Yang An:

See Xinjia.

Yang An, this is the 9th love letter I have written to you.

Every month, I write to you, although I don't send you a single one.

Today is Saturday, the students have gone to play, they also go shopping, what is there to shop, everything is so expensive. They don't buy anything, and I can't figure out why they like shopping so much. But the clothes on the pedestrian street are beautiful. Actually, I also bought one, and they all said that I was very dirty and had to learn to dress up, but who did I dress up for, and you were not there.

But, I still secretly bought one, a dress. I remember you said that you like girls to wear skirts and have long hair. So I bought one and wore it secretly. By the way, I also have to have long hair, which is almost up to my waist. You haven't come, I don't dare to cut it, I'm afraid that when you suddenly appear, you won't be able to see my long hair.

Yang An, now I'm sitting in the school library, there are a lot of books here! I read books whenever I have time, but all I read are books read by girls, romance novels. You know, you're going to laugh at me.

Knowing that I was screaming outside the window, it reminded me of my days in junior high school. Especially the last semester. Do you remember, at that time, we had physical education exams, so we went running and jumping stairs every day, and that's when I cut my hair short, and you hated me. You don't know, I went back that night and secretly cried. My grades are not good, and I want to get more points in sports, but you still dislike me. But it doesn't matter, you are still very good to me, once you saw that my lunch box only had a little bit of food, and you got angry, saying that you should eat more, otherwise you will have the strength to run and jump.

I love it when you're so angry. You are still stupid, one day you secretly went to the steamer to help me add rice, but you recognized the wrong lunch box, but that dinner, Xiaoyan looked at her full lunch box, and almost cried with fright, thinking that it was someone's prank. You're so stupid.

No, I'm stupid. You have such good grades, how can you be stupid. Every time I ask you a question, you understand it, and you explain it very clearly, better than the teacher, and ah, you look very good when you talk about the topic, I like it so much. And you see that I was a little angry when I didn't understand, and it was fun.

But now no one thinks I'm stupid, and no one gives me a lecture. Every time I encounter a topic that I don't understand, I miss you so much.

Yang An, I miss you.

In the novel, it is said that girls should be subtle, but I just miss you. But I didn't dare to go to you, I was scared. I'm afraid to see you talk to others, I'm afraid to see you talking and laughing with others, and I think you should be like that, I'm so conflicted, I don't dare to go to you.

But, Yang An, why didn't you come to me?

It's been almost a year, the final exam is coming soon, and the summer vacation is coming soon, why didn't you come to me?

Yang An, I miss you.

Is it that the first love didn't end well? It seems to be like this in romance novels.

We should be the first love. I think it is, anyway. Although the closest time we were was during the school autumn outing, the two of us went to look for firewood, and then you secretly held my hand. Haha, you were so stupid at that time, you can hold it if you want, I will definitely agree, and I want to hold your hand too. You're still sneaky, it's fun.

Yang An, your hands are so big, and there are some calluses in your hands, I think they were left by your work at home. But I like it very much, it makes people feel very grounded. You were nervous, weren't you? Because you've got a lot of sweat on your palms. Actually, I'm too, you may not know, my heart is beating so fast, and I don't know if I'm blushing.

I guess that's what it's like to be in love.

It's just that you never held my hand again. Is there no chance, or don't you dare? But I won't refuse you.

Phew, I just went out a little bit, and I heard the call.

Summer must be called, so that it is summer. This is what I like most about our school. Because, knowing it always reminds me of last summer. Do you think of last summer, do you think of the silly girl who cut her hair short and looks like a silly boy, will you?

Oops, I accidentally wrote a lot of words, and you and I always seem to have endless words.

This is the ninth letter, and I don't know how many more I will write, and if I don't get a response, I will always finish it. No matter what, I'm going to put these letters away one by one, and take them out when I'm old. Just like in the novel.

These letters are also my memories, my first love.

Yang An, I miss you.

Sincerely

Salute!

Miss your Xu Qingqing

20 May 1998