I got off the train and took the subway back to work, in order to save some money, I bought a loaf of bread and a bag of yogurt at the 24-hour convenience store downstairs for dinner, thinking that I would be able to go to the restaurant for breakfast at 7 o'clock tomorrow.

Lying in the empty office, my thoughts have not yet come out of the night meeting Zichen, from their attitudes recently, I really feel cold, maybe the three of them have a deeper understanding of me.

I think it's time for me to be myself, I don't know if life favors me or plays a big joke on me, but it actually makes me more sober, and that's what I am.

I feel a lot more relaxed when I think of this, I have no obligation to be good to them, and it is impossible to meet their requirements with my current ability, so let it be, I thought that all three of them would not marry me, but the reality tells me that it is the biggest mistake for them to marry me.

The cigarette still does not leave my hand, looking at the decreasing traffic at night, as if reminding me that time is constantly losing like traffic, and life is not the same, sometimes I think that I will die one day, I am really scared, but if you compare the fear of death with the reality of this, you will find that it is the most important thing to play your own day and make your daily life exciting.

Life is a play, everyone is their own director, and the development of the plot is all up to you to decide, and you can only be worthy of yourself by acting in every day's play.

I woke up early on Monday, went straight to the restaurant, and when I had a delicious breakfast, I was satisfied with yesterday's worries and forgot all about it, and started the day with confidence.

At nine o'clock, Mr. Mo's secretary called me to a meeting, and at first I thought he was going to ask me how the Ministry of Commerce was going, but when I entered the conference room, I found that all the middle level had arrived, and I felt that this meeting was not a spy briefing.

When everyone arrived, Mr. Mo said to everyone: "I am very happy today, because our medical equipment has been approved by the Ministry of Commerce! This time, thanks to Le Yao, she used her relationship in the Ministry of Commerce to help us solve the problem, and I decided to pay Le Yao a double salary this month." ”

Everyone cast envious glances at Le Yao, and I knew in my heart how Le Yao did it, and suddenly felt a little disgusted, and I really didn't want to listen to it anymore. Pretending to go out to answer the phone, he returned to his cleaning office alone.

Entered the office, lit a cigarette, and thought about what happened just now, why can't I forgive Le Yao, maybe it's because of low self-esteem, or maybe it's because she lied to me, what I really can't stand is that you already know the truth, but the other party still thinks you don't know, and is still cheating on you.

I don't know when the meeting ended, Zhou Qian walked into my office and locked the door, I suddenly became a little alert and asked, "Why lock the door?"

Zhou Qian said to me: "Mr. Zhang, the list and meeting I gave you last time were all acting, and it was Xinyi who asked me to do this, saying that you were sent by Mo Hui, and everything you know will be passed on to Mo Hui, so what you heard that day was all fake." ”

I buzzed my head, and I guessed that my blood pressure spike at the same time, and I didn't know what to say, and I thought: Why do you want to do this to me?

I relieved myself and asked Zhou Qian, "Then why did you tell me?"

Zhou Qian said: "Because you helped me, I don't want you to be toyed with and I don't know, in fact, we all know that your situation is very embarrassing, I don't know what the purpose of Mr. Mo arranged you over, but all of us on our side just didn't cooperate when they got Xinyi's order." ”

I feel that the two women who love me deeply, for their own position and interests in the company, are cheating on me, my heart is really uncomfortable, I thought that I could do this to avoid Mo Hui sending others to hurt Xinyi, in fact, I only found out now that I am someone else.

I thanked Zhou Qian, and she said to me when she left the office: "Mr. Zhang, you are a good person, you think a lot of things are too simple, in fact, I think you are more suitable for technology." ”

Sent Zhou Qian away, I lay down on the folding bed, I really felt so stupid, I couldn't relieve this depressing feeling even if I smoked a cigarette, I really had the urge to leave the company, in fact, Zhou Qian's words were also very clear, I am really suitable for doing technology under Brother Jianjian, as for this set in the business field, I really can't play, my behavior and ideas seem so immature.

I think Zichen didn't tell me this because he was afraid of hitting me.

A person walked out of the Xingmei office building, turned off his mobile phone, and wanted to temporarily lose all contact with the outside world and make himself calm and calm.

I don't know where I want to go, my head is in chaos, only Ziqi didn't lie to me, but she said that I am willing to be Mo Hui's lackey, and I can understand what Mo Hui thinks of me, in fact, many of the things he said to me are also false, except for myself as a green onion, no one cares about my feelings.

I suddenly feel that these people I know at work, including friends and lovers, are really not how much you give in return, you yourself have nothing, in this society, you have nothing to take advantage of, why should others establish a deep relationship with you.

A person unconsciously walked to the small park next to the company, watching the uncles and aunts exercising next to the fitness equipment, I suddenly thought that if I reached their age, what would I do, in this big imperial capital, I don't even have a home of my own, I really feel like a failure, so helpless.

Gradually it got dark, I don't know how long I stayed in the park, the depressed mood has not been alleviated, I got on the subway again, station after stop, as if I was back to before I didn't find a job, I remembered the encounter with Le Yao, I remembered the bits and pieces of He Xinyi, I thought of Ziqi, everything is too illusory, I really gave my true feelings, but I don't want to get it in exchange for deception.

This was the first time I had cleared the subway, and it wasn't until the last train staff reminded me to get off the train and told me that it was the last train, and I got off the train in a trance.

It was already past eleven o'clock and there was no car, so I found myself sitting at a far terminal and taking a taxi back to the downstairs of the company.

The eldest brother of the security guard saw that it was me and said to me: "Young man, you work hard, you will definitely succeed, unlike the eldest brother, I have been a security guard all my life." ”

I handed him a cigarette and said to him, "Big brother, I'm not much better than you, and I'm just a cleaner." ”

The eldest brother scolded with a smile: "Don't be poor with me, you kid, you are a rich and noble life." ”

I thought to myself that I had met a super-quality physiognomy master, so he was hiding too deeply.

Back to the cleaning office, turn on the phone, the phone is so quiet that it can't be quiet, I thought that those people who cared about me, ignored me, maybe the shutdown is to find a sense of existence forgotten by others, if it crackles when it is turned on, it means that someone will really worry about me, but I just want to be my former self now.

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