Chapter 146: Thinking about each other
The story of Jiang Yuelou's night is far from finished, and the biggest secret is always in Gu Qingning's heart.
About two women, Jun Hitomi and Fusu.
and her younger brother Gu Qingfeng.
……
That night, Jiang Yuelou was full of friends and figures, and Fusu reappeared in front of her. Fusu didn't need to speak, Gu Qingning knew that she was very happy, those eyes, smiling and thorny, made people love and hate.
Fusu is no longer dressed as a maid, nor is it the simple appearance of the little daughter in the mountains, combing the hairpin, the long skirt reaches the ground, and the whole body is exquisite and exquisite, not inferior to the famous ladies in the house.
Gu Qingning looked at her like this, reached out and touched the small and delicate tassel earrings on her ears, and said with relief: "It seems that Zhongli has taken good care of you, so I can rest assured." ”
Fusu nodded and smiled, silently following her. As the eldest sister, she took care of the guests on behalf of her younger brother, patrolled through the full hall, greeted the guests one by one, and finally was the protagonist of the night - Jun Tong, who had been waiting for her upstairs for a long time.
Before she could go up, Jun Tong walked out of the private room by herself first, walked slowly on the corridor, carefully looking for Sister Ning who she wanted to see the most, and also took a look at the lively scene of Jiang Yuelou by the way. She was always impressed, this was the place they had come to on the day they first met, the most wonderful Jiangyue Tower.
To this day, she still remembers every warm detail of that day, the words the two of them said in the carriage, Gu Qingning's voice and smile that day, and the peace of mind she leaned on Gu Qingning's shoulder when she was drunk and cried about her heart......
If there was no day, there would not be her today, if there was no first encounter by mistake, how could she have formed this grudge and dust that was cut and unorganized?
Walking up to the third floor and stepping on the stairs, Gu Qingning met the little county lord head-on.
Graceful, graceful, dignified, smiling and starry-eyed, delicate and shy, that night, the Jun Tong who said goodbye to her was also very beautiful.
Seeing this girl she liked very much, her future brother and sister, Gu Qingning was full of joy, and walked towards her quickly, and the two stretched out their hands to shake each other at the same time.
"Sister Ning......"
With a nice voice and innocent eyes, this is a lovely woman, no wonder people like it.
Gu Qingning took her hand, and the two looked down downstairs together, Gu Qingning raised his hand and said with a smile: "The guests are here for you, congratulations, my Jun Tong ......"
Jun Tong looked at the people in brocade clothes upstairs and downstairs, so the scenery was lively, "But I only marry ...... for one person"
Gu Qingning hooked the tip of her nose and said happily: "Of course, I can't wait to see you and Qingfeng Baitang get married, your pair is a good couple, it's too beautiful......"
Jun Tong turned his face to look away, his eyes wandered around, and he saw another person coming up at the staircase, it was Fusu who came up behind Gu Qingning.
She looked at Fusu, her expression suddenly froze, and she seemed to be a little stunned.
Gu Qingning noticed her abnormality, but didn't think much about it, only pulled Fusu closer and said to her: "What's the matter, Jun Tong? Don't you recognize it? This is our Fusu, I came to your wedding banquet today, and I deliberately dressed up, and I was so beautiful that I couldn't recognize it, right?"
"Fusu?" Jun Tong lowered his head and read, "No wonder it looks familiar......"
Fusu couldn't speak, but his hearing was excellent, and as soon as he caught the word "familiar" in her mouth and noticed that something was wrong with her, he became alert and moved back.
Wearing a tunic Luo skirt with wide sleeves and a high bun, Fusu walked from a distance, like a person, an extremely unforgettable image in her eyes......
Watching her approach, getting closer, the image gradually became clearer, and finally took shape in my mind and magnified ......
How terrible is human intuition.
After being speechless for a while, when she looked up again, she had tears in her eyes, no longer gentle and cute, only disbelief and grief, she stepped back uncontrollably, looked at Gu Qingning, looked at Fusu, and said, "Like, too similar...... I didn't see her face that day, but I remember it...... She wears such a dress, and so does yours......"
"Jun Tong, what did you say, what do you remember?" Gu Qingning became nervous.
She bit her lip and glared at Fusu: "Last year's snowy day, it appeared in the ...... of Qiyuan Temple It wasn't really my hallucination...... That's true, it's really happened...... That person is not Sister Ning, but he is clearly wearing your clothes and is so similar to you......"
Gu Qingning was shocked for a moment, grabbed her arm, and shook his head: "No, no, Jun Tong, you are mistaken, it's not me, it's not her......"
Jun Tong was still retreating, as if he was running away from something terrible, but that was the inescapable truth.
Looking at the firm hatred in her eyes, Gu Qingning was already at a loss, Fusu still retained a trace of composure, afraid that Jun Tong would lose control on the spot, so he first pushed Gu Qingning and Jun Tong into the private room next to him.
Being pushed and pulled by her, Jun Tong was even more difficult to calm down, breaking free, angrily beating Fusu, becoming more and more excited, "You let go of me! You are not allowed to touch me......"
Fortunately, she entered the house immediately, no one found out, as soon as the door was closed, how could Fusu still be patient, Jun Tong had hatred, and she couldn't bear it in her heart, so she pushed Jun Tong to the ground directly as soon as she got rid of her hand, and deliberately intimidated her with a cold and cruel gaze.
Jun Tong fell hard, screamed in pain, and fell to the ground with tears. Gu Qingning was frightened by Fusu's rough movements, and was nervous for a moment, so he pushed Fusu away in a panic and hurriedly went to protect Jun Tong.
was pushed hard by her, Fusu did not fall, but a trace of pain flashed in his cold eyes.
Gu Qingning rushed to Jun Tong's side, helped her, grabbed her shoulders, and comforted her who was about to lose control: "Jun Tong, did it hurt to fall, don't you be afraid, I don't want to hurt you, we won't hurt you." ”
"Don't want to hurt me?" her voice became sharp, like she had never done before, "she pretended to be you, lured me into the snow, caused me to fall, caused me to lose my child...... I don't even dare to think about it, Sister Ning, are you ...... too?"
In her accusation, Gu Qingning has realized that it is useless to cover up or dodge. She turned her eyes to look at Fusu with an indifferent face, and then looked back at Jun Tong's hateful eyes, and said: "Yes, it's me, I knew it from the beginning, because then my conspiracy, you don't have to blame Fusu, she was ordered by me to do that." As for why I ...... You know, at that time, you were Lu Yuanze's wife, and you were the one I would definitely hate......"
Gu Qingning's confession completely crushed her again, and there was no illusion left, she sat on the ground, crying loudly, at that moment she just wanted all her pain and hatred to have a place to vent.
But Gu Qingning covered her mouth and forcefully stopped all her cathartic accusations.
At this moment, Gu Qingning had a lot to say, wanted to tell her that she was sorry, and wanted to explain and cover it up, but her mouth was also like being sealed, she couldn't say anything, just sat with her like this, looked at each other, and cried bitterly together.
Accusations, hatred, pain, all there is point, just an outlet is needed to make it all over.
Gu Qingning finally spoke again, half-truth, half-truth, but it was all heartfelt: "I hate you, I am jealous of you, I want to hurt you fiercely...... Hurt you to have an abortion...... But that was the most regrettable decision I ever made, I was so hated at the time, I didn't want you to have children with him...... But then everything was different, and I couldn't hate you anymore...... I've always felt guilty for hurting you so much, and I really don't want to...... Can you trust me? Can you understand me? Can you give me a chance to make it up to you in the future?"
Jun Tong's tears wet the back of her hand, her eyes were still straight at her, the sharpness in her eyes receded little by little, and finally glared at her with a hateful gaze, and bit her palm covering her mouth very mercilessly, as if she had used all her suppressed strength, and the harder she bitten, the harder she cried.
It hurt, it bleeds, and she doesn't break free.
After a long time, Jun Tong relaxed a little, and Gu Qingning wrapped her around her with his other hand and hugged her......
When they embraced, Fusu left silently.
That night, they stayed together for a long time, and it didn't matter what they said or did.
The important thing is that they understand each other deeply, that they have similar experiences, and that they have feelings that cannot be dissolved.
Later, Gu Qingning had to go out to entertain guests, and before leaving, she sorted out her temples, and said gently: "You and Qingfeng are married, it is a new beginning, let's forget about the past, okay?"
Jun Tong nodded.
"Qingfeng is your best destination, Jun Tong, be with him and love my brother well. ”
Jun Tong nodded, and then finally said his thoughts, "Actually...... Whatever you've done to me...... I can't even hate you, I'll forgive you. Because...... I love you......"
Looking at her sincere and dizzy eyes, Gu Qingning's heart trembled violently.
Jun Tong threw herself into her arms, "Sister Ning, really, I can't let go of you, whether it's when I'm a wife or if I want to marry someone else, I only have you in my heart...... I have never chosen anything for myself in my life, it was you who let me know what it is like to truly love someone, so I choose to stay in Chang'an for you, choose to be close to you, and choose to go to the closest place to you......"
Suddenly comprehended the truth of all this, and her intentions.
Gu Qingning pushed her away in surprise, held her shoulder in distress, and said firmly: "No, if you don't really want to marry Qingfeng, you can't marry him!
"I won't be sorry for him, I'll be his wife well, Sister Ning, you believe me......"
Gu Qingning shook his head in panic: "No, I can't let you get married!"
Gu Qingning ran out, she didn't know what to do, she could only end the matter in front of her first, and deal with it falsely overnight.
That night, Gu Qingfeng sent Jun Tong back to the palace, and he was also very drunk that night, so he wanted to go back to the palace to rest after sending her, but in the end she was left behind.
In the future, Gu Qingning wanted to persuade Jun Tong to cancel the marriage, but it was too late.
On the second day of the wedding banquet, Jun Tong confessed to her personally: "Qingfeng and I are already husband and wife. ”
Who's ruining whom?
Who hurt whom?
I don't know what to do, and I don't know what to do.
Hate and love can drive madness.
Infinite madness grows in the bottom of my heart, there is no way out, there is no antidote......
Who can tell the difference between hell and the world?
Absurdity is the world.