212. Trekking Alone (2)
After about a quarter of an hour, after making sure that these poisonous powders had completely worked, Gao Ran finally sat down with confidence. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 But as soon as she sat down, she knew at once that she would never get up again unless she had rested enough!—not that she didn't want to, but she couldn't!Her legs seemed to be no longer her own......
"No, I can't rest now! I have to find some wild fruits that can quench my thirst! I can't sit like this all the time......" Although there is still a trace of sober reason at the moment, Gao Ran still knows that his body is very short of water now, and he urgently needs to replenish water as soon as possible, so he regrets why he only thought about resting just now, but forgot to find wild fruits to quench his thirst, and at the same time desperately urges herself to get up again quickly! However, her body is unwilling to move anymore!
At this moment, Gao Ran only felt that his whole body was sore, and his body was completely disobedient. She sat lazily leaning against a stout tree, and felt her eyelids grow heavier and heavier...... In the end, I fell asleep unconsciously......
By the time she woke up again, night had fallen.
"Oh no!" I had planned to find a decent place to rest for at least a night before dark, but I didn't think that I had overslept and missed the best time to hurry! "For the sake of now, I'm afraid I can only spend the night here! Anyway, this is also a relatively secluded deep woods! And on the top of the mountain...... It should be much safer here than it is outside the woods!"
It's just that while planning like this, Gao Ran's heart was a little crying and laughing: she really didn't expect that she would really spend the night on a leafy tree tonight! I thought that she was just playing a little joke with herself at that time, but she didn't think that it would come true......
"It seems that this joke can't be made casually! No, it's better not to even think about it! What if it comes true like this one?!" While admonishing herself like this, Gao Ran didn't hesitate, and immediately got up and quickly climbed up the big tree behind her, which was very thick and leafy, but not too tall. I'm going to spend the night in this tree! Then wait for dawn the next day, and set off early!
Of course, for the sake of safety, she still sprinkled the poison repellent powder again in the small area where she was squatting, measuring those poisonous snakes and poisonous insects, she should be able to "smell" this smell and instinctively know that there is danger and dare not easily approach her, right?!
"Oh! I used to think that I would never be able to accept the old man's way of life of 'covering the sky and the earth as the house'! But now it seems that I am not really completely unacceptable......
"At least, facts like the one that speak for themselves! Now, even if I am alone in the wilderness, can I not treat it as normal?!
"However, I am still a little surprised by this change in myself! It seems that nothing in this world is absolute, and it is often that people are not as good as heaven! Even about myself, I am completely unable to accurately predict my future, as well as the limits of my abilities and the psychological limits of what I can bear......
"No, it's a way of life that I once thought I would never be able to accept, but now I'm used to it! Even...... If I were to live a wandering but carefree life like this all my life...... Now that I think about it, it's interesting! I really want to try it!
"Oh, it seems that I really have the potential to become a 'wild man'! This really surprises me! It seems that the reason why I and the old man are so compatible is that we are simply like each other and smell like each other! Hahaha......"
Since coming to this other world, Gao Ran has really got the opportunity to be alone for the first time. As far as she is concerned, although she has not experienced such an experience in her previous life, and even in her previous life, she spent most of her private time alone unless necessary.
Initially, it was because of the environment in which she grew up, but as she grew up and had a clear sense of self, she became accustomed to being alone and even liked the feeling of being alone. It was also since then that it became clear to her that she actually preferred to be with herself rather than with others – that is, to be alone.
However, now that she thinks about it, Gao Ran feels that the feeling of enjoying solitude that she used to have seemed to have been a long time ago! If it weren't for such a rare opportunity as tonight, because the long-lost but extremely familiar feeling that made her miss hit again, she would probably have completely forgotten this feeling of "ease and peace" that she could only really enjoy when she was alone--and this feeling was what attracted her the most about "being alone". Because such "freedom and calmness" is the "freedom" she wants!
It's been so much time, if it weren't for the rare recollection of this feeling, Gao Ran would have almost forgotten why she was so obsessed with the "paradise" lifestyle!
But now, when she regained this familiar taste of solitude, she finally remembered that for her, what kind of lifestyle she chose was just a means to achieve the "freedom" she wanted. Her real purpose has never been to live a certain life, but to try to get the "comfortable and peaceful" feeling she wants by living a certain life.
So, in fact, if there is any other way of life in this current environment that can make Gao Ran achieve what she wants faster and at a lower cost—a feeling of "ease and peace" that can last her whole life, then she will not hesitate to give up what she is doing now, give up all her hard work so far, give up her attachment to the lifestyle of "paradise", and go straight to that new and better new choice!
Anyway, for her, what kind of lifestyle she chooses is just a means. As long as it doesn't affect her to achieve her ultimate goal, and it is indeed the least costly and most profitable, then why shouldn't she choose the best means?!
But the reality is that at the moment she really can't think of a better alternative to the path she has chosen so far, which can give her what she really wants: the freedom and peace that will last her heart for a lifetime.
In other words, that "better" choice didn't actually exist in her world!—at least, Gao Ran hadn't thought of it herself, and had never seen it in the people she met.
Therefore, it is not so much that Gao Ran is extremely persistent in the lifestyle of the "paradise" she yearns for, but because she knows that she has no choice but this choice so far, so she is so persistent. - Because this way of life was the only effective means of all the ways she could think of that might lead her to her ultimate end, she had no choice but to choose to persevere to the end on what she thought was the only feasible path!
However, Gao Ran felt that it was best for her to know the truth alone! And when you can choose to be simple, why make it complicated?