Chapter 121: A moment of grass and mountain flowers
The two sisters staggered to their feet from the ground and faced each other again, while Gu Qingning stood in the middle of them, stupidly watching them continue the action that was interrupted by her.
No more crying, no more hesitation, because they were afraid, they had no choice.
Gu Qingning can't be their protector.
Gu Qingning probably understood that he had been given up.
They undressed each other, the ribbon around their waists was loosened, their clothes were all gone, and their eyes were full of spring light, and they could see it at a glance.
At that moment, Gu Qingning closed his eyes, bypassed them, and walked straight out of the door.
Behind him, Yang Longxing's unbridled laughter was loud and deafening, not at all because of how much he admired the beautiful scenery in front of him, but because he was intoxicated by his own deterrent, he looked at Gu Qingning's back, and smiled from ear to ear with the attitude of a victor.
What a setback this was?
This was the first time she felt that she had really failed miserably, and her heart was so low that she even began to laugh at her own inadequacy.
Walking on the streets where no one was there at night, she didn't ride in a car, nor did she walk with anyone, just walking step by step, without even thinking about where she was going. There is only a full depression in my heart, and the most terrible thing is - admitting defeat.
At this time, she felt that she was a banana leaf fluttering in the wind, and she thought that she could still bring a shade to others, who thought that person would still choose to commit herself to squatting in the gutter, she could only float like this, with nowhere to land......
After walking for more than half an hour, in fact, she didn't go far, when she heard the sound of horseshoe bells on the empty road behind her, and a carriage with lanterns was driving on Chang'an Street, and stopped when she passed by.
With a slight glance, Gu Qingning recognized that this was the carriage that Luo Hongge sent to the girl who sat in the bureau, and he could smell the smell of fragrant powder on the car from a long distance.
Sure enough, the carriage curtain was raised, and a charming face appeared under the moonlight, it was Qin Hongmo who had just accompanied Yang Longxing, and the wine game should be over at this moment, and she, along with her younger brother, rode back to Luo Hongge together.
"Master Gu......" Qin Hongmo smiled at her, jumped off the carriage lightly, stood in front of her, and slightly raised his water sleeves to block her way.
Gu Qingning was disdainful of her: "What does the girl want to do? I can't be your benefactor." ”
Qin Hongmo shook the fan and said, "Lord Gu has thought too much, the little woman just wants to see how sad Lord Gu is at this time." ”
She stiffened: "What's so sad? I don't want to be too good?"
Qin Hongmo snorted and said, "If you don't become the Holy Mother of Savior, even if you don't feel sad, you will be a little disappointed, right?"
"The world is blind and self-willingly depraved, how can I save it? What else can I do? ”
Qin Hongmo looked at her and shook his head with a wry smile: "It's not that others are willing to fall and won't let you save them, but that you are not qualified to save others!
Gu Qingning was poked by her, and he burst into anger again, "Presumptuous!"
Qin Hongmo's face changed, he approached her, and said with a gloomy face: "What I mean is that you should be smarter, don't be complacent and arrogant when you have some privileges! Do you think you have handled these things yourself? In fact, they are just making jokes! If you want to keep your self-esteem, then please lose your self-esteem first! You have been showing off your power from the beginning, and you only care about being idle! I don't believe that you can do anything!"
Gu Qingning thought that Qin Hongmo was deliberately sent by Yang Longxing to stimulate her, so she was so angry that she replied directly: "No matter how much you don't do anything, it's much better than you Qinglou woman!"
"No, you're not as good as our Qinglou girl!" she said categorically, with an awe-inspiring expression.
Gu Qingning turned around angrily and glared at her, and was about to quarrel with her, but heard her say: "You are not smart at all! You will only be smart yourself! Lord Gu! Admit it, you are just luckier than ordinary women." You don't understand anything and think you know very well, do you know that you are ridiculous? We Qinglou women don't think very highly of ourselves and deceive ourselves, we know how to be patient, we know how to retreat, we will play tricks to make things happen, and when you encounter something, you will only be strong, for the sake of your own dignity, you are anxious to ask for any fairness, but do you want to afford it?"
Gu Qingning was silent, because she felt that Qin Hongmo was really right.
She is indeed lost, she thinks too highly of herself, she can only play smart, and she has no power and ability to really control the overall situation, maybe not nothing, she is just too impatient at present, she can't bear it, and she lets herself be complacent......
After Qin Hongmo reprimanded her passionately, seeing that she didn't reply, he calmed down a little and continued: "I know you want to be the most special woman, and you did it. But you also have to understand that this is not enough......"
"I've seen a lot of people in officialdom, I know what kind of circle this is, what you see today is just the tip of the iceberg, officialdom status determines everything, your status is not high enough, even if you want to protect anyone, you can't do it, even if you move forward bravely, the people you rescued may retreat because of fear. Do you know? Status! What can't you endure until you become as high as him? What can't you give up?"
"What about self-esteem, what about kindness, when you are at the highest in power, everything you have lost will be recovered by itself. ”
Gu Qingning never thought that at the beginning of her career in officialdom, the most impressive lesson was taught to her by a prostitute in a Qinglou.
Gu Qingning looked at this very strange and familiar woman, her heart was open-minded, and she had some expectations, and said, "Then what do you think I should do?"
Although Qin Hongmo saw it very thoroughly, she didn't fully understand Gu Qingning after all, so she could only rely on her intuition and answer simply: "Learn to bow your head." ”
Gu Qingning smiled indifferently: "I'm already low, very low." ”
She understated: "It's not low enough, it's lower." ”
……
Gu Qingning returned home and told Gu Qingxuan about everything tonight, and she actually took the initiative to admit her mistake: "Father, it's really me who is not good, think about it tonight, I shouldn't have go, I shouldn't have go, I can't do anything with Yang Longxing, I can still avoid right and wrong, this time, it will let him succeed, after all, no matter how cautious I am and how quick I react, I can't play him a person who has been immersed in officialdom for decades, he wants to scare me, and if I go, he is destined to succeed......"
"Nope. Gu Qingxuan affirmed: "If you are not deterred by him, it will not be considered his success." ”
Gu Qingning's eyes showed a gleam again, this was the first time in these days that her face showed a radiance of wisdom.
Everyone will be confused for a while, especially in her special situation, which is easy to be influenced by the outside world.
And at this moment: "I, without compromise." ”
……
Because he was afraid that Yang Rongan would continue to be angry with him, Yang Longxing did not bring the pair of twin girls back to the house, but gave up reluctantly.
However, two days later, Gu Qingning went to Yang Mansion to visit him at home, and took the initiative to send him the pair of wonderful people.
She didn't directly give the twins to Yang Longxing, but let them enter the Yang Mansion and become Mrs. Yang's maidservants.
Not only will it not make Yang Rongxin resentful, but she also has an upright reputation, Yang Longxing is very satisfied with her approach.
So, Yang Longxing finally sat proudly and comfortably sat on the twin beauties, so unhappy.
Gu Qingning knelt down in front of him and kowtowed to apologize, looking at him with great reverence, but then his eyes changed-
She looked at him like she was looking at a poor dying man.