"Whew" I panted and dragged back a whole bunch of things. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

Unexpectedly, I was negligent and didn't even go to the stern behind the deck.

As a result, I found a lot of cables in the back, fishing nets and so on.

By the way, there's also the winch, which has a very thick wire rope on it, well, and an iron frame or something.

But I can only sigh at these things, I can't move them all, these things are not of much use to me now.

It's afternoon, and I can't remember how many times I've been back and forth.

The fire axe helped me a lot, not only by priing off the hatch inside, but also by priing up a lot of the floor and splitting the cabinet as much as possible.

I'm excited to hold these lumps of material.

This was the last time, and I had brought down the fishing nets, materials, cables, etc., and the wooden deck had been pried a lot.

That's enough stuff for me at the moment.

I am not an insatiable person, and I don't want to wear myself out, and my left hand, which has not yet healed, has also aggravated the injury after this lifting, and the pain has begun again.

In fact, my inner thoughts are very simple, I just want to survive and make my life as comfortable and better as possible.

But the reality has made me have to fight again and again, and the days I have been here have not been long, but I have experienced too many life and death tests, which I would not have dared to think of before.

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When people are tired, it's easy to feel drowsy, and I am. Lying in the tree house, in my thoughts, I gradually fell asleep......

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When I woke up again, the moon had already hung on the branches, I rubbed my eyes and got up, Xiao Hei had already fallen asleep, and there were still a few pits left over from the gnawing next to his small nest.

I was glad to have such a bright little black company, after I fell asleep, he didn't come to disturb me, but ate a few fruits that he didn't usually like to eat, and fell asleep.

Hearing my footsteps, the vigilant little black suddenly raised his head and opened his eyes, but after seeing that it was me, he flicked his tail a few times, and then lowered his head again and lay on the futon, ready to sleep again.

Today, the moon was very big and round and bright, and when I came outside, it was as if it were daylight outside by the moonlight, and the breeze was blowing, the leaves were swaying, and the insects were chirping.

The homesickness that I have suppressed until now completely exploded at this moment.

I never thought about home, never thought about leaving here, never thought about family?

No!

I think!

But reason makes me suppress my thoughts and suppress these unrealistic thoughts!

If I fall into this state for a long time, it is easy for problems to arise, and dangerous situations will arise, because it will make me lose my mind and even lose my ability to think!

I miss home, I miss my loved ones, I miss my parents!

If I could, I would like to return to them now!

But can I go back?

Yes and no!

Can I go to them?

Yes and no!

So what else can I do?

Yes!

Before I knew it, I burst into tears!

I hate myself for not being able to get out of here!

I hate that no one came looking for me and took me out of here!

I hate ......

"Amount...... Ah...... "I'm yelling!"

To vent my dissatisfaction with the fate arranged by God, the roar can give me vent!

What can I do now? I don't know, I really don't know, the only thing I can do now is live.

I've thought of many ways to get out of here, but I've been rejected every time.

I thought about making my own boats, learning from the indigenous Africans I had seen on TV to make canoes.

But even if I do it well, what can I do?

Do I dare to go out to sea in a canoe?

How much food and fresh water can a canoe load?

Will it last until I am saved?

Can the speed of a rowing boat break through the waves?

Maybe rushing to the sea is a problem!

These questions have always bothered me, and I have said many times that I am afraid of death!

My idea is simple!

There is still hope in life, and when I am dead, in the eyes of others, I am one of the shipwrecked death lists!

But for me, this pointless adventure is absolutely irrational, so I haven't tried it until now.

The moonlight makes my thoughts keep flooding my heart, and countless memories flash in my mind!

"Ah Jun, are you tired of doing sales, pay attention to safety when you are out alone, pay attention to rest, what are the difficulties to call your mother! When will you bring a girlfriend home to show your mother?"

This is the mother's instruction the night before leaving home during the Chinese New Year.

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"Ah Jun, this is a special product that your mother prepared for you, this is your aunt gave it to you, this is what your aunt gave, you can't buy it over there, pay attention to your body, call more when you have time, don't worry about us!"

These were the last words she said when she left home.

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"No, this is the money we deposited for you to buy a house, the down payment should be enough, and if you take out a loan, we will help you repay it together." Pay attention to your body and don't get too tired. ”

That's what my mother said after she took the time to go home and talk about the idea of buying a house.

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My father didn't talk much, but every time he left home, he would send me to the place where he had to stop, and watch me go away and disappear from his field of vision, and many times I couldn't help but look back, and I could see him waving at me.

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"I don't think we have a future together, don't think I'm realistic, it's you who are too incapable, I told you back then, I want to have my own house in the city, you said you would work hard, but now?"

"And now you're telling me that your money is going to buy a down payment in the suburbs? And then I'm going to live in that middle of nowhere, crammed into the car and going to work every day, and I'm going to save money to pay the loan with you? I tell you, it's impossible!"

This is what my ex-girlfriend said when she left, and after saying that, she completely disappeared from my life, and I was powerless to refute it at that time, and these words stabbed into my heart like a sharp knife, stirring desperately!

Although these memories flashed through my mind, they completely immersed me in it.

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"Brother, go play with peace of mind, don't think too much about work, you usually work too hard, don't know how to enjoy, the company rarely has this kind of benefit, you go quickly, if you don't go, let me go?"

These were the words of the brother who helped me defend my client the day before I left.

If I could go back to that day, I would definitely choose to give up.

However, there is no going back now.

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"Help me", "Help".

This was the last cry for help from two female colleagues.

Their hurried and miserable voices, their desperate eyes, sent chills down my body, and I was not in a position to save anyone else, because I thought I would die too, and that would change my fate in the end.

All sorts of flashing memories hurt me unusually much.

They should all be on my mind......