I've never felt so small. Although I have never considered myself a real princess, since I was a child, there are very few things I want and things I want to do, but I can't do it. Whatever I do inside, my flesh is indeed one of the noblest and most powerful men in this empire that is growing stronger.

I always thought that as long as I didn't have the idea of being wrong, and honestly and safely flattered my father, mother, and brothers, I would always live a peaceful, prosperous and noble life. But everything that has happened in the past year seems to break this perception in me.

The prince's proposal to the relatives broke my illusions about him, and I found that although I was a princess, in a sense, I was still under the fence and at the mercy of others, and my bloodline was not enough to be my reliance, and in some cases, this thing was an obstacle; The life and death changes of a family may be just a matter of a few words; Ah Yang's incident made me deeply realize that I am not alone, and my whole body is really related to the fate of many people; and now, my feelings for Wei Huan really made me start to think seriously about the future, not only my own future, but also Wei Huan's future.

Wei Huan.

These two words are very commonplace. A surname that shouts in the Duqu in the south of the city, which can attract half of the people on the street to turn back, and a simple, unsurprising name, now seems to have become a mechanism stuck in my heart and ears, whenever I hear these two words, this organ will be touched, capture everything about these two words into my ears, put it into my heart word for word, and my heart will carefully search for everything about "Wei Huan" This person's information, and then carefully put all the words about her in a place specially set up for her: she is Peng Zu, her grandfather's name is Hongbiao, her father Wei Xuanzhen, and Wei Ji, who was a young eunuch, is her grandfather, and it is said that her family is not the authentic Wei family, and the ancestor Wei was given the surname of the department, so some people contemptuously call her family "Huang Lizi Wei", of course, with the prosperity of her branch, gradually no one dares to talk about it in person, but the relationship between other branches of Wei and her branch is obviously just ordinary.

I learned the genealogy in general, and even the branch of the royal Li family was memorized for a long time before I could barely memorize it, but I can clearly tell the origin of the branch of the six rooms of the Webster, the first room of the east family to which she belongs, since the Han Dynasty to the present, I can count all the famous characters, even the mother jokingly called the "meat spectrum" Wan'er, in the east room of the Wei family is not as knowledgeable as me, of course, except for myself, no one knows this.

I don't know what kind of feelings I have for her, and I don't know how long this relationship will last, our future seems to be very clear, sometimes I even feel that everything on the road ahead of us will not be transferred by our will, but sometimes I feel that our future is confused, the road ahead seems to be full of fog, we can only grope in the fog to move forward, step by step, can not see whether the road ahead is wrong, or a smooth road, or an abyss.

However, I knew very well that if I had been a weightless princess for the rest of my life, there would be no possibility between me and her. I may be able to take her out of the palace and into my mansion and make her the most powerful person in my house, but I cannot guarantee how long this power will last. Too many people can dispose of my life at will, and then dispose of her whom I love. My feelings for her are so contrary to the ** of this era - as she said, against the family, not to mention, when there is no power, my identity may be the biggest obstacle between me and her.

If there is really a glimmer of possibility between me and her, then this glimmer of possibility may only come from me and her.

I think I need to seriously study the political rules of this era.

Miao Shenke has been amazed at my diligence recently. In the past, although I was not lazy, I always had a reluctance to learn for the sake of learning, but at these times, I would not only preview all the chapters he was going to talk about, but also ask Cui Mingde and Wei Huan to find many relevant classics for me, read all the words thoroughly, and always used them to ask questions in class, and sometimes even he couldn't answer the questions asked. After class, I no longer thought about going to the garden with Wei Huan to make fun of the butterflies and birds, or going to the Taiye Pond to play some boat games, but would take the initiative to stay and ask him many historical stories that he had not told and could not tell in class.

Naturally, I didn't dare to blatantly ask him questions such as "the abolition of the crown prince", "the change of dynasties", and "the empress dowager's administration", and so on, but I would only mix together many deeds found in the history books, pretend to mention them inadvertently, and deliberately disguise them as if they were nothing in common with the current situation, I don't know if he will see my intentions, after all, I now know that he is the "North Gate Scholar" for my father and mother to consult The first is the brain that my father and mother must ask about every major event in the past two years, and it is likely that my mother has cultivated it as the leader of the cold family of Zuoyi, but at these times, my father and mother treat me without any abnormality, and he should not be aware of it... Cease?

At the end of September, Li Bin, the king of Wu, finally brought his seven sons and four daughters to Beijing.

This fourth brother is completely different from what I imagined - I thought that he had been out of town for many years, in charge of the military in the state, should be a very heroic and vigorous character, who knew that what I saw was a young man with a white face and a slight beard, a fat body, and a face that resembled his father, the prince was three years older than him, and the two of them stood together, but they seemed to be brothers of the same age, if it weren't for the prince's deliberate beard and tanned face, King Wu would only look more like the eldest brother.

His eleven children, the eldest is eight years old, born very handsome, but a little like Li Rui when he was a child; the youngest is only one year old, and he is still held in the arms of his mother, and when he sees people, he holds his fingers in his mouth, and he laughs so much that his saliva is very pleasing--my eleven nephews and nieces stood in three rows in the hall when they entered the meeting, and it suddenly seemed that our side with only the prince, Li Rui and the eldest son of the prince, Li Wei, was alone.

Father and mother looked at the children and grandchildren in the hall, and smiled very happily, but Li Rui glanced at me, and his face was a little uncomfortable.

I am uncomfortable but I was born after seeing so many nephews and nieces - I heard that King Wu had seven sons, which is different from seeing so many nephews in front of him. Although the prince is at odds with his mother, he is her own son in the end, and it is impossible to really fight her to the end, but this King Wu is different.

He is not my mother's son, not Li Rui and my half-brother. Was it my father's idea or my mother's idea to ask him to go to Beijing? Did my mother ask Li Rui and me to befriend King Wu, did she really have this intention, or did she say the opposite? What kind of considerations did he have for letting him enter Beijing?

I glanced at King Wu, who smiled humbly and carefully, and then looked at the prince who also smiled humbly and carefully, and finally looked at the mother's face, she seemed to be extremely interested in King Wu's youngest son, and asked the mother to hold this little Langjun in front of her and teasing her, and sometimes said something to her father, and the father also looked at the little grandson with a loving face, and occasionally reached out to play with it, and then turned back to talk to his sons. He talked a lot to the prince at first, and occasionally Li Rui could □□ a sentence, and then King Wu talked about the customs of the fiefdom and those strange folk customs, and the prince and Li Rui, who had never been to other places alone, could no longer interject.

Mother kept smiling, as if there were only two fathers and Wu Wang father and son in this party, and only when Wan'er quietly approached her and whispered something in her ear did she show a meaningful smile and raise her voice to us: "Ah Pei has given birth, and she is a granddaughter." ”

I could clearly see the disappointment on the faces of the crown prince and Li Rui. (.. )