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Gu Caiying was stunned, her eyes flickered and said: "That incident, I have already mentioned it before, I really don't know, what is the origin of your biological father, he is like suddenly appearing in this world and appearing in front of me......"

"Didn't he leave any words, any clues?" Lin Fei asked in a deep voice.

Gu Caiying sighed and smiled self-deprecatingly, "If there is, why did I bother looking for him for more than twenty years...... The only thing he left was the amber ring, which I thought he was proposing to me, but who thought, after giving me that ring, he left."

The amber ring is now in Lin Fei's hand, but after this ring changed on that battleship, and after it was induced by Su Yingxue's body, it turned milky white, and the flowing golden light inside was gone.

Lin Fei said a little suspiciously: "You say...... You've been looking for him?"

Gu Caiying clenched her fists, as if she was trying to suppress the strong emotions in her heart, she exhaled a long breath and said, "Do you want to know the real reason why I was willing to leave with Wang Shaohua back then......?" I don't have anything to hide from you now, I'll be honest...... The biggest reason why I did that was because I wanted to find your biological father and let him give me a reason!"

Lin Fei was stunned, "What do you mean......"

"Don't you think I'm pathetic?" Gu Caiying's tears fell, and she smiled while crying: "I was kidnapped by him in college for some reason, from the eldest lady of the Gu family, I was forcibly possessed by him alive, I was pregnant with you, and I was abandoned by him in the mountain village, and then he never appeared again......

Do you know how many days and nights I have been wondering if he will show up, whether he wants me, whether he wants you, your son......"

Gu Caiying choked and said abruptly: "I was only in my twenties back then, and I was still very young...... He ruined my life, made me a laughing stock for others, was spurned by my family, and became a single mother, but I didn't even know what his name was or where he came from!

I was like a piece of paper that he took and used up and then threw in the trash...... Do you know, I don't know how many times I wanted to knock you out of my stomach, but because I thought of him...... I fought with hope to protect you and gave birth to you......

I thought, maybe when I give birth to the child, that man will appear again, how can a father not even want his own child? I was so stupid to wait, stupid to look forward to...... But it's all just my own whim."

Lin Fei's face was cloudy for a while, as if the sky was about to usher in a stormy midsummer afternoon at any time, and the thunderclouds rolled over, which was terrifying.

His chest kept rising and falling, his heart was beating wildly, and Gu Caiying's words made him a little overwhelmed.

From the past, he thought that Gu Caiying abandoned their father and son in order to enjoy glory and wealth, and they were victims.

But now it sounds like Gu Caiying's experience is not much different from them, and this pain seems to be connected in the same vein.

Gu Caiying opened the conversation, and no longer hid the truth that had been buried in her heart for many years, and said coldly: "Because our Gu family was persecuted, after I came to Lin'an, I relied on the reception of my eldest friend to give birth to you, and I never had the opportunity to find that man."

But the more time passes, the harder it is for me to bear. Every time I watch you grow up little by little, it is as if I see the shadow of that man lingering on you, and I can't restrain myself from thinking about him.

I am unwilling, why did he bring me so much pain, so many grievances, and still want me to work hard to raise the children he left behind......"

The woman's eyes showed a little remorse, and she said: "At that time, Wang Shaohua, who had pursued me for many years, came to me and said that he had persuaded the people in the family to marry him, because his wife had also passed away, leaving behind a daughter.

I had a thought in my mind...... If I can use the resources of the Wang family, maybe I will have a chance to find that man! The bastard who made me suffer so much and left me behind!!"

Hearing this, Lin Fei turned around angrily and said, "Just to find a man and ask for an answer, you have to abandon your eight-year-old biological son and leave alone?!"

"Because I hated you at the time, I hated you!!"

Gu Caiying instantly screamed and shouted in response to Lin Fei's question.

Suddenly, time seemed to freeze, the air seemed to freeze, and the needles could be heard.

Lin Fei looked at the woman in front of him like a stone sculpture, his eyes were red, and his muscles were tense.

And Gu Caiying seemed to know that she was overwhelmed, but she felt as if she had been freed from the cage of thousands of years, and she was relieved and deflated, sat down on the ground, hugged her knees and cried bitterly......

"Woo woo...... Gu Caiying cried heartbreakingly, shook her head and said, "I don't want to either...... I know it's not right, how can a mother hate her child...... But I really can't hold it anymore......

I just wanted an answer and asked him why he was doing those ...... to me Even if he said he was just toying with me, it was just a whim...... At least I can rightfully hate him.

But I'm like a dispensable person, living in the world, just for a man whose name I don't know, to endure those hardships, to raise a child who doesn't know where I came from......

I can't find him, and my hatred for him and resentment for him are slowly transferred to you...... Whining...... Fei'er ...... I'm sorry I abandoned you...... I regret it now, but it's too late......"

In Lin Fei's mind, the picture of chasing that figure in the rain came to mind.

The woman who left him without looking back, sure enough...... I really hate him.

He once fantasized that Gu Caiying had some last resort reason to leave him for his good, but when the truth was revealed, Lin Fei suddenly felt that this was the most reassuring result.

I didn't blame this woman, it was she who abandoned herself, even though she suffered a lot, but the child was innocent.

After Lin Fei closed his eyes tightly for a while, he adjusted his breathing, calmed down, and said, "Say it earlier, why bother to make trouble today."

Gu Caiying's body trembled, raised her head, and looked at Lin Fei, "Fei'er...... You, you don't hate me?"

"Hate, why should I hate you", Lin Fei said with vicissitudes in his eyes: "Since you have admitted that you gave up the relationship between mother and son, then I have nothing to ask of you, just like you are not qualified to be my dear relative."

Since we have no family affection at all, it makes sense for you to leave me behind and find a man you have long for."

Gu Caiying felt as if her heart had been trampled on and shattered, and she knew that when Lin Fei accepted this qiē so indifferently, it meant that Lin Fei had really regarded her as a stranger.

At this time, she would rather Lin Fei scold her frantically, or even beat her...... It's a pity that Lin Fei won't do that.

Without love, there is no hate.

"If there is nothing else you want to say, you can go", Lin Fei said with a calm face, he had never been so relaxed, facing Gu Caiying without concern,

Gu Caiying was stunned, stood up and pleaded, "That Qing'er ......"

"When I discuss the custom-made clothes for my family, I will go to you, and I will do what I say, although I am not sure if I can take a good look at her," Lin Fei assured.

Gu Caiying breathed a sigh of relief, there was a bit of hope in her eyes, she was already difficult to redeem her biological son's heart, and the two could only have an ordinary relationship in the future, so she didn't want to lose her adopted daughter.

Just as Gu Caiying was about to leave, Lin Fei asked, "Have you had any news about that man over the years?"

Gu Caiying turned her head with a bitter and sad expression, "If there was, I would have gone to him a long time ago, as if he had evaporated from this world, as if he had never appeared ......"

"I know", Lin Fei nodded and sent off the guest indifferently.

The woman hesitated, lowered her eyebrows, and said, "What if...... I mean, if you have the opportunity to see him in the future, whether you recognize him as a father or not, I want you to ask me what he thinks of me in his heart......"

Lin Fei didn't respond to this request, Gu Caiying saw that Lin Fei didn't speak, so she didn't force anything, in fact, she didn't think that Lin Fei would have a chance to meet it.

That man was like a gust of autumn wind blowing, bleak and sorrowful, blowing by, without a trace.