Following the impressions, I stepped into these murals one by one, and learned what kind of person I was or should be. By the time I got to the last mural, I was on the verge of collapse. It turns out that this is the answer that Lian Po let me see, and it turns out that this is the meaning of self-deception.

"I've been in love with Lin Jie?" I couldn't believe my eyes at all, but the truth was that the memory buried in my heart, since it was presented in the most unacceptable picture for me, it must be true. It is often said that sixteen years old is the flowering season, which is the time when the love of youth is beginning to bloom. I missed so many things that by the time the rainy season arrived at the age of seventeen, my flowers were broken, and the missing petals were memories that I had torn out so badly.

From here onwards, the three painting walls roughly talked about a language that was unbearable, showed those words and articles to Lin Jie, introduced her to me, and then somehow promoted the so-called "marriage". At that time, the teenagers were very serious about this kind of thing, although most of them didn't understand what true love was—for example, Guo Qian still didn't understand—they were always in the circle of students, and they had a so-called name. But I didn't behave well, and I always had a not-so-cold attitude towards girls, and I was only treated as a friend or even a very ordinary friend. Do you dare to believe that I am with her eighty percent so that I can get close to Yu Si? Indeed, because of this indirect relationship, I can get closer to her, and I no longer have that kind of deliberately unfamiliar when I stand together. Yu Si was afraid of me and couldn't, maybe the launch of Lin Jie was just a talisman or a shield; she didn't expect that I, Guo Qian, would be so inferior to use Lin Jie as a prop! No wonder Zhao Yu's attitude towards me was so disdainful:

Rotten people and rotten things.

I've got it all.

On the night when Lin Tian first appeared, Lin Jie stopped me, like falling into the sea of dreams after singing all my words, she told me her thoughts, and even reminded me that these were all shown to her by Yu Si, and also expressed Yu Si's intentions. At that time, I was already Lin Jie's rightful boyfriend, and now I can't accept that I have done such a thing, but I have enough reason to believe that I did it.

Self-deception, I'm too familiar with it. Cover my ears and steal the bell, I will do everything.

Maybe from the very beginning, I was a villain who was a fly camp and a dog, using strength and talent to overwhelm others, showing my own value, seeking personal gain, and always taking out Guan Erye to flaunt myself? Am I worthy? Guo Qian, tell me yourself, are you worthy? Loyalty, filial piety, benevolence and righteousness, the first thing to bear the brunt is loyalty, even a woman can't be loyal, what kind of righteousness do you say!

"It's useless to scold yourself. Many people will scold themselves after committing a mistake and count the actions they can't call human. Emperor Ying smiled, pointing to the last wall that was as black as splashing ink on it, "Scolding yourself, just because the past is irreparable, knowing that scolding is useless, scolding is reassuring." ”

"Yusi, can I say a few words about you as a real Yusi?" My heart was about to explode, as if it had just been brought out of the two-foot-high furnace.

"Yes, but it's not helpful to say more. I only borrowed the form of Di Yusi, and it is essentially yourself. She closed her eyes and shook her head, "Take me as a thought, say what is in your heart, thank you for your sin?" Guo Qian, you are still deceiving yourself. Knowing that it is not, why bother to be sentimental. If you really repent, you will recapture Dadong for her, and you can see her when you enter Beijing to be rewarded, and tell her in person. ”

"Yes, yes, yes. I screamed three times, and at once I rushed to the wall, and slammed my head into it, and the moment the blood broke, it came to life, and I was allowed to get in. Before fully stepping inside, the phantom of Yu Si spoke again: "This is a preliminary understanding. I wanted to crash into it, and I knew that I would be able to do it, so I didn't ask me how to do it. ”

"No, I'm still kidding myself. "My whole body is going to go into that painting," you said, still in my mind. I myself claim that I have not deceived myself, and that is not a sign of self-deception? ”

After the chaos, I cut off real contact with the side of the Great Golden Luan Palace, and the picture unfolded from pitch black, and it will end in pitch black. I guess it's raining here, and I'm either standing on the windowsill of my house or staying in the classroom of No. 1 Middle School. is as domineering as me, so naturally I always sit in the back row by the window.

Boom –

A flash of blue light flashed, thundering, tearing the sky. The self-study students in the classroom let out a burst of exclamations and turned their heads in horror to look at the sky outside the window. It was north, and I remember it very well, and I could see my neighborhood here.

"Guo Qian, are you also scared?" Zhang Tengyun at the same table has always been a calm person, with little white head, gray sideburns and a few extra-long white hairs, we are used to calling him Guo'er.

"Tengyun?" I shuddered and came back to my senses, but I was so frightened that my old tablemate was not light. He was not interested in this earth-shattering thunderbolt, but he was shocked by my abnormality. I always have a mouthful of Yang Xiao, and I actually call him Tengyun seriously.

"Scared silly, Brother Qian?" Tengyun lowered his head and continued to write the test paper. I trembled and put down the gel pen in my hand and held on to the table and kept shaking. This time was different from the previous ones, I was no longer a spectator, but returned to this moment to relive the story. This wall is like splashing ink, which shows that I can't even remember the plot of this memory. Confused, I knew I was going to have to face something harder than I had before.

Zhang Tengyun's pen, Yin Xiaoyao's pen, Li Hao's pen······ Kill Kill Kill ······ Ouyang Xiu once wrote a poem called "No Warrior Rank Yong, the next pen spring cannibalizes the sound of leaves", at that time, the candidates had a thin soft brush, and there should be no momentum of today's alloy nib. There is a lot of killing, everyone is studying hard, what am I thinking about all day long?

I quickly settled into the atmosphere and forgot what I was here for, looking at the paper in my hand, or the physics mock questions. Lao Guo, Lao Guo is my physics teacher.

Time flew by to solve three mid-range problems, which took me an hour. The fluorescent lights in the classroom are good, but I still can't stand the dense questions and complicated images on this test paper. I have simplified the abstract physical process countless times, distilled it into elaborate models, deduced many calculations on scratch paper, and written several contradictory answers side by side. This is the norm, and I love the ease and sheer joy of solving a problem when I was in school. I will be defeated by them again and again, but in the end, I can find the pattern through my own efforts, calmly defeat them, and kill them in one fell swoop according to Lao Guo's method. Even if there are tens of millions of variations in this test question, we can't avoid our tactics of the sea of questions, and if we deliver it, we will definitely be rewarded.

"Brother Qian, look at the back door. ”

Zhang Tengyun stabbed me with a pen, and immediately a tacit understanding came up, and it hit me faster than the thunder outside the window. My spine rings in the ring.

The back door has always been the most magical place in the school, where you can see all kinds of students, adults who are already in different positions. You can turn a blind eye to the class teacher, and the age leaders and principals are also rare and strange, and the students like to see male and female classmates falling in love, and little lovers whispering in the corner. It's the same everywhere. I turned around at Zhang Tengyun's reminder and saw a slender shadow poking out the back door of my class. She was long out of school, her hair was draped over her shoulders, she wore a little lipstick, and she didn't look like us middle school students at all.

"Why did she come suddenly, didn't you say she transferred to another school?" Zhang Tengyun drank water expressionlessly. I used to think that he was not interested in my love life, but now that I think about it, I may think that I am a scoundrel and shameful. My reputation is not as good as I thought, at least in front of the people closest to me, I have nowhere to hide, and that little bit of scheming is fully revealed. Lin Jie waved at me, these nails are all transparent, I really don't think it looks good.

Almost under the attention of the whole class, I walked towards Lin Jie in five steps and three stops. There was a small open space behind the teacher, which had just been dragged by the students on duty, and it was still water-stained. I stepped over and smiled at her as much as I could, but I couldn't.

"I heard that you don't want me anymore, and I'm starting to think about it again. Lin Jie said very quietly, and she didn't want my classmates to hear it, but the classroom was too quiet, and the sound of the paper ball thrown by Xie Rui falling into the trash can was clearly recognizable, not to mention the human voices that we had learned to hear since childhood?

"Let's go to the hallway first, shall we? "I habitually reached out to her, and I don't know if this habit was there back then or brought with me now. Gradually, my memories told me that this was really happening. I put one hand on her shoulder and tried to hug her out, but I was pushed away. Her nails pierced my summer shirt and a red line spread across my chest.

"I'm not ······" Lin Jie lowered her head, looking at her bright edged red nails, her eyes trembling.

"Jie'er. I called softly, and finally took her out of this place of right and wrong, but I bumped into Lao Guo at the top of the stairs. At this time, I was already the soul master, and Lian Po was dormant in the general's mansion at the forehead, and entered the eyes of Lao Guo. Lao Guo coughed a few times and walked away with his fellow teacher. I always thought it was a warning, and now that I think about it, it might be a hint. Lin Jie followed Lin Tian to the middle line of the Great East, and has become a soul warrior who can take charge of himself. I can't see it, can the investigator Lao Guo not see it.

Lin Jie's eyes when she looked at Lao Guo were just as complicated, among them, the fear of the grade director was the last, the fear of my homeroom teacher was second, and the top was the wolf-dog dispute between the soul warrior and the investigator. I can only see and understand these sparks with today's eyes.

"Guo Qian, how have you changed. ”

"I haven't changed, I'm ······ Lin Jie, you believe me, in fact, ······" What can I say, my love for her is only today, and she knows that I didn't take her to heart at all. At the age of sixteen, I couldn't have done this show, "I'm sorry. ”

My mind kept flashing back, and I saw me being hoisted by her generals in front of Wenshantou for a while, and then came to the Wuwang Mansion to drink the medicine she had boiled. Outside, three four-story school buildings are connected by sky bridges, and every window shines with a miserable white light, arching the moon in the sky, and the light converges into a river, flowing with all our confusion. Boys and girls embraced each other in the dark, sitting on the tiled floor of the administration building, drinking the frost of early autumn.

"It's time for us to disperse. She said, "I'm outside, you're inside, and I can't help myself." ”

At that time, I thought she was talking about school, and I thought that she was blaming me and implying that she had a new lover outside. Can you understand what it means inside and out? It's too easy to understand in a year or two.

One person, two people, and soon many black heads with black eyes flocked to the window facing the center of the three buildings, looking at the stone carved flower bed below. The skybridge connecting the two buildings is also full of heads, looking straight down.

Lin Jie, tell your father, I am the grandson of Emperor Wu and the son of Wu Hao, if he must use you to tie up someone, I hope that person is me. I wanted to say this to her, but I couldn't simulate such a scenario without this sentence in my memory. At that time, I was cowardly, not only did I deceive myself, but I couldn't even grasp the opportunity to save everything.

As the hustle and bustle grew, the two of us had nothing to say to each other, so we were also provoked by the hustle and bustle, and secretly lay behind the glass curtain wall of the administrative building, snuggling together for the last time. The stars are bright tonight, and it is estimated that some boy wants to confess to the girl he likes. As I said, everyone's favorite is such a youthful drama, thousands of people gather, can only watch this.

"Thoughts. The boiling boiled down, and the boy's last words were clearer than the moonlight.

"Zhao Yu?" I couldn't help but shudder, trying my best to see the boy clearly, and finally found that he was not! He was not Zhao Yu, who could it be? I shook my head in a panic, and my eyes quickly swept across the windows of the opposite floor, and sure enough, I caught a glimpse of Zhao Yu below. At that time, he was not very interested in Yusi, and there was a handsome girl next to him, looking very happy. There is also Lao Guo, who quietly stood behind his classmates, tiptoeing and looking down, with a dignified expression.

"Who's that?" I jerked to the girl next to me and shouted angrily.

"Guo Qian, I've had enough, I'm here to talk about breaking up tonight. In the future, you won't be able to see me in Qingxian at all!" Lin Jie shook off my hand and walked towards the staircase without looking back. There is no light on this layer.

"She's just a pity for me. I knew I couldn't from the beginning!" I was in the impression that I explained, "I only have you, can't I start cherishing you now?"

If it weren't for my impressions, I would have slapped myself in the face. Guo Qian, aren't you just a scumbag, treating others as spare tires? You still say that you seem to be a frustrated person.

"Okay, finally I'm gone, and it's a good regret for you!" Lin Jie stopped and looked at me angrily, "I'm really leaving!"

No matter how stupid I am Guo Qian, I can't do this! However, my throat is choked by fixed memories.

Kiss one, kiss one, kiss one.

There is a row of overpasses on three sides of the building, and it is like a boiling pot in the field. My eyes drifted to the sound and my body turned halfway, all revealing one meaning: I want to see. I'm going to see which bastard dares to think about it. At that time, although I had the intention to keep Lin Jie, I was betrayed by my own small actions.

"Lin Jie?"

Looking back, she was gone. All I could see was the desert darkness of the hall on the second floor of the administrative building. I remember that my legs were immobilized, and I really don't know why I didn't chase them out. Is I, Guo Qian, really such an unbearable person?

"Everything is laid out on the road. ”