I stood where I was, although I had a lot of expectations before I came, and when I saw the current scene, I was completely dead.

I don't know why, I feel very blocked in my heart, I really don't know that I still care so much about Le Yao, I really want to rush out, but my two legs seem to be stuck together with the concrete floor, and I can't move it.

Watching two people kiss wildly because of love, I really can't stand it, I don't know if it's unwilling or jealous, in short, I feel very wronged in my heart, but I look back and laugh at myself, after all, I feel that I deserve it, the girls around me can't all wait for you, and they won't tolerate you like this.

remembered what Le Yao said to me: She is not a rich second generation like Ziqi and Xinyi, she can ignore it, she needs a man to protect her and let her rely on her, instead of looking for a master like me who loves one when she sees one and wants to accept one when she sees one.

I pushed the electric car and walked in the opposite direction, because I knew that it was time for me to leave at this moment, this place no longer belonged to me, this girl no longer belonged to me, I really lost Le Yao, my heart seemed to be dripping blood, the fishy smell of my nose was sour, tears poured out like water, I wanted to say thank you to life, let me understand at the moment, and understand, my selfishness made me gradually lose these nice girls around me.

Riding my electric donkey, walking through the road, as if it feels like it's not summer, but rather winter, my heart feels cold and cold, and my whole body keeps shaking, because I know how much I care about this girl this time, but I can only bless her, and I hope she will be happier and happier.

Thinking of this, I suddenly felt relaxed, because after thinking about it, I finally understood that if something is lost, don't think about it anymore, it's yours who will always come, don't always lament for the loss, but cheer yourself up and be a real strong person.

Back in the apartment, wiping away tears, I understand that some people miss out and are not there, I want to be a strong person in life, and I can't always let myself live because of other people's thoughts.

So don't be sad, just a few decades of life, don't always be tied up by feelings, life is like acting, this performance is not good, change the performance, she is not willing to play with you, you change the role, there is always a tacit understanding with you, until the old master appears, maybe it will take a long time, but I believe that there will always be someone for you.

I got up very early the next day, turned on the computer, browsed some endgames on the Internet, and dealt with people like Lao Zhao, what he liked was the key, many people who love to play chess like to study the endgame, I remembered a few, if I could meet him at night, I really wanted to communicate, to make myself act like a chess enthusiast, and to do enough play.

In the afternoon, when it was time to get off work, I rode an electric donkey to Lao Zhao's community, my mind was full of chess games, and I couldn't wait to find an opponent to practice, at this time I felt as if I had become a chess master.

As a result, Lao Zhao really has a chess stall downstairs, two people are playing against each other, there are several people around, I locked the electric car, and also watched the chess game, but when I watched them play chess, it was completely different from the chess game, and the feeling of watching chess Everyone is a chess king, a chess saint, constantly giving chess moves, and this is also a gathering place for smokers.

I focused on the game between two people, I belong to the kind of master who doesn't talk about chess, I watched quietly, basically watched the people around me play a circle, about an hour or more, Lao Zhao did not appear, but I can conclude that several old guns here are not my opponents.

The sky is getting darker and darker, and then one of them I think is a good game here to carry the chessboard to the door of Lao Zhao's house, others estimate that the time is late, or he can't get off, ready to go back, this so-called master shouted Lao Zhao's name at the door of Lao Zhao, Lao Zhao's wife replied: "Didn't come back?"

The old man was a little lost, but when he found that I was still standing there, he said to me: "Young man, play with me for two games, see that you have also watched for an afternoon, and you will not say a word, you will be a master at a glance." ”

I hurriedly replied modestly: "Uncle, I'm not very good at playing, it's okay to play with you, don't think my level is too stinky." ”

He put the chessboard on the table and moved a stool for me, and when I began to walk, I realized that my head was not as clear as it was when I could see it, and many times it was the last two steps that I thought of, and the first old man won easily.

I handed him a cigarette and asked, "Uncle, how is the level of that old Zhao you just called?"

The uncle looked at me with a smile and said, "The two of us are about the same level, young man, you have reservations, let's do it again." ”

I said to the old man: "I just see too much, and the actual combat experience is still far behind, so I will learn more from you." ”

After speaking, the two of us started another game, I didn't pay attention to walking, there was a person standing next to me watching, because I was paying attention to the chess game, I didn't pay much attention to the person next to me, and I won the old man in this game.

At this time, the person standing next to him said, "Lao Zhang, I'll come with this kid." ”

He smiled and glanced at me, I didn't say much, and Lao Zhao began to play, Lao Zhao really had an extraordinary level, and he kept suppressing my offensive, and we played this game for about forty minutes.

Because I wanted to lose to Lao Zhao, I deliberately pretended to make a mistake at the end, Lao Zhao didn't see my intentions, but thought that after I didn't have enough actual combat experience to win, Lao Zhao was still unsatisfied, and said to me: "Xiao Zhang, let's have another game." ”

As soon as I saw that there was a play, I opened a game with Lao Zhao again, and Lao Zhang was also watching from the side, this time I was very serious with Lao Zhao, the level of the two of us was not much different, and it was a duel of more than 40 minutes, and I won in a narrow way.

Lao Zhao seemed to like me very much, and wanted to play another game with me, but Lao Zhao's wife came out to call him home, and he said to me in disappointment: "Come over tomorrow, how about it? ”

I readily agreed to Lao Zhao and rode an electric car to the apartment, I am very happy today, because I think Lao Zhao has a drama here, and if I play with him twice, I should be able to get close to him.

When I arrived at the apartment, I called Jiang Tian and told her that I could handle it here.

Jiang Tian said to me, "You haven't eaten yet, have you? Pay attention to yourself, don't be so irregular." ”

Jiang Tian's words are still very useful to me, no one has cared about me for a long time, I jokingly said to Jiang Tian: "Come and cook me a meal one day, don't you want to eat out all the time." ”

Jiang Tian readily agreed, lying on the bed full of joy, I found that sometimes I always want to escape when I encounter difficulties, in fact, I can really solve it if I face it bravely, I still have to believe in myself, I can't always escape.