Ten years ago, in order to see the layout of Chang'an Street from a high place, she climbed to the roof of Lu's mansion and lay on it to draw a picture, Lu Yuanze accompanied her up, but broke her leg when she came down.

She has always known that she has seen Lu Yuanze trembling in pain many times, and he doesn't have to hide it from time to time in front of her.

Including three years later, the day Lu Yuanze was crowned.

He was twenty and she was eighteen.

On the day of Lu Yuanze's crown ceremony, the Gu family was invited to the Lu family to attend the banquet, and she heard that her parents planned to formally agree on their marriage with the Lu family, so that they could get married as soon as possible, after all, they were not young at that time.

That night, the banquet was opened, the wine was half-drunk, suddenly the clouds were indifferent, and the rain was coming, she noticed that Lu Yuanze's face was not very good from the afternoon, but as the protagonist of the day, he didn't dare to displease his father, so he could only hold on, and at that time it was really uncomfortable, he couldn't get up while kneeling, and he had to laugh and socialize, which made her feel worried.

Her parents led her to the throne to toast, and she also knew that this was not just a toast, they had already agreed with Lu Yuanzhi and his wife, and immediately announced their marriage to the full house, as long as they walked over and stood with the Lu family......

And her attention was always on Lu Yuanze, and she seemed to feel that he couldn't sit still, and his spine was trembling.

She walked to the main seat with her parents and congratulated the Lu family, Lu Yuanzhi stood up and prepared to let everyone be quiet for a moment to announce the big event, when thunder began to thunder outside, and a thunderclap frightened her hand, and the water and wine in her palm just poured on Lu Yuanze's robe.

The scene was disrupted by her, she pretended to panic and apologized to Lu Yuanze, apologized to the Lu family, and Lu Yuanze had to leave the table to change clothes.

This stubble made Lu Yuanzhi unhappy, and it was not good to continue to announce the marriage, so he could only sit down first and greet the guests for dinner, and even Shen Lanxi privately complained to her for a few clumsy words and disturbed a great opportunity.

Yes, if it weren't for the shaking of her hands at that time, the marriage would have been announced, and she would have married Lu Yuanze a long time ago......

Lu Yuanze later called the steward to spread the word that he was drunk and unwell, and needed to rest, and he would come out to meet the guests later.

She didn't stay at the table for long, and while her parents and colleagues were socializing, she quietly left the table and went to Lufu Dongyuan.

The steward of Dongyuan told her that Lu Yuanze was sobering up in the study, waiting for the meeting to sober up and drink medicine before going to rest for a while.

She walked into Lu Yuanze's study and saw him lying on the bookcase for a nap, and he had already loosened his robe that was wet with wine.

Gu Qingning sat next to him, took out the warm bag she specially prepared when she came and put it on his lap, and helped him cover it, "This whereabouts are clean, right?"

Lu Yuanze raised his head, he felt a lot better because of this warm bag, looked at her, his face was soft and thoughtful, as if he wanted to find some answer from her, and finally only smiled lowly, "Yes, thanks to Qingning, you pretended to be stupid, otherwise I really don't know how to get out." ”

Gu Qingning said: "Why are you still sitting here with a leg pain? Go back to the room and lie down." ”

He shook his head, his eyes were intoxicated, and he took her hand with some special attachment, "I want to stay with Qingning for a while......"

Gu Qingning used his other hand to help him rub his injured leg, with gentle movements, and confessed to him: "I've always felt guilty, if I hadn't insisted on going to the roof of your house, you wouldn't have accompanied me to mess around and climb so high...... I can't even think that if you really fell and became disabled by then......"

Half-drunk and half-awake, he listened to her talking, and suddenly looked at her very seriously, and asked, "If I really fall and become disabled, are you still willing to marry me?"

In front of his sincere and eager eyes, she didn't know how to respond, she couldn't face her heart now, let alone eighteen-year-old her?

So she didn't speak, but closed her eyes and kissed him on the lips.

That was the first time Gu Qingning kissed a man, opening the erotic valve of the two people.

Lu Yuanze thought he had an answer.

He asked Gu Qingning to help him go back to his room to rest, and Gu Qingning took advantage of the fact that there were few people in Dongyuan to help Lu Yuanze go to his bedroom.

When he reached the door, he was suddenly able to stand upright, turned around and hugged her, reached to her waist, lowered his face and whispered to her: "Qingning...... Give it to me......"

Gu Qingning was suddenly shocked and ashamed, his heart was like a deer, and he retreated: "It's not good ...... like this."

Lu Yuanze let go of her with a smile, and didn't say anything, just looked at her with obsessive eyes, opened the door, retreated into the room, and pushed the door again.

The door creaked and didn't close.

She stood outside the door for a moment, and finally, reaching out and pushing the door, stepped into the room, closed it, and closed it.

A night of wind and rain, a night of clouds and rain.

Later, it was repeated, indulgent, and uncontrollable.

And then ......

It all started because of that night, which wasn't necessarily a mistake, but it did change her life.

Only she knew how much she had paid for that night.

Is it depravity? or destruction?

What is this endless torture for?

She chose to bow down in front of the king, "Please give Gu Qingning a death." ”

[Chapter 197: The Long Road of Heaven and the Soul Flying Bitter]

"Did you just give up? I thought you wouldn't miss a chance. He calmly retreated, flicked his sleeves, and sat down behind the jade case, smiling, and showing himself solemn, not to joke.

In this moment, for Gu Qingning, it was from hell to the world, like a puppet, being pulled, dominated, and toyed with, being in an ice cave for a while, falling into a sea of fire for a while, and not even breathing for himself.

Suddenly, a feeling came over her, flashed for a moment, and then it was so shocking - perhaps, she had always been like this, they had always been like this......

"Your Majesty......" She resumed her normal breathing, calmed her mind, and knelt down with her back straight: "Back to Your Majesty, Weichen only wants to be Your Majesty's courtier, not anything else." As a minister, I should work for the monarch, make great decisions, govern the family and country, support the community, fulfill my responsibilities, and bear the merits and demerits, rewards and punishments of the courtiers, I have chosen this path, I can only do these things, otherwise I will betray myself, and I will also betray the official uniform on my body, and I will fail Your Majesty!"

Gu Qingning made a big salute, bowed his head three times, and said solemnly and passionately: "Although Weichen is a woman, she is different from the hundred officials, but she is also one of the hundred officials, I hope Your Majesty will not look the other way." As a courtier, if you do something disobedient to Your Majesty, you deserve to be guilty!"

He said: "You want to be a good minister, so do you think I am a Ming monarch or a mediocre lord?"

She bowed and kowtowed: "My emperor is naturally the Holy Lord of the Ming Monarch." ”

He smiled, revealing some easy-goingness: "So, don't be afraid, I won't ask you about your sin." You did what you had to do, you put to death a death row prisoner, a murderer, how can I mislead the law because of my own selfish thoughts?"

"Your Majesty...... Is it testing Weichen?" Gu Qingning was a little confused, confused for a while, and lost his words slightly.

He coughed and said, "No, you can't joke about being a monarch." ”

So...... There is no exact answer to all this, all of which are undecided and are only up to her choice.

She can choose to kill or not to kill Lu Yuansi, if she doesn't kill her, it is exactly what he wants, and if she kills, he won't be angry.

She can choose to go on or not to go to the dragon bed, no, he won't get angry, and if she does, he won't refuse.

But in front of him, how many people will realize that they still have a choice?

They can only submit, they can only obey the king's will and bow their heads to the imperial power.

And all the results, possible and impossible, are given by him.

"Get up, but you're frightened?" he said.

"The emperor is majestic, Wei Chen should be in awe......" Gu Qingning felt that her chest had been pressing a breath, getting heavier and heavier, she slowed down for a while before thanking him for a while, always keeping her head down, looking sideways at his face, this was the first time she had peeked at him so boldly.

What kind of person is the so-called Son of Heaven?

He seemed to notice something, and as soon as his eyes turned to her, she immediately turned her head, buried her face lower, and then saluted: "Can Weichen dare to ask His Majesty for advice?"

"Yes, you ask. ”

Gu Qingning bowed: "Thank you, Your Majesty." Wechen wanted to ask His Majesty for advice...... At the beginning, the Lu family married the Jin Prince's Mansion...... Before that, did Lu Yuanze refrain from this family affair to His Majesty, and said that he had already been engaged to another woman?"

There was no way, she wanted to know too much, even if the answer might make her uneasy for the rest of her life.

Speaking of this private matter, he was not displeased, thought about it slightly, seemed to be recalling, and then said: "Yes, it is true." And I still remember that the woman he said was you, Miss Gu Qingning. ”

At last she had a definite answer, and she didn't know what to think, and the lamp and candle on the dragon case sparked and rattled, as if it were burning in her heart.

And that's not the most painful part......

"It is the intention of the Queen Mother to give Lu Yuanze and the county lord a marriage, I never thought that Lu Yuanze would tell me about you, I wanted to give up, but Lu Yuanzhi was also present at the time, he denied that you had a personal relationship with Lu Yuanze, Lu Yuanze finally changed his words under his reprimand, I still have doubts in my heart, and then summoned your father to verify with him, he also denied it, saying that you and Lu Yuanze did not have a marriage contract, so I dispelled my doubts and gave Lu Yuanze a marriage. ”

Gu Qingning's body trembled, and he suddenly raised his head in disbelief: "My father ......"

"Yes, yes. He folded his hands and nodded, "Your father did say that you did not have a marriage contract at that time, otherwise I would not be sure." ”

As if he could see that she was looking sick, he asked suspiciously: "So, Qingning, you told me in person that you and Lu Yuanze had a marriage contract?"

What can she say? Her father had already denied the existence of this family affair in front of the emperor, and if she also denied it at this time, it would mean that Gu Qingxuan had committed the crime of bullying the king-

"Nope. She hung her face, her face was tired, and her heart and gallbladder were broken, "Weichen and he have never been married, but...... We do have private affairs. My father didn't know ......."

"Wechen was young and ignorant, and Lu Yuanze had a private relationship, and he had a very strong relationship, and even once overstepped the rules and did dirty things, before he married the county lord, Wechen was pregnant with his child...... But he has been married to the county lord, and Weichen has no name, so he can only take medicine and have an abortion, which makes him infertile, and he vows not to marry for life......"

She tried her best to tell the secrets she had tried to hide, and to confess such an unbearable truth in front of the present day. Who knew that she was already desperate and ruined, she was gambling, this may be the last time.

When he heard these words, his face was naturally no longer relaxed, and his eyes sank for a while, but he was not shocked or angry, as if he was letting him accept it himself, and he was silent for a while, and said, "Why do you want to tell me this?"

Gu Qingning knelt down, saluted again, and said: "This is Wechen's biggest secret, a stain that can't be erased in his life, for so long, Wechen has been trying his best to hide this secret by any means, afraid of being known, afraid of being ridiculed by the world, and even more afraid of being known by His Majesty, but this kind of fear has become Wechen's fatal weakness, which may be leaked at any time, everyone can use this to blackmail Wechen, enough of this, Wechen doesn't want to hide anymore, anyway, the more he wants to hide, the more he can't hide, and then Wechen can't let those who threaten him succeed!" ”

"Someone is trying to blackmail you with this?" He didn't look at Gu Qingning, he only raised the lamp, took a sip of tea, and his eyes changed again, thorough and interested.

There seemed to be a vigorous fire in her eyes, burning the last bit of hope, but it also illuminated the direction of another section of the road, kowtowed, and said angrily: "Back to Your Majesty, the fugitive Lu Yuansi was first arrested by Dali Temple, and Yin Chengyuan, the secretary of Dali Temple, interrogated him for his crime and approved his sentence, and recorded a confession, in this confession, Lu Yuansi mentioned the private relationship between Weichen and his brother and the secret of Weichen, so Lord Yin used this confession to blackmail Weichen, and asked Weichen to withdraw the review of the chief inspector Yu Shi Lu Qian, so as to ensure that their Yin family was not implicated!" Wechen was forced to be helpless, exchanged confessions with him, and destroyed them separately, but Wechen was unwilling to be coerced, and left Lu Yuansi's confession, and specially reported to His Majesty to impeach Yin Chengyuan, the secretary of Dali Temple! This is Lu Yuansi's confession, with the signature of Dali Siqing himself, and the seal of Dali Temple, which can be used as evidence.

She presented the confession and, with great emotion, fell to the ground again.

He looked at the confession, looked at her in the seat, and smiled, because he was satisfied, and it proved that his judgment was right—

She won't let go of any opportunity, even if it's a ruin, even if it's going to destruction, she has to pull a cushion.

After laughing, he changed his face to anger and slapped the dragon case: "How can this be true! Bold Yin Chengyuan! Why did he do this? What secrets did he want to hide related to the Yin family? What does it have to do with Lu Qian? Gu Qing, you tell me 1510!"

Gu Qingning said: "Back to Your Majesty, the Criminal Department launched an investigation into the case of the Immortal Sect a month ago, in order to find out the truth, Wei Chen deliberately re-examined the records and case files of the Immortal Sect rebellion seven years ago, and found that there were many unresolved doubts, and there was evidence to report that Yin Jiheng had participated in the rebellion of the Immortal Sect that year, and Lu Qian was his fellow party, and he was bewitched by it, fabricated the crime of fornicating with the concubine, and framed the former Qin Tianjian High Priest Bai Ruhui, causing him to die unjustly!" Wechen summoned Lu Qian for trial, and in order to save his life, Lu Qian took the initiative to confess and identify Yin Jiheng's crimes back then! When Yin Chengyuan learned about the case, in order to protect the reputation and honor of his deceased father, he took action to obstruct the investigation of the Criminal Department and threatened Weichen's scandal!

Repeatedly kowtowed, humble and indignant, all emotions were reached to the extreme: "What Wei Chen said is true, the truth of the Changsheng Sect case has gradually surfaced, I hope Your Majesty will see it! Wei Chen knows that his virtue is wrong and humiliating, and since he has confessed to His Majesty, he also asks His Majesty to punish the crime together, and Wei Chen will die without complaint!"

The last word landed, she felt an unprecedented calm, paused to catch her breath, and in this palace dormitory, everything settled with the creak of the open window.

The cold wind poured in and hit her face, and she was frozen to wake up as she knelt on the ground.

Gu Qingning couldn't help but look up, and found that the person who was sitting in front of Long Yan in a rage had already silently walked to a window on the side of the hall, and opened the tightly sealed window with his own hands.

There is a little moonlight outside, the hall is brightly lit, the cold wind outside the window, the stove in the window is fragrant, he stands between light and dark, he stands at the intersection of winter cold and spring warmth.

"Qingning, get up, come here, accompany me to see this snow. ”

Gu Qingning looked at his calm and tranquil expression at this time, as if it wasn't him who was angry before, as if her accusation and confession didn't exist, he was just a slightly idle emperor, in a good mood, leisurely admiring the snow.

She propped up her kneeling legs, saluted, and walked towards that side step by step.

"Your Majesty......"

He looked at the palace pavilion covered with snow, and the gold bricks and red walls were lost in the night: "The case of the Immortal Sect, you should investigate it carefully......

"Doesn't Your Majesty punish the sins of your ministers?" she was a little surprised.

He didn't turn his head, he still looked at the place he was looking at, but no one could see where he was looking at or what: "What crime did you deal with? Corrupting official morality? Not abiding by women's morals? Those are all things before you became an official." Besides, don't you want me to treat you and the other officials equally? Since I have never investigated which courtier, whose girl was lost, and how many more illegitimate children...... How can I punish you for your personal misconduct? You can be your official at ease. As long as you live up to this official uniform, it's good to live up to me. ”

Gu Qingning was so excited that he wanted to kneel down and thank him, but he grabbed him with one hand, "Don't kneel." No one else knows what happened in this dormitory, and no one will blame you for being rude. ”

Gu Qingning took a few steps back in a daze, and saluted: "Thank you for the Holy Grace of Emperor Wu! Weichen should do his best to find out the chaos of the Immortal Sect, curb the crimes of the gangsters, and give an explanation to Your Majesty and the people of Chang'an!"

He turned his face and continued to look at the snow, the stone steps outside the hall had been piled up with thick snow, clean and white, clean and clean, he said: "Qingning, the snow can cover the earth, if only some things could be covered up without a trace, don't you say?"

……

Gu Qingning stepped out of the gate of the palace, walked into the wind and snow, and walked all the way, fearless ever since.

This night, she has already experienced the despair of others and her own despair, she has seen life again, everything is still going on, there is still a way ahead, what is she not satisfied with?

The cold wind pierces the face, the ice and snow are translucent, the cold, the cold is also good, and if you can feel the cold, then it proves that you are still alive.

She lived, and she did not forget, that there was a man who died tonight.

Outside the gate of the former Prime Minister's Mansion Lufu, in front of the abandoned high-rise gate, two figures nestled together under the once luxurious carved brick eaves.

One of them, has lost body temperature and breathing.

Another, the heart is even cooler than this heavy snow that freezes the whole city.

The footprints they left on the snow in front of them were covered by the heavy snow, and only the pools of blood were still dazzling, like withered red flowers falling in the snow.

The carriage stopped, Gu Qingning walked towards them, and came to them, Lu Yuansi closed his eyes, leaned on Jiang Xiange's shoulder, and put on a thick felt hat, the white fluff on the brim kissed her cheeks in the wind, and the white snow fell beside her, dyeing her eyebrows white, she was like falling asleep, and she was finally at peace.

"String song, let's go, how cold ...... here"

Seeing that Jiang Xiange put the cloak on Lu Yuansi, her clothes were still thin, and the back of her hand was as cold as iron, Gu Qingning persuaded her to go back, Jiang Xiange raised her stiff hand to block Gu Qingning's hand.

She took Lu Yuansi in her arms, hugged her tighter, her chin was against her forehead, the tip of her nose didn't know whether it was cold or how it became red, but her eyes were dry as if they had been dried by the cold wind.

She said she wanted to be buried with her family. ”

Gu Qingning understood what she meant, so he agreed: "Okay, let's go and bury her." ”

Jiang Xiange was also stiff, and only stood up with Gu Qingning's support, Gu Qingning helped her help Lu Yuansi, and the entourage came to help, and they got into the carriage.

A carriage, two living people and one dead man, drove to the southern city in a snowy day, when dawn was approaching.

Jiang Xiange didn't speak all the way, only hugged Lu Yuansi, Gu Qingning sat opposite her, she had a lot to say, she kept looking at this girl who was closest to her and most confidant, she spoke: "Xiange, I have a secret ......"

"Don't tell me. Jiang Xian sang.

This was the most indifferent thing Gu Qingning had ever said when he heard Jiang Xiange.

Then, she could only be silent, silently listening to the sound of the wheels rolling towards her, listening to the wind and snow howling outside.

After the collapse of the Lu family, the whole family was beheaded, but because of the first queen Lu Yuanye, the emperor gave the Lu family the right to be buried after death, so there is this cemetery belonging to the Lu family.

However, not only the Lu family is buried here, but there is no inscription on the tomb, which is even more difficult to identify on this snowy day. In the past, she had followed Gu Qingxuan to this side and wrote down a general direction, Gu Qingning found a suitable place in that area, and together with Jiang Xiange, she used a shovel and shovel borrowed from a nearby farmer to dig the frozen ground and find a last place for Lu Yuansi to live.

She dug from late night to dawn, from dawn to dawn, and when the surroundings were bright and the heavens and the earth could be seen, they finally buried Lu Yuansi.

They were not cold at all, but very hot, Jiang Xiange's hands were red and swollen, patted Lu Yuansi's grave soil, and retreated with great difficulty, ethereal in the wind and snow, as if they were about to float away, chasing the snow away.

"String Song ......" Gu Qingning chased after him.

Jiang Xiange finally spoke to her, "Qingning, in the future, there won't be such a thing, right?"

Gu Qingning was speechless, just looking at her.

"Qingning, in the future, I won't care about such things, including...... Anything else that has anything to do with you...... I won't ask any more questions. ”

Gu Qingning saw the long, snow-paved road behind her, as if the future was in front of her, and the tears in her eyes were warm, and her eyebrows were imminent.

"Okay, Xiange, you go, go farther. ”

Gu Qingning asked the coachman to send Jiang Xiange away.

And she will eventually go alone.

The sky is dawn and the snow has not stopped.