209. Night
Xu was able to stay in a decent residence for several days in a row, and that night, Gao Ran and the others seemed to have released all the fatigue accumulated for several days at once, and they obviously felt sleepy! Even dinner was saved! Several people fell asleep in their respective rooms not long after nightfall. The pen is www.biquge.info and the only one is sober.
But it has been almost three days since he left the Dong Mansion (a family mansion built by the Dong family on the border of Jiaoguo) without permission. Even if he had instructed his cronies to hide his whereabouts for him for at least three days in advance, it was estimated that most of the people in the mansion had already noticed that he was not actually going out to deal with the affairs of the Dong family, but ran away without permission!
Therefore, if he does not rush back to the Dong Mansion overnight, which is almost a day's walk (the foot of the horseback on horseback) from this private house, I am afraid that his cronies will probably encounter accidents because of his private departure!
Moreover, he didn't want to cause the exposure of his private house because of his impulsive private departure, and then threaten the safety of Gao Ran and his party - especially Gao Ran, if the Dong family knew her true identity and her true relationship with him, I was afraid that she would be more than lucky!
Therefore, for both public and private purposes, he had to rush back to Dong's Mansion overnight!
Fortunately, he had mentioned the matter to Gao Ran before he left, and although she did not ask him why he had decided to return home overnight, he could vaguely sense that she seemed to have guessed the reason, so he did not ask him - she did not want to embarrass him.
"Alas!" Dong Tian sighed unconsciously.
Although Gao Ran's intelligence and cleverness can indeed save him a lot of worry, it is precisely because of this that if he wants to really catch her, I am afraid that there is little hope...... It's better to say that it is not easy for her to make such a concession like now!
Dong Tianyi will not be unaware, if Gao Ran can not bear the "responsibility" that women in this world must bear by birth, if she can really choose according to her own truest heart, then her most sincere choice will never be him! Not only him, but she may not choose Gao Xi! Because, what she really wants is not to stay with anyone for a lifetime, but to be like Zhao Yi, she can be free between heaven and earth alone!
Dong Tianyi has always been very clear in his heart: Gao Ran is actually the same kind of person as Zhao Yi in her bones, but it's a pity that she is a daughter...... But, on the other hand, he was very glad that she was a woman, otherwise he was afraid that he would not have a chance to stay with her!
In fact, he had already realized this as early as the day she first came to the academy to walk with him and Yun Zhen, standing on the top of the mountain and improvised the song, and heard her yearning for freedom and the feeling of longing to be one with heaven and earth......
And when he saw her again, the intuitive feeling she gave him, and the bottom-line demand she had frankly explained to them last night, all made him more sure of his initial judgment of her: he was convinced that freedom was above all else for her! And the reason why she was willing to choose them was only because of the most basic concessions she had to make in the face of the persecution of reality! But for her, it was not necessary for them! Otherwise, she would not have pointed out to them the bottom-line demand that she would never give into!- But her true intentions, how could he not know?!
"Perhaps, I should be content......"
Thinking of those pasts, Dong Tianyi looked up at the pitch-black night sky above his head with a somewhat complicated mood, but tonight is still a very rare cloudy weather here, and he can't even see the moon, let alone the starry sky!--However, such a dark night only sets off his mood at the moment......
"Heh!" Dong Tianyi sneered a little self-deprecatingly, and then drove his horse out of the private house and went straight to the city gate. Although the city gate was closed at this time, he was able to take advantage of the privilege given to him at this border by the Dong family token he carried, so that the city gate guards specially opened the city gate for him, and drove his horse out of the city overnight and went straight to the Dong Mansion.
But when he woke up, he couldn't remember what he had dreamed about, so he woke himself up?!
But now that you are awake, it is better to take advantage of the dead of night and think about some things by yourself. - For him, the atmosphere of tranquility at this moment is just right.
"Gao Gongzi, we Mingren don't say secret words, if you really understand Ran Er, it is not difficult for you to see that she will choose us, in fact, it is also her choice after making 'concessions'. So, if you want to stay with her, it's best to see what we really mean in her mind first!
"Naturally, Ran'er treats us sincerely. I never doubted that. But this sincerity can never be compared with her desire for freedom! If we persecute her without knowing it, we are afraid that in the end she will abandon us for the sake of freedom!
"Gao Gongzi, I don't think you should be naïve to think that Ran'er will have to be us, right?! Even if she has affection for us, it is different from our affection for her......
Last night, Dong Tianyi's bluntness in a one-on-one chat with him made Gao Xi truly believe that he really understood Gao Ran, and finally agreed that he was indeed qualified to be an equal to himself!
With this recognition, Gao Xi no longer guarded against Dong Tianyi's true intention of deliberately chatting with him alone, but he rarely became frank either.
That's why he replied at that time: "I understand what Dong Gongzi meant! I won't tell you anything, I also agree with your idea! It seems that for the sake of today's plan, we can only live in harmony as the choice that is truly beneficial to both of us! Although I really don't want to share Ran'er's affection with others -- including Dong Gongzi you! But no matter what, 'sharing' is better than losing it completely -- I understand this reason!"
"So, we've come to an agreement?"
"Well, Dong Gongzi, as far as I know, I am a year older than you, why don't you call me 'senior brother' in the future?"
"Okay, that brother, you will call me 'Brother Dong' in the future!"
"Okay! A word is a certainty! Then I will ask Brother Dong for more advice from now on!"
"Where is it, it should be the younger brother who bothers the senior brother to take more care!"
"Hehe, then let's be with each other!"
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The short private chat with Dong Tianyi last night, now that he thinks back again, Gao Xi really realized how irrational his short gaffe was yesterday! He didn't expect that he would be blinded by his emotions for a while because of Dong Tianyi's sudden appearance, and he was almost separated from Gao Ran and them because of his extremely fast gallop at that time!
Thinking of this, Gao Xi regretted his impulsiveness at that time, but he was also a little glad that he was sober at that time, but even more fortunate was that even if he was impulsive at that time, he only chose to vent the unhappiness in his heart in that way, and did not use a more direct and fierce hostile way only against Dong Tianyi to vent the unhappiness in his heart. Otherwise, he would never just regret it at this moment!
And when he thought of this, he couldn't help but remember again why he was unhappy at that time?--it was because Gao Ran's calm and composure at that time was in stark contrast to his obvious unhappiness, so that he had to face up to the fact that although she did say that she liked him, and he believed that what she said was true, he could no longer lie to himself, and he had to admit that her liking for him was actually different from his liking for her! Even, maybe even if he waits for a lifetime, she won't really empathize with his feelings for her......
While Gao Xi was disappointed and hurt, he also had to admit that in fact, he had realized it a long time ago: in his opinion, this was the biggest flaw in Gao Ran's character, and she seemed to be born with an indifferent feeling! At least, he preferred to believe that it was not that she didn't want to understand his feelings for her, but that she really couldn't understand them! Therefore, it was not easy for her to have some feelings for him like she did now, although such feelings were actually very fragile and easy to lose......
"Ahh
Gao Xi sighed unconsciously. At this moment, on the one hand, he was glad that he finally endured the unhappiness in his heart, and decided not to care about this matter anymore, let alone let Gao Ran know about it, but on the other hand, he was finally willing to admit a doomed ending:
Since he insisted on choosing Gao Ran, then he had to restrain his feelings for her for the sake of his choice. Otherwise, he will want to give more to her, and at the same time, he hopes that she will give him more...... But in doing so, he will not only cause more disappointment and hurt to herself, but also put more pressure on her that she does not want to bear, but she has always forced herself to bear - but the problem is that with Gao Ran's temperament, once this pressure has accumulated to the limit of what she can bear, then she is bound to finally abandon him and everything related to him completely in order to free herself!
-- He believes that Gao Ran did it! -- No matter who the object is!
Therefore, if he insists on choosing Gao Ran, then he is destined to always restrain himself, neither overindulge his selfish desires, nor ask too much of her-just like Gao Ran made clear last night: respect each other's true wishes, and don't force each other.
In his opinion, this is not only Gao Ran's bottom line, but also the "moderate range" that he must always be vigilant about when living in harmony with her and her other two fiancés in the future.
If he can't, then he's doomed to be hurt! And the pain can't be attributed to the person who hurt him......
Now, when Gao Xi rethinks about the things that have been bothering him since yesterday, reorganizes his thoughts, and reorganizes his emotions, he knows that he must understand and accept a fact: Yesterday, even if he and Dong Tianyi swapped places - even if the person Gao Ran met by chance was not Dong Tianyi, but him, most of the responses she would have would be the same as yesterday! She is different from him, she will not have too many ups and downs in her mentality because of the change of the object she meets by chance. Otherwise, she wouldn't be the Gao Ran he knew!
Although such Gao Ran can still deal with it indifferently at that moment - this still makes Gao Xi a little hurt and disappointed, but he has to admit that at other times other than that moment, she is what really attracts him!
Therefore, if he still has any unwilling words in his heart at this moment, then he can only laugh at himself coldly: "You deserve it!"