The first dependent, the wound that has been suffered

Ji Yunkai knew that there was no point in dwelling on the past, but tonight, or at this moment, she was wronged in her heart, if she didn't say it, she would definitely suffocate to death. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

She has always shown that she doesn't care, and that's because she keeps reminding herself that she has to look at the development of things rationally and not emotionally.

She is not Xiao Jiu'an's guy with low emotional intelligence, she knows what is best for herself, and she knows what choices to make in order to make a good life. But......

No matter how rational you are, you can't resist the grievances in your heart, and no matter how high your emotional intelligence is, you can't resist the pain in your heart.

She is bitter, resentful, and hateful in her heart, but she keeps telling herself: Ji Yunkai, what about your sanity?

Rational and high emotional intelligence, not emotional is Ji Yunkai, the Ji Yunkai who is called a genius, and the Ji Yunkai that everyone admires.

But God knows, she doesn't want to be a sensible, sensible, and courteous Ji Yunkai at all, she just has no choice.

She has been a person since she was a child, she has no emotional capital, she has no capricious capital.

She loses her temper, she is unhappy, she makes small emotions, no one will care, and no one will compromise because of her small emotions, because of her grievances.

It has always been Ji Yunkai who compromises and retreats. The latest and fastest update because, she is the genius Ji Yunkai, she is the most sensible and polite Ji Yunkai.

After so many years, she has become accustomed to being treated like this. Until, until...... Xiao Jiuan began to spoil her and spoil her temper, and she realized that she would also be wronged and angry.

She knew that she was spoiled by Xiao Jiu'an, and if she was spoiled, she would lose her temper. Reason told her that she shouldn't complain to Xiao Jiu'an, but emotionally she couldn't do it.

She knew that this was the only time, and if this time, if she didn't express the grievances in her heart and the anger in her heart, she was afraid that she would never be able to say it.

"Xiao Jiu'an, do you know how much I hated you at that time?" Ji Yunkai buried himself in Xiao Jiu'an's arms and said with a crying voice.

At this point, she didn't have the anger she had before, she was just stating how she was feeling at the time.

"Do you know how proud I am to be a man, I have grown so big, I have been abandoned by so many people, and I have not begged them. That was the first time I begged someone like that, no pride, no dignity, no future, I gave up everything, only you...... But you have seen me as a bedbug, and have trampled me to the ground, and have trampled all my pride and dignity to the ground. ”

"At that time, I wanted to kill you, but I was useless, I couldn't do it, I couldn't kill you. I can only watch you leave. ”

"Later, you got me medicine, but ...... I can't thank you in any way. I once held my sincerity in front of you, and you stepped on it on the soles of your feet and disdained it, and I had no choice but to bring out my sincerity again. ”

"Yunkai...... I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Xiao Jiuan felt that his heart was tightly held in the palm of his hand, and it hurt terribly.

He obviously held Ji Yunkai in his arms, but ...... He felt that his heart was empty, and it seemed to be full, this feeling was very contradictory, and he didn't understand it himself, he only knew that Ji Yunkai was very close to him at this moment, and he was far away from him......

However, at this moment, Ji Yunkai's emotions had calmed down, she raised her head, looked at Xiao Jiu'an with tears in her eyes, and smiled cruelly: "Xiao Jiu'an, do you know? That was the first time I held a sincere heart and presented it to you, and it was the only time." In the future, no matter how well you treat me and how much you spoil me, I will not be able to hold up my pure sincerity in front of you as I did at that time. I was afraid, afraid of being trampled again, afraid of being humiliated again. Xiao Jiu'an, do you know? I will never forget, I cried and begged you, I will never forget the picture of you turning away......"

It's like her mother left her back then. She will never forget the image of the woman walking out of her sight step by step.

She was young at the time, but at that time she already knew what was going on, and even she knew that if she kept crying and begging, maybe there was room for redemption, but she didn't.

That woman doesn't want her anymore, she doesn't want her anymore, she will never really treat that woman as a mother anymore, just like ......

Now she can no longer hold a pure sincerity in front of Xiao Jiuan.

She was afraid, afraid to give again, in exchange for bloody abandonment. 、

Ji Yunkai's tone was very light and very relaxed, but every word she said was like a knife to Xiao Jiu'an, cutting his heart one by one.

Once, he could get all of Ji Yunkai's pure feelings, but he destroyed it with his own hands, ruining the feelings he dreamed of now.

However, he can't blame Yunkai, and he can't regret it, the only thing he can do is to treat Ji Yunkai better.

"Yunkai, it's me, it's me...... I'm not good for you, it's me who hurt you first. It doesn't matter, you don't hold your heart in front of this king. This king holds his sincerity in front of you, okay?" Xiao Jiu'an increased his strength again, and tightly imprisoned Ji Yunkai in his arms.

It seems that only in this way can he feel that Ji Yunkai is his and belongs to him.

Xiao Jiu'an's strength was painful, but she didn't exhale pain.

She raised her head, looked at Xiao Jiu'an, burst into laughter, and said half-seriously and half-jokingly: "Okay...... I will protect your sincerity well, so that I will not trample on the sincerity of others mercilessly. ”

"Yunkai, this king is serious. From Yun Kai's eyes, he saw disbelief.

He knew that Yun Kai's body accepted him, but Yun Kai's heart did not fully accept him.

What happened in the past was like a thorn in Ji Yunkai's heart, but ......

Ji Yunkai said it and dug out the bloody thorn with his own hands. This means that he still has a chance, and a chance to heal the wound.

"I'm serious too, though...... Your sincerity may not be able to exchange all my sincerity, but at least I have true feelings for you. If she didn't like Xiao Jiu'an, she wouldn't back down, she wouldn't compromise, and she wouldn't say these words tonight.

She has always been sensible, if she didn't clearly know that Xiao Jiu'an was tolerant of her and her feelings, how could she spread out her grievances one by one in front of Xiao Jiu'an?

She has been wronged for so many years, she is used to everything, and she takes all the grievances to heart, if Xiao Jiu'an didn't give her enough security, how could she let herself go and say this?

"Lord Wang, I have been hurt by you, the injury is bloody, and now I can't love you without reservation, but as long as you don't live up to me, I, Ji Yunkai, will not fail you. In this life, I am your Yanbei princess, and I will only be your Yanbei princess. Ji Yunkai closed his eyes and leaned on Xiao Jiu'an's chest.

If there is no accident, in this life, this man's chest will be her reliance......