peak of the green landscape, is painted on the silk of the long scroll masterpiece, Wang Ximeng in the completion of this work, is only eighteen or nine years old. However, in the field of traditional Chinese painting, no one has been able to surpass this painting! Unfortunately, it is said that he died young after painting this painting. In short, you have to use more pen and sketch more, and the so-called 'search for all the peaks to make drafts' means this, because works of art also come from life. ”

"Thank you for the teachings, I will try to draw more time. ”

"How is the work going, do you have the conditions to draw?"

"No, I... I... I just lost my job and haven't found a job yet, and I went to Dafen today, but I didn't find it. ”

"Dafen may not be suitable for you, there is an oil painting factory over there, you are painting Chinese paintings, almost a horse and a cow. It's more realistic for you to find a job that you know and like, and then study while working. ”

"yes, that's what I thought too. ”

At this time, a friend of Mr. Xiao came to him, so I quit Mr. Xiao and went home with the painting.

On the way home, I thought to myself that before I found a job, I might as well try to work as a plasterer for a few days, which would not require any experience, and I would have survived the difficulties of life, otherwise I would starve to death.