1289 Loneliness
(Girls' Literature)
Tang Ming looked at the office where there was no one else now, a little lonely. Usually when there were no other teachers, Tang Ming didn't feel lonely, but now facing such an office alone, he felt a little bit like seeing people. Tang Ming felt as if there was something in his heart that was gone and empty, so he felt lonely.
But what it was, Tang Ming couldn't say, Tang Ming felt that even she didn't know what the lost thing was. She thought of finding that thing, but her intuition told her that Huang Ye would definitely be unhappy. Now even she doesn't know why she listens to Huang Ye so much, and she will definitely not do anything that Huang Ye is unhappy about.
Ever since he read the letter that day, and then after seeing Huang Ye, Tang Ming felt that it was a normal thing for him to have a fiancé, as if this fiancé was the person she had been waiting for and pursuing for a long time. Tang Ming always had a voice in her head telling her that Huang Ye was the person she liked. However, looking at Huang Ye and Tang Ming, he didn't have that feeling of liking.
However, Tang Ming shook his head, he always felt that his brain had become confused recently, and there were some things that he always couldn't figure out, and then he felt that he couldn't think of it. For example, today, she obviously wanted to ask Huang Ye what Su Bei meant by what he said, but she had no way to ask, and if she thought about it carefully, she couldn't figure it out.
That day, when Huang Ye told herself that he was her fiancé, Tang Ming actually didn't believe it, although she kept telling herself that this was the truth, she still felt a little unbelievable.
So, after Tang Ming returned to his home, he called his father and asked him if she had a fiancé.
As a result, her father told her that yes, that fiancé was Huang Ye, so Tang Ming believed that Huang Ye was his fiancé. Although she also couldn't understand why she forgot that she had a fiancé.
Then, it was time to go to Huang Ye's house in the morning. Tang Ming felt a little strange, he had obviously not been to his house, but he could drive to his house by himself. Tang Ming asked Huang Ye about this matter, and Huang Ye's answer was that Tang Ming had been here before, but Tang Ming had forgotten about it. At that time, Tang Ming wondered when his memory had become so bad.
Sometimes, Tang Ming felt that his head could not think. Sometimes she could sit in one place and not know what to think about it, and then suddenly come back to her senses and find that she had been sitting there for a long time. Then what he was thinking about, Tang Ming couldn't say.
When facing Huang Ye, sometimes Tang Ming also wanted to resist and wanted not to listen to him. But he didn't know why, Tang Ming found that he couldn't refuse Huang Ye's request, the only thing he could do was to listen to Huang Ye's words.
Just like that day, Huang Ye told her to remember to drink water, obviously Tang Ming didn't want to drink it, but he still couldn't help but drink it.
Sometimes Tang Ming really wanted to rebel against Huang Ye, but he could only suffer on his own side. She really couldn't refuse Huang Ye's request, obviously she didn't want to move, but she still moved.
Tang Ming never felt that he was such an obedient personality, but now Tang Ming was very helpless to find that she was such a personality in the face of Huang Ye.
Tang Ming felt very empty, and felt that he couldn't find the person he liked, the thing he liked. I usually like to teach students, but now I find it very uncomfortable and boring to teach them.
Especially, every time she was teaching students on it, she could always see Huang Ye looking at her very gently there.
Although she knew that Huang Ye liked her very much, she felt that she couldn't like Huang Ye. Usually, Huang Ye would ask her if she liked him or not.
Then every time, although she wanted to answer directly that she didn't like it, but after seeing Huang Ye's face, her dislike suddenly turned into a liking.
It's strange, this is obviously not her heart, this is obviously not what she wants to say, but it comes out of her mouth. Tang Ming now became a little reluctant to speak, because the words she said might not be what she really wanted to say.
Now Tang Mingduo wants to go back to his former home by himself, but now he has to wait here for Huang Ye to come to her, and then the two of them go home together and go back to Huang Ye's home.
In her room, it can be seen that Huang Ye has put a lot of effort into decorating, but Tang Ming has never liked it. That beautiful room didn't make her feel warm all the time. Therefore, even if he went back there now, Tang Ming felt that he didn't want it a little.
Huang Ye had already told her many times that it was not only his Huang Ye's home, but also the home that Tang Ming would live in in the future. So moving over now is not only so that the two of them can have direct contact with each other, but also so that Tang Ming can get used to it in advance.
However, Tang Ming felt that if she lived there in the future, she would definitely get tired of it.
Tang Ming said that he didn't hate Huang Ye. Huang Ye is very beautiful, and then very capable, but she has always felt that she does not like him. Tang Ming always felt that he had someone he liked very much, and then he had already thought about living with her in the future.
But it's strange that Tang Ming can't remember who he likes. How could he forget the person he liked? Tang Ming felt so strange, even if he had a bad memory, it was impossible to say that he had forgotten the person he liked.
However, Tang Ming really couldn't remember who the person he liked was, and he really couldn't remember it. What a strange feeling, it's like this again, Tang Ming feels that he can't control his head, his own thoughts.
Since he couldn't think of it, Tang Ming thought about whether to go to her by himself. However, now Huang Ye looks at himself very strictly. Basically, if he wasn't there, Tang Ming wouldn't have been able to go anywhere else. Even if Tang Ming told Huang Ye that he wanted to go out alone, Huang Ye would not allow it.
Tang Ming felt that he no longer had the freedom to live his life. She didn't like this, Tang Ming felt that she should be a happy and happy bird, and she would not be restricted by anyone.
Now, Tang Ming felt that he should not have any more free time. So now Tang Ming is a little depressed most of the time, and he can't find the joy of life.
Huang Ye has also said that she has said many times, don't be such a person who is lazy and doesn't want to do anything. But Tang Ming felt that there was no freedom, she really didn't want to do anything, no matter what it was, there was no fun in Tang Ming's eyes.
There is another point, that is, Tang Ming felt that he was obviously not such rude to treat people, but when he was still surprised in the face of Subei, especially when he saw Xu Linyan, Tang Ming felt that his mood was very irritable. Is it because I hate them?
But Xu Linyan didn't feel that she hated them, but every time she saw them, her mood became very bad again, and her temper also came up. It's completely unbearable for them to be the same.
Su Bei was still surprised, Tang Ming felt that although he was also very impatient in the face of them, at least he could still say a few words to them. But Xu Linyan, every time he saw her, Tang Ming would not want to look at her anymore, as if something would happen to her.
Therefore, on the occasion of Xu Linyan, Tang Ming didn't even look at Xu Linyan, and he didn't even say a word to Xu Linyan.
Obviously, he is not such an impolite person, but when facing Xu Linyan and them, he often loses control, and then says something very hurtful.
Tang Ming wanted to keep his mouth shut when he said something like that, but his mouth seemed to have his own consciousness, and he wouldn't listen to her at all.
However, thinking that he would be with Huang Ye in the future, he should have very little time to see them, so Tang Ming kept telling himself that there was nothing. It won't be like this if you don't see them anymore.
However, at the thought of not being able to see them in the future, Tang Ming felt very sad. Obviously, they are some people who are very irritable when they usually meet, but they are very reluctant when they think of not meeting again. Such a special emotion is something that Tang Ming has never been able to understand.
Obviously I am neighbors with them, so I should have a good relationship. Or maybe the relationship is not so good, but it shouldn't be the relationship it is now. The current relationship is as if I have some hatred with them. But I didn't think of any hatred.
Tang Ming felt that his current life was so weird, and this would definitely not be the life he wanted. And there's so much so weird about it. Tang Ming felt that her mind was a little clearer now, and she could still think about some things now. She felt that such a situation might not exist in the future, and maybe in the future, she would not have such a sober mind and such thinking.
Recently, her memory has been very poor, Tang Ming feels that it is necessary for her to write down what she wants to say and remember, so that if she forgets it in the future and can't remember it, she can also look at it and recall it.
So Tang Ming remembered his thoughts now. After living for so many days, Tang Ming felt that he had hated such a confined life. However, in normal times, Tang Ming felt that he had never thought of resisting Huang Ye at all. So at this time, when I want to rebel against Huang Ye, I write down this kind of thought.
When Huang Ye came over, Tang Ming had already hidden the thing he had written, in a place where he could find it and see it every day.
"Tang Ming, I've been waiting for a long time, I'm sorry, it's a little time today. Huang Ye looked at Tang Ming a little apologetically.
Tang Ming shook his head, indicating that he didn't mind. If it weren't for Huang Ye's late arrival today, otherwise she wouldn't have thought about so many things. Huang Ye was late, Tang Ming was very happy, but she didn't dare to show it, but pretended to be expressionless as usual, as if nothing had happened.
Huang Ye was a little disappointed when he saw Tang Ming, who was also expressionless. He now felt a little that what he wanted was not Tang Ming, but Huang Ye comforted himself that Tang Ming could be by his side.
Although, Tang Ming was not like this in the past, Tang Ming in the past, when he took her class, he could feel that she was in a happy mood. Especially when he didn't have Tang Ming like this, he felt that Tang Ming's mood was very good every day. I don't know why, but I can feel that Tang Ming's mood is much better than usual.
Especially when he was entangled by the students that time, although his face was very helpless, when he received that call, Huang Ye could clearly see the doting in Tang Ming's eyes. It must be someone Tang Ming likes on the other side of the phone. Although Tang Ming's expression is very cute and good-looking now, it belongs to someone else.
Therefore, Huang Ye has always wanted to make Tang Ming's so good-looking expression belong to him. However, now that he already has Tang Ming, Tang Ming finally belongs to himself. But he never saw Tang Ming's good-looking expression anymore, many of them were expressionless like now.
Is this really what he wants? Huang Ye asked himself in his heart.