Haruki Murakami said that because most people in the world do not believe in the truth, but take the initiative to believe in what they want to be true. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info such a person, no matter how wide his eyes are, he can't actually see anything.

"I see the ghost of Ucon, is it really what I want to see?"

"Is it real?"

It was not clear whether Jia Xu played by Su Ye before was mentally ill, but now it is very much like being sick, as if he is schizophrenic, forcing himself to ask himself, and he still asks a few questions back and forth.

Other than that, Su Ye didn't dare to do anything, including eating and sleeping.

It went on like this for a night and an afternoon, and when the nurse came to check on it the next morning, I was startled.

Because Su Ye, who appeared in front of the nurse's eyes, her hair was messy, her bloodshot eyes were full of bloodshots, and her body seemed to be covered with an invisible layer of death, not to mention that she didn't pay attention to it, even if she took a look, she would be startled.

"Mr. Jia, are you alright?" asked the nurse worriedly.

Su Ye shook his head, and replied without any emotion: "I'm thinking about some questions." ”

The nurse was still not at ease, so she reported Su Ye's situation to Dr. Wang Tie before continuing to do her business.

After another hour, Wang Yuan was sent back.

Because he fainted with anemia in the bathroom before, Wang Yuan was sent to the treatment room, and after a day of infusion, he was sent back to the ward.

"Yuanyuan, I said I'm fine, don't worry, and the doctor said before, it's okay, it's a big deal. ”

"Okay, okay, it's me who is not good, I must not be picky eaters and eat more vegetables. ”

"Have pity on me. ”

The nurse carried the infusion bottle in the back, and then Wang Yuan kept talking to his dear wife as if he was talking to his dear wife, from the content of his mouth, as well as his tone, it was really like a wife who was worried about her husband's body, and kept nagging.

"Eh, brother, why did you become such a ghost?" Wang Yuan looked at Su Ye and couldn't help asking, "Look at you, it scared your sister-in-law." ”

"Sister-in-law, does sister-in-law really exist?" Su Ye asked coldly.

Wang Yuan seemed to be very accustomed to this question, and he replied with a smile: "Your sister-in-law, my wife is next to me, why doesn't it exist? ”

After speaking, Wang Yuan returned to his hospital bed and began to show affection with "Wang Yuan".

And Su Ye seemed to be awakened by Wang Yuan's words, if you say that it doesn't exist, it doesn't exist? What a person says, no matter how reasonable it seems, is not necessarily the truth.

Thinking about this, Jia Xu, played by Su Ye, stopped asking himself and began to change his method and torture himself for a long time.

Ba Jin said in his later years that the greatest thing he did was not to become a writer, but to torture himself, Ba Jin's old age can be said to be a repentant old age, so no matter whether you have done evil or not, when you want to pick up a ruler and torture and measure yourself, it is painful.

It's like Ba Jin, who once commented on himself: I feel disgusted by my performance.

Su Ye's self-torture is not so deep, but relatively shallow.

Break down the questions step by step, and then combine the most real feelings in your heart to get the answer.

For example, the first broken down question, am I really delusional of sanity?

According to Dr. Wang's description, sanity delusion is a very logical delusion based on existing conditions, and it will automatically patch the delusion. ”

"Now, am I a logical delusion based on the available material?"

There is a point, rational paranoia is the most reasonable and logical delusion to be carried out according to the surrounding environment, so from this point of analysis, is the appearance of Ukong reasonable?

"Since I have the ability to predict super-induction, maybe I felt that the four of them would die as soon as I met, so the question is first to see with my own eyes, the old classmate I just met died in front of my eyes without words, can I accept it?"

Su Ye pondered for a long time before giving a reply closest to his heart: "That's right, I really can't accept it, so I want to make up for this reasonableness in other situations." ”

"So Ukong's ghost is the most logical delusion?" Su Ye combined the situation that night and found that Ukong's delusion was not the most logical.

"If I really felt that the four of them were in danger when I met them for the first time, I immediately fabricated a Wukong that never existed, and took revenge on the reason of being bullied, but if I hadn't thought that Wukong would attack the four of them, I wouldn't have gone to Xue Biqi immediately the next day, and if I didn't look for it, it would have been impossible to see Xue Biqi die in front of my eyes, so this Wukong delusion can't meet the requirements of sanity paranoia at all, and it is simply the most rational delusional content. ”

"So, I'm not suffering from sansane paranoia, so the rest is pseudovisual hallucinations. ”

Eliminating a cause, Su Ye's brain is much clearer, because he personally feels that this kind of sober and rational thinking is helpful to the problem.

"False hallucinations, right...... One thing proves that I'm not hallucinating. ”

Su Ye lowered his head, pulled the corners of his mouth, an inexplicable smile appeared on his face, and muttered in a low voice: "Don't think, don't bend the facts, I'm smart." ”

"Don't try to bend the facts, you can't fool me. ”

Get up and press the bell next to your bed.

Su Ye asked the nurse to call Wang Tie again, and the thing he called was very simple, that is, to ask to meet with Yi Ruhuan.

Although this is a mental recuperation home, it is no problem if the patient asks to meet with his family, so Wang Tie agreed to Su Ye's request, but the call to inform Yi Ruhuan was made by Wang Tie himself, and the time will be scheduled until tomorrow afternoon.

Speaking of which, Su Ye felt quite sorry for his girlfriend, he didn't say anything clearly, he disappeared, and then he couldn't be contacted, and now suddenly a phone call came over and said, your boyfriend is in a mental recuperation home, compare your heart to your heart, if you are easy as a fantasy, what do you feel?

On the other hand, when Yi Ruhuan received the news, his first reaction was to suspect that the person calling was a liar.

Just kidding, Yi Ruhuan is very clear, although Jia Xu is a little nervous, but it is far from being mentally ill, so the mental health care home is a lie, and if Wang Tie didn't make this call with Jia Xu's mobile phone, I'm afraid that when he introduced himself in the first sentence, he would be hung up by Yi Ruhuan.

It's just that when Wang Tie sent the photo of Su Ye when he was admitted to the hospital to Yi Ruhuan, Yi Ruhuan had to believe it.

The next day, after packing up, Yi Ruhuan did not follow the agreed time, and came to Jiaoshan in the morning.

When I saw the signboard of the Jiaoshan Spiritual Nursing Home, I hesitated for a long time, and finally stepped into the nursing home......