I sat quietly in my study all night, thinking about a lot of questions. There are many problems that are directly related to Ah Huan today, many are related to Ah Huan in the long run, and some have nothing to do with me and Ah Huan, but are purely scattered and unrealistic resentment.

What do we do? That's the main question. And this question is divided into two parts, one is me and the other is her. I used to think about this kind of question, but at that time the question was not divided into two parts, everything was purely "we", and now "we" suddenly changed, becoming "me" and "she", which made my heart twist.

But even so, I can only step by step, slowly pick up the pen, with the memory of a mixture of pinyin and English to write the complicated questions on the paper word by word, to help myself clarify my thoughts - this is the good habit left by the exam-oriented education of the year, crossing into a princess, do not need to study hard as before, it has been a long time since I sat so seriously, like solving problems to analyze problems. Fortunately, the skills of analysis have not been completely forgotten.

After writing all the questions, use a pen on the paper to circle the first to answer, and then circle the first to be answered from these, and so on, and so on, and finally only the first question is left - why me Ah Huan?

Why me Ah Huan?

I don't believe a word of the reason Cui Mingde said. Those reasons were enough to convince the father, but they were not enough to make the mother make a choice. And this time to choose the crown princess, the mother's opinion is definitely the most important.

I thought about it repeatedly, thinking about every word Cui Mingde said to me during the day, thinking about all the strengths and weaknesses of Ah Huan, and every evaluation my mother had about Ah Huan in the past.

At the beginning, my mother must not have taken a fancy to Ah Huan, otherwise she would not have said such things to me. No matter how young and cowardly Li Rui is, the future "crown princess" must be better than a princess. It is impossible for my mother not to understand this truth, if she wanted to make Ah Huan a concubine, she would not have taught me so explicitly and implicitly, and led me to make a feud with the princess she had chosen.

So, when did the mother decide to choose her?

Ah Huan was reluctant to mention family matters to me, and I never took the initiative to inquire. It was a reward from Wei Xuanzhen and Cui's family, and I didn't know until a few months later, before that I thought that her family was embarrassed, and I often thought about subsidizing her openly and secretly. Even if I knew this reward, I didn't take it as a big deal, after all, between the five-rank sanguan and the first-rank princess, it was really... It's a world of difference.

But if you think about it carefully, the fifth grade is really a very delicate grade.

The permanent staff officer starts with the five grades, although Wei Xuanzhen is a loose official, but with such a grade, and it is the origin of Jingzhao Wei, it is difficult to guarantee that he will not be selected for the last five grades, and he has the qualifications to enter the court and the permanent staff.

What's more, I heard my mother say today that Wei Xuanzhen has chosen the governor of Yu. Yuzhou is Shangzhou, and the long history is from the five grades, which is already a good official shortage, and if you do a good job, within two or three years, you will either change your car or turn to the history of assassination, which is a logical thing. If you rise quickly, it is possible to make a history of thorns within a year. Wei Xuanzhen has been elected for several years, and he can't even find a shortage of 17 grades, I really don't believe that this governor history was planned by himself - I suddenly found the biggest reason for my mother to choose Ah Huan, her father and brother are shallow, The official position is low, even if he really marries Li Rui, he will only be a drag on the prince, and it will not be beneficial to him, even if he becomes the queen in the future, he may not be able to suppress those concubines in the harem, and in the end, the rise and fall of honor and disgrace are still all in the hands of his mother, and although her family is so decaying, she is still the daughter of Jingzhao Wei, and the "mother" is still Qinghe Cui's family, one of the five surnames and seven hopes, and even refused the marriage of the former prince.

The best thing is that Ah Huan doesn't even get along with these family members with shallow talents and low official positions, even if Li Rui wants to rely on his own Yue family, Ah Huan is probably unwilling.

Naturally, Ah Huan is not useless. Although her writing and intelligence are not as good as Cui Mingde, she is also middle-class among the women of the family, and she has been in the palace for two years, except for some small accidents, and there have been no major mistakes.

Besides, although Ah Huan is darker than the beauty expected by the times, her face is not bad, and she has been riding and shooting since she was a child, she is strong, and she is a good embryo for birth and breeding - when I think of this, I feel a sorrow in my heart, and even drink a few big sips of tea before I suppress this pain, and continue to think about the benefits of my Ah Huan - no matter how domineering my mother is, Li Rui is her youngest son after all, and I can't always think about him when I marry a wife, and my Ah Huan has high expectations, I am not badly born, and I have talents, and I am suitable for my descendants, and I don't get along with Li Rui badly...

I clenched my teacup suddenly.

Li Rui.

If Li Rui took the initiative to ask for Ah Huan with his mother, then everything would be logical. Li Rui said that he had a crush on Chu'er here, but if that was the case, why didn't he ask Chu'er, but he always saw him come to ask Ah Huan?

Li Rui.

When I was a child, when my father was closer to Li Rui, I had no resentment, because I knew that I had traveled to ancient times, and the fact that men were inferior to women could not be changed, and later, my father and mother were more concerned about Li Rui's education, but when I was perfunctory and doting on me, I had no resentment, because I was lazy by nature and unwilling to do that diligent and hard work. I am not resentful when I am constantly worried about the invisible future of the two of us, because I know that my mother is the famous Zetian Majesty, and it is much happier to be her daughter than her son.

But now, I can hardly suppress my resentment towards Li Rui, I hate him for being a man, I hate him for being a prince, a fellow mother, but he can naturally hook up with my sweetheart, my parents found out about this, not only will they not blame, but they will marry my Ah Huan to him because of this, Ah Huan is obviously mine, obviously I met her first, but it was Li Rui who had a tryst with her first.

I remembered the day Ah Huan wore Hu for the first time, she was so beautiful that she fascinated me and forgot everything. When she went to Ruzhou, she obviously accompanied me out to ride and shoot, but she specially wore a bright hufu and said that she didn't bring a riding uniform. She was obviously familiar with Li Rui, but she pretended not to know each other. On the way to Luozhou, Li Rui was obviously talking to her, but when I came out, he left boringly. They had already gone out for a tryst, and everyone in the palace except me knew about it? That's why Cui Mingde was suddenly so determined? They had been together for a long time, and they were the only ones hiding from me.

But I knew her first.

But it's supposed to be my Ah Huan, why suddenly... It's someone else's?

I grabbed the teacup with all my might and threw it out the window.

The pale cyan porcelain cup made inside drew a beautiful arc in the dusk night, smashed on the heavy window lattice, and fell to the ground, making a terrible crisp sound, the palace people outside the door called "princess" lightly, wanted to push the door in, and I shouted back: "Get out!"

She glanced at me in a panic and left with a wince, and after a while, Song Fuyou called me at the door: "Erniang?"

I opened the door, so angry that my mouth trembled, and it took me a few times to say what I wanted to say: "Whoever asks again, will be dragged out and killed!"

I saw the frightened expressions of the servants, they were all as pale as ghosts at this moment, just to match such a night, Song Fuyou didn't say anything, waved his sleeves, these people retreated with relief, I glared at Song Foyou, waiting for her to speak, if she dared to persuade me, I asked someone to drag her out and beat twenty... No, ten rods, from now on in this temple you will know who is the master here, and no one is allowed to lie to me again. (Jin ↑ Jiang Exclusive)

However, Song Fuyou didn't speak again, she just looked at me fixedly, came in silently, cleaned up the debris on the ground, and came in with a cup of tea after exiting, exactly the same pale cyan porcelain cup, which was boiled with my favorite weak tea brewed with tea leaves instead of tea powder, and a plate of four dim sum on the side, I don't know what kind of pastry it was, white and glutinous, and steaming sweetly.

She put down her tea and snacks and withdrew, and soon disappeared into the night.

I stood at the door and looked out, the huge courtyard is now empty, the forest in the Shangyang Palace is luxuriant, afraid of fire, and did not light many lights, from the house, only to see a dark one on all sides, the bright and bright flowers and trees in the day are now just a shadow of shadows, high and low black shadows, with the night wind and ups and downs, making the sound of the suspected person walking by. However, when I looked closely, there was no one on all sides, only the grass and trees, the courtyard, and me.

The lights in the house flickered, casting my shadow into the courtyard, stretching long, sometimes passing through the courtyard, connecting with the grass and trees, and sometimes dangling out and smiling mischievously at me. It is much happier than I am now, angry and sad in this stinking skin, but it still jumps and shakes unconsciously, innocently like a child.

I really hated it for being so happy, and turned my head to the sky, and there was a huge full moon hanging low in the sky, only to find that today was August 16, and yesterday was the Mid-Autumn Festival. Now the Mid-Autumn Festival is not an official festival, but in the daytime only to enjoy chrysanthemums and drink, and there is no big celebration, my father is not in good health, no one dares to toss at night, the full moon hangs in the air, but it seems extremely deserted.

The air of this era is really good, under the full moon, the shadow of the Luozhou city wall and the palace wall in the distance is clearly visible, and the highest place is the main gate of Luoyang Ziwei Palace, the gate of heaven.

My mother loved Luoyang, and I spent most of my childhood in Luoyang, and I was often taken by my parents to climb the tower of Zetianmen, or secretly climbed to the tower with Li Rui to see the street scene outside the palace.

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