Next to the Lingnan Memorial Hall in Guangmei College, Changgang Road, Suicheng, through a small winding path, you will arrive at a music café called Yuandian, which is a young music café opened by students of the Academy of Fine Arts.

At 2 p.m. on the weekend, I made an appointment with Hanxin to meet here. The café is playing the song of the West Side Boys, the music is very high-spirited, and it also has a sense of vicissitudes. There are three or two pairs of young couples who are dressed up with personality and drink drinks while chatting, judging from the personality dress that is a bit artistic, they must also be students of the Academy of Fine Arts.

As soon as I sat down, Han Xin's shadow appeared on the small winding path, holding a book with a red cover in her left hand, and slowly walked towards the café. Han Xin is wearing a plain white linen suit today. Dress, lotus steps move lightly, walking posture is unhurried, graceful, hair flowing, generous, sunny and vibrant, people feel very educated, you can imagine how much effort Xue'er has spent on her! I seem to see Xue'er back then, fresh, elegant and beautiful.

"Hello Mr. Zhong, I didn't expect to meet you in Suicheng, I never dreamed of it, it's really fate. ”

As soon as Han Xin entered the café, she greeted me politely and held out her hand to shake my hand, and I immediately stood up and shook her hand with a polite smile. Then he said:

"Fate, this is fate, I didn't expect that I would have the opportunity to meet you again in Suicheng, I thought there was only one side, please take a seat." ”

Hanxin's little hands are very warm and soft, making people feel comfortable to hold, like holding warm cotton in their hands.

"You sit, yes, it's so fateful, I can't imagine that you are still my mother's classmate. Two days ago, I went to Aunt Xiaoyan's house, and she told me that there was a classmate surnamed Zhong, who was also my mother's classmate, a painter who had come from Beijing to collect styles in southern Guangdong, and asked me if I would like to see her. I guessed that it might be you, Mr. Zhong, I didn't expect you to take the initiative to ask me out, thank you for looking up to me, teacher. ”

Han Xin put the book he was holding in his left hand on the table, and when I looked at the book, it was a novel by Yu Hua called "Alive". Then, Han Xin sat down and spoke to me with a smile in an unhurried tone. She always has a smile on her face, and the spring breeze makes people think that she is very polite and even tutored.

My heart was full of joy! My whole body was full of blood and mixed feelings, if she was really my daughter?

Almost irrationally, I wanted to tell Hanxin about Cher and my past, but I couldn't, I had to resist my impulses.

I said to myself in my heart that if I suddenly told Hanxin the story of me and Xue'er, then it would not do Xue'er, me, or Hanxin any good, and I had to take my time. If she is really my daughter, Xue'er has given me enough and enough! I can't pay back the pain and cold eyes she endured in my life, which is extremely unbearable for ordinary people! I can't repay Xue'er in this life and this life, so let me be a cow and a horse in the next life, and then repay Xue'er! Xue'er is so great, I have cultivated Hanxin to be outstanding.

"Han Xin, we really hit it off at first sight, we can't say anything to look down on, after meeting you in Longchan Temple that day, I tried to find you the next day. But I didn't see you again, I thought, why did Hanxin suddenly disappear? Did she go back? Or was she deceived by He Xiangu again? I didn't expect to see you here again. ”

After Hanxin sat down, I said to her. She seemed a little embarrassed to hear this, smiled gracefully, and then asked for a cup of lemon tea.

At this time, the music in the café has been converted into Shi Jin's piano music, and the melody of the music is intoxicating. Han Xin took a sip of lemon tea and raised her hand to comb the hair on her forehead, this movement is quite beautiful, and I can't help but feel:

"Hanxin is so beautiful, Xue'er is so happy, and it is gratifying to have such a beautiful, smart and clever daughter!"

"What about my mother, teacher, my mother is more beautiful! My mother said that I also have my father's appearance genes, and my eyes are very similar to my father, but unfortunately, I have never met my father. ”

When Han Xin saw that I mentioned Xue'er, he answered, and his expression suddenly sighed a little. She then said, "Teacher Zhong, when were you classmates with my mother?

I looked at the innocent Hanxin in front of me, she was Xue'er's daughter, or maybe my daughter?

I had a lot of thoughts in my heart, and I felt like a deer was jumping around in my chest, and I was very excited. However, before I met Cher, it was impossible for me to talk nonsense, let alone recognize it. I tried to control my emotions, and instead of answering Han Xin's question directly, I said to the left and right:

"Han Xin, I'm a little strange, how can you read the novel "Alive" at your age? This novel is too sad, you don't necessarily understand the suffering in life at this age?

Han Xin said: "I can't talk about liking it, because my mother likes it, and I follow it." My mother said that from Fugui's tragic life, she realized the preciousness of life, she said that this is a novel full of blood and tears, telling how people endure great suffering, telling about the richness and breadth of tears, and it is also a way to cry with laughter, to live with death, and to use Fugui's life of suffering to tell about the non-existence of despair......! My mother also said that we should cherish life, and it is not easy for people to live! I don't know much about it, but my mother said that it was a good work, so I will bring it to see, and generally what my mother likes, I will like it. ”

"Oh, very filial girl, very good. I chimed in and continued to listen to Han Xin's story:

"Yes, figuratively my dad, my mom must like my dad very much, so I love my dad very much in my heart! My mom always said to me, Xinxin, your dad is a person with perseverance, perseverance, is a very talented person, his energy is very great, he is a person who can do everything very successfully! My mom wants me to inherit my dad's spirit and use this spirit to study and draw hard. I believe that my mother loves my dad very much, otherwise she would not always take out that diary and talk to herself at night. It's a pity that I've grown so big, but I've never seen my dad, and my mom and they all say my dad is dead, don't mention him. After Han Xin finished speaking, her eyes were red, and she was about to burst into tears.

As soon as I heard Han Xin mention her father, my heart suddenly became nervous, and I wondered: Why did Han Xin mention her father to me the second time we met? Could it be that she got any hints from Xiaoyan? Or did she get any information from other sources? According to my observation of her character, she is still relatively stable, not the kind that people say, I have to listen patiently before talking.

Han Xin continued: "But I just don't believe it, once my cousin Dandan came to our house from Chengcheng, Ostrich Island, and when she was chatting with my mother, she seemed to have slipped her mouth, and when I was making tea, I vaguely heard something. Aunt Dandan said, "Where did my Aunt Zhen get married?" Let me think about it, oh, it seems that a place where a new airport is going to be built, what kind of post is it called? She said that she hoped that Aunt Zhen's illness could be hidden and her life would be better. I also told my mom that I don't seem to have any information about that person, but as for who it is? I was there at the time, and my mother said not to mention this person, and I muttered to myself, they may be talking about someone they both know, and it could be a man? It also involves Aunt Zhen, is it talking about my father? ”

"Oh, your mom may not be lying, maybe in her heart, your dad is already dead. What else did you just say? Aunt Zhen, sick, what kind of illness is it?"

After listening to Han Xin's words, my heart was more like breaking the five-flavor jar, and various flavors produced complex and strong collisions in my heart, but I could only endure it and control my emotions, but when I asked Han Xin's words, my tone was obviously still very urgent, which made people feel a little nervous.

Hanxin didn't notice the change in my mood, or she noticed, but didn't point it out, and she continued:

"I didn't ask about any illness, but they seemed to say that it was related to a person, and it was someone they all knew, and I didn't dare to ask, but I knew that Aunt Dandan must have known my dad too. So once I told my mother under the pretext of going to Aunt Dandan's place to play for a few days, I asked Aunt Dandan stubbornly and asked her to tell her about my father, but I was asked to run for nothing, and she said that she didn't know. I wondered, is my dad really dead? Especially my grandmother is even more exaggerated, as soon as I mention my dad, she glares, as if her eyes are about to burst into flames, raise her voice and say, "Dead, dead, dead, what are you talking about him?" It made my mother cry secretly, and I cried all night that night. ”

As Han Xin spoke, her eyes finally couldn't help but shed tears. I endured the complicated and tingling feeling at the moment, but I still tried to put on a normal expression. I saw that Han Xin's eyes were already in tears, so I hurriedly handed her a tissue.

Han Xin took the tissue and said:

"Teacher Zhong, you and my mother are classmates, right, do you know my dad too? Do you know? I always wanted to see my dad. ”

As Han Xin spoke, tears flowed down like a waterfall, and I quickly handed her another tissue.

When I heard this, I wondered even more, why did Han Xin tell me all the more about her and her mother's privacy when she wasn't very familiar with me? Could it be that she was talking to other people? Or was she knocking on the side? Or had she found some information about her mother's relationship with me? Otherwise, she wouldn't have said these things in such an orderly manner! I had to test it:

"Han Xin, thank you very much for trusting me, but how do you tell me these stories? It's very personal! Do you say that to Xiaoyan as well?"

Han Xin thought for a moment, and then continued:

"No, I haven't mentioned it to anyone, and Aunt Yanzi doesn't know this, once she asked me if I knew about my mother and my father, and I said I didn't know, and she didn't say anything, and I wouldn't talk about these things casually with anyone. But I don't know why? As soon as I saw you, I felt very cordial, as if I had known you for a long time, and naturally I revealed what was in my heart, I'm sorry! Teacher, I shouldn't have said these things to you, and I annoyed you. ”

"No, we hit it off at first sight, déjà vu, it's rare for you to trust me, I'm willing to listen. If you have any concerns in the future, even if you tell me that I will do my best to break it down with you, I will never get involved, don't worry. ”

"Teacher, you're so nice! I will. ”

I didn't dare to look directly at Han Xin at this time, I turned my head sideways, my heart was like a thousand horses galloping, I couldn't be calm, excitement mixed with shame and guilt, I didn't know what to say to Han Xin for a while.

Because I owe them so much! If Ah Zhen is sick because of me, then I am deeply guilty! Not being able to be with Cher has brought great suffering to Cher in this life. And in the past 20 years, how has Xue'er come to be? How has she persevered? What kind of belief is supporting her to do this? This is love! Xue'er's love for me! Her love for Hanxin! This is also too great! But I have only brought her suffering, the cold eyes and ridicule of the world! This is the great sin I have committed against her. And she is still in front of Hanxin, establishing a beautiful image of her father, and teaching her daughter a sunny lifestyle that loves life, loves life, and is uplifting. Although she grew up in a single-parent family, Hanxin has no character flaws, but has learned to be self-reliant, strong and confident. Hanxin is very sunny, very healthy psychologically, full of positive energy, although it is not a lady, but it is also a small jasper, generous.

Thinking of this, my heart slowly calmed down, and I smiled and said to Han Xin:

"Han Xin, your mother is so great, your father must be good, otherwise how could your mother wait for him so much, how could she love him so deeply? Your hunch may be right? I think there may be some reason for this, right? Your father may not be dead, but your mother thinks that it is not time to tell you, maybe, when it is time to let you know, she will naturally tell you. ”

When Han Xin heard me say this, her mood seemed to be much better, and she said, "Teacher Zhong, you are so good at painting, can you accept me as a disciple? ”

As soon as I heard Han Xin say this, I was too late to be happy, so I said: "Okay, it just so happens that my wind collection plan will stay in GD for a while, and squeeze out some time to guide you, it's okay, but there is one condition, I will meet you in Guangzhou and you will learn painting with me, you must not tell your mother again, okay?"

"Okay, okay, I'm so honored! Teacher, you are so good, if I have a father like you, then how happy I am! Teacher Zhong, I am so happy, so happy, the goddess of fate is so good to me, let me meet you in Longchan Temple. ”

Han Xin's happy speech made me happy in my heart, this little girl was lively and cute.

I myself was like eating honey, sweet to my heart, and then I said to Han Xin: "Xinxin, I will call you Xinxin in the future, so kind." ”

Han Xin said, "Okay, okay, that's what my mother called me." ”

I then said, "Shin Shin, you go back first, I made an appointment with another friend to meet, next time I will call you, let's talk again, this is my gift to you." ”

After I said, I took out a pair of seals that had been carved for her, ZJ Qingtian pure sealed bluestone and handed them to Xinxin, in fact, I didn't make an appointment with anyone, but because of Xinxin's words just now, the amount of information was too large, I had to be quiet and digest it alone before I said this to Xinxin.

Xinxin stood up, took the seal with both hands, and said very politely: "Thank you, teacher, the courtesy is heavy, I'm embarrassed, you can keep it to yourself, I see this color, it is pure without any flaws, it is very expensive." ”

I said, "It's okay, take it, if you are a teacher, you want to give your apprentice a greeting gift, and besides, your name and surname are engraved, accept it, accept it, be good, this is a good apprentice." ”

"Well, thank you, I'll go first. After Xinxin put away the seal, she picked up the book on the stage and politely shook my hand goodbye.