Shu Li made himself and Tang Yuanxiao a cup of tea, and slowly spoke in the rising white smoke.

"I've been dreaming for three years, but my dreams are not as regular as yours, sometimes I keep dreaming, sometimes I don't dream once in ten days and half a month. ”

"I was very irritable and anxious at first, but then I slowly got used to it and waited patiently for it to fall asleep. ”

"I'm used to it now, and I don't get too anxious. ”

Shu Li exhaled, "I will fall asleep because my son... He's dead. ”

"I can't forgive myself because of my negligence. ”

After many years, Shu Li was finally able to open his bloody wounds so calmly.

Shu Lijin is Chinese New Year's Eve three years old and is a psychiatrist, but he started learning this profession halfway, and he also went abroad for further study in order to study systematically and comprehensively.

Because she came back after studying abroad for two years, her lifelong events were also a little delayed, and she got married later than her peers.

However, two or three years later, she still got married normally, but because she is a more enterprising person, she can't work for her family like many women, and there may be many conflicts.

And because of her special work, when she didn't open a clinic earlier, she worked in the psychiatric department.

In psychiatry, it's more of a madman or something than a psychological problem.

The situation is very serious, and the crazy one will be sent, and this is not bad, many people are crazy and will not go to see it.

I have contact with such people every day, and because there are few psychiatric doctors, she is always busy, and her mother-in-law has a lot of opinions about her.

Originally, my husband was still supportive, but slowly, because he always worked overtime for patients, he also had opinions about her work.

These opinions were exacerbated by the fact that they had children.

She can't leave, so she can only let her husband watch the children more, her husband feels sorry for the children, and the reason for her mother-in-law makes the contradiction bigger and bigger.

Later they even quarreled.

That time, too, she was called to the hospital to work overtime with a phone call, and she could only ask her husband to go back to see the children.

His husband also has a special job, sometimes he has to work the night shift, and his husband has to go to work that day.

So they quarreled, but she was too anxious, so she could only keep apologizing and letting her husband go back.

Although she heard her husband shouting that he would not go back and let her watch the children by herself, she never thought that her husband would really not go back.

Because although my husband has shouted like this before, he will still go back in the end, that is, she has to coax for two days to coax it.

She thought it would be like that that night, so she went to the hospital and put the matter down.

She didn't expect that her husband was already very annoyed that night because of work matters, and after hanging up the phone, he didn't go back as if he was doing something against her.

And because I wasn't happy, I even drank some wine.

After that, he went to sleep and forgot about it.

The last thought in her mind was that if she called home, if no one answered, she should go back.

But that night, Shu Li didn't have time to call and answer.

Then the husband didn't go back, and their poor two-year-old child had a high fever that night.

The high fever did not go away, and there were no adults, and finally turned into pneumonia.

By the time she got back from work, the children were already burned.

Later, he was taken to the hospital for rescue, but the child was not rescued.

Her cutest two-year-old child died of illness.

Woe fell from heaven, and it was a great calamity.

At that moment, Shu Li's heart leaked a hole and hurt his heart.

The husband and wife resented each other, hated and accused each other, and said all the most hurtful and ugly things.

And because of self-blame, they are in pain, they are in pain when they see each other, and they have to hurt each other.

Her husband said that she was in contact with mental illness all day long, and they were the only ones all day long, killing the child.

She said that it was all because of his fault, and the child would die after drinking.

The closest husband and wife, when they say hurtful words, they stab people's hearts.

Their families are torn apart, and their feelings are unrecognizable.

After arguing for half a year, I still couldn't get out of the pain.

Looking at each other, they really can't get by.

In order to survive, in order to come out, they chose to divorce.

After the divorce, Shu Lan almost couldn't survive the mental illness at that time, and then slowly walked out step by step.

But the person came out, but the wound in his heart was left.

It took half a year for her to cheer up, but her heart was still alive in hell.

She had nightmares every night whenever she fell asleep, dreaming that her children were calling her, crying and crying out in pain.

Tortured day and night, regretted day and night, and thought that if she could turn back time, suddenly one night, she really felt the time turn.

She returned to the year she regretted the most, the night when her child died of a high fever.

She didn't go to work, she guarded the child, and then saved the child.

That dream, so real, holding her son's warm soft body, she wailed and cried, thanking God for giving her a chance to start over.

She rescued her son, she didn't even look at her husband, she didn't have the energy to pay attention, so she guarded her son wholeheartedly for three days.

Just when she was convinced that she was born again, she woke up.

It's exactly the same as Tang Lantern Festival.

After that, I dreamed irregularly, and lived in my dream of raising my son after rescuing him.

"This is what my son looks like, I took a lot of pictures, but I couldn't get them back, so I drew and drew them. ”

"It's two years old, it's three years old... Four-year-old... Five-year-old... He is now six years old. ”

Shu Li carefully took out the baby's portrait from the drawer and showed it to Tang Yuanxiao.

Tang Yuanxiao's eyes were full of amazement.

"You draw so well, I can't draw..."

I suddenly felt a pity.

Tang Yuanxiao looked at the pictures carefully and could feel the agility of the children on the pictures.

A child who grows up little by little, it is so obvious that he can feel the truth from it.

"I also have a son in my dream, a year older than your son, and now seven years old. ”

Tang Yuanxiao said unconsciously, "He's a genius." ”

His tone was tinged with pride.

Shu Li listened with a smile on his face.

"I'd love to get to know him, too, but... Look at your expression, it feels unlikely. ”

Tang Yuanxiao nodded, "Yes, because I can't draw." ”

He paused, "Congratulations, you saved your son." ”

Shu Li smiled, "Thank you, I'm very happy now, in my dreams." ”

She paused, "I'm dreaming... Not divorced, still with my husband. ”

She spread her hands, "You can probably guess what my previous hesitation was, my husband and I actually have feelings, because of the child, the deeper the feelings, the greater the damage, and in the end, I can't go on forever." ”

"After I divorced him in reality, I haven't had much contact, and now I am a stranger. ”

"But in the dream, we are still husband and wife, and I have hesitated and struggled before, whether to push him away, whether to divorce. ”

"I also chose to try, but in the end I gave up, I ......"

Shu Li exhaled slowly: "I didn't get a divorce." ”