"Just came. Fang Ze walked into the house with the jujube mud cake and said to Chen Qin, "Your nephew bought you a very famous store's jujube mud cake, and I was afraid that it would be broken up if it was mailed, so I brought it here." ”

"Come in. Chen Qin saw that Fang Ze was alone, and then let Fang Ze in.

"Sister Chen, since you have come to my place, I will take you to eat some of the more famous snacks here in a few days. Fang Ze walked in as he spoke.

After entering the house, Fang Ze glanced around the house, which was about 100 square meters, but did not find the huskies, Samoyeds and Alaska raised by Chen Qin.

Chen Qin is a very dog lover, which can be seen from the last time I saw her in the resort with her three demolition offices everywhere.

Therefore, Fang Ze believed that since Chen Qin came here to live alone, he would definitely lead those three dogs.

But now Fang Ze can see the traces of the three dogs' lives, and the dog bowls can be seen, but the three dogs are gone.

"Sister Chen, where is your family's demolition office?" Fang Ze asked.

"Gave it away. Chen Qin replied casually, as if this was a very ordinary thing.

"Don't want to raise it?" Fang Ze asked as he put down the jujube mud cake.

Because he was afraid that Chen Qin didn't like to see strangers, Fang Ze didn't let Lockhart come with him, but let him stay on the bench downstairs to read, anyway, the distance would not exceed a hundred meters. “

"No, because I can't raise it. Chen Qin said, "So you can only give it away?"

Can't raise it?

Before Fang Ze could understand Chen Qin's words, he saw Chen Qin reach out and take a piece of jujube paste cake and feed it into his mouth.

"When did the shop selling jujube cakes on the opposite street also become famous. Chen Qin obviously ate where this jujube paste cake came from.

"Maybe it's just a bit like the taste, you know that there are some more famous shops now, and the food they make is actually no different from ordinary small shops. Fang Ze continued to lie.

"Oh. Chen Qin pointed to the bag where Fang Ze was filled with jujube paste cake and asked, "Then why is it that even the name of the store on the packaging bag used is the same?"

"Uh. Fang Ze patted his head, remembering that he had forgotten to change the packaging.

"It's Chen Jian who asked you to come to see me, I'm afraid something will happen to me. Chen Qin said and sat on the sofa, then looked at Fang Ze and said, "You tell him, I don't need to worry about him anymore in the future." ”

"You can't think about it. Fang Ze felt that Chen Qin's current state was very wrong.

"You know, sometimes it's really hard to be alive. Chen Qin said to Fang Ze.

"But if you're not there, your family and friends will be very sad. Fang Ze hurriedly said.

"If it weren't for them, I would have chosen to leave this world a long time ago. Chen Qin sat on the sofa and said lightly, "I also want to love in the past, and I also want to work hard to accept the world." But no, eating is like a task, breathing is just a habit. The reason why I still try to live in this world is just because I don't want to disappoint the people who love me. ”

"After depression, depression, for a long time, I think I was living two completely different lives, one that was always afraid of other people. I'm scared that people will see me for who I really am, and not everyone thinks I am: a gentle woman who loves pets. I'm not perfect, there is struggle beneath my smile, darkness beneath my light, and deeper pain hidden beneath my personality. ”

"Some people are afraid that others will not like him, some people may be afraid of heights, and some people may be afraid of death. But for me, a big part of my life was being afraid of myself. I was afraid of the truth, I was afraid of honesty, I was afraid of vulnerability, and this fear made me feel like I was being forced into a corner with only one way out. ”

Chen Qin slowly said the words in his heart word by word, but this made Fang Ze feel more and more frightened.

Many people with depression look like normal people on the surface, and some are even very extroverted. But it's not their true selves, it's just a disguise they've worked hard to disguise.

People with depression don't easily show their true selves to others, and they basically don't say anything to others.

That's why they live so painfully.

If a depressed person is willing to share her inner thoughts with others, either her depression has shown signs of improvement, or it means that she really can't hold on anymore.

"Chen Qin. Fang Ze exclaimed lightly, "Listen, if you feel that you are too tired to live, in fact, it is okay to live without working so hard." You don't have to make a good impression on someone. Just like being in the dark, you don't have to find an exit out of here, if you're too tired, just rest in the dark. It's better than not having darkness at all. ”

"You're pretty much the same as my psychiatrist. Chen Qin suddenly laughed and said.

"Because as an outsider, we can only say this, we have not suffered from depression, and we cannot understand your heart at all. ”

Every depressed person is a contradictory individual, every day it's like two villains fighting in their heads, and when they are tired, you can get a moment of rest. Chen Qin pointed to his head and said.

Fang Ze saw that Chen Qin seemed to be a little better now, so he continued, "Then are you just resting for a moment now?"

"No, I'm ready to take a permanent break. Chen Qin leaned his head back, and the whole person lay on the sofa in a big character.

Looking at Chen Qin's current state, Fang Ze felt more and more uneasy.

She stood up, took steps, turned on Athena's vision to look around, and asked Chen Qin, "Why do you say that." ”

"Because I'm going to die. I can't stand to live like this anymore, and if people really have reincarnation, then I hope I can live a good life in the next life. ”

Just as Chen Qin was speaking, Fang Ze suddenly saw a bottle scattered on the ground.

A green-colored bottle.

Fang Ze squatted down and picked up the bottle, and when he saw the label on the outside of the bottle that was almost empty, the whole person instantly felt as if he had fallen into an ice cave.

Because the bottle reads: Paraquat!

Throwing the bottle on the ground as if bitten by a snake, Fang Ze turned around and looked at Chen Qin, who was still lying there with a smile on his face, and asked in horror, "How much have you drunk?"

ps: The heating at home is broken, temporarily update two chapters, wait for twelve o'clock to update two chapters, as compensation, and continue five more tomorrow.