For me, February is always the best month, not only because it coincides with my birthday and many festivals, but also because the cold winter days are about to pass, the warblers fly and the grass grows, and everything grows, but also because this month is the mother's longevity.

But February of this year was the worst month, not only because Ah Huan was not by my side, but also because it was the first time that my mother had left me alone for my birthday in another place, except for the four years in the court. This reminds me of Li Sheng a long time ago, when our young children followed the holy car around and coquettished in front of my grandmother, he always stayed somewhere in the two capitals, and was separated from his parents for more than ten days or even months. This is a custom left over from ancient times, which highlights the importance of the crown prince as a vice prince and a prince, but it also makes the son of the "crown prince" destined to be more alienated from his parents.

And now I have that treatment. Although nominally only to assist the grandson, although this time there are many other reasons, such as my weak health, and the sickness of the injury, such as the grandson has only weathered the storm, and urgently needs to be appeased and establish prestige, for example, the crown princess and her sister-in-law have a personal affair, and although the emperor's family temporarily spared her, they still can't let go of her infidelity to their son... But I was separated from my mother after all.

I realized a long time ago that all my grace and honor came from my mother, and I also knew that my mother could not protect me for a lifetime, but it was not until last year that I realized how strong the difference between this "grace and honor" is.

If you want to keep the ceremony and die, the mother has to call Li Huan to come, give an order, and then Li Xuan will go home and do it - this is of course very simple, the father wants the son to die, and the son has to die - but if Ah Huan wants to die, it is simpler than keeping the ceremony.

There is no need to go through the Fengge, Luantai, not to go through the court of the ministers, not to go through the six departments of execution, and not to go through the trial and deliberation of the Si Xing Temple or the Si subordinate temple, and even there is no need to have a reason, as long as the mother flutters with a sentence of "cane death", the princess of a country, my mother's daughter-in-law, my brother's wife, my lover, can die under the rod on the spot.

Recalling many years ago, when my father was still there and my mother was not yet in power, killing Zhao was just a trumped-up charge, and he was handed over to the Ministry of Internal Affairs to "investigate", and a few days later, Zhao died, some said that he died of illness, some said he died of starvation, and some said that he committed suicide in anger. No matter what kind of death, it is only in the mother's words, and there is no need to explain to the outside world, because this is the wife of the king of Ji, the mother's daughter-in-law, and the emperor's own person in the smaller house of the emperor who is the family of the world, is the "family affair of the Son of Heaven".

Children belong to their parents, and although the law clearly stipulates that if a parent kills or injures a child, he should be punished, but this punishment is not only reduced, but also extremely easy to escape. Wives belong to their husbands, and husbands killing and injuring their wives are the same in law as parents killing and injuring their children. The subordinates belong to the officials, and it is almost one of the unspoken rules of officialdom to kill the subordinates who are not pleasing to the eye with the cane. These are allowed by law. The courtiers belong to the monarch, the fifth, sixth, fourth, third... made a mistake, before Emperor Wen of Sui killed the minister with a horse whip in the court, and then there was a mother who instigated his father to kill the minister when he hung the curtain, and died under the rod.

A long time ago, I knew that this was a family world, but I always thought that since it was a "family world", the head of the family always cared about the upper and lower levels of the family, and acted rationally. The emperors I have seen, whether they are as kind as my father, as strict as my mother, or as mediocre as Li Xuan, have all confirmed my old thoughts. Most of the time they were warm and affectionate in front of me, and they acted with clear reason, whether they were stupid or wise, and even so, they were enough to make me and others dry up and walk on thin ice. I can't imagine what would happen if they lost their rationality as ordinary people.

And once they lose their rationality, unless they make a mistake and leave their relatives, their families and countries are overthrown, and others take risks and change the dynasty, there is no system that can be restrained.

The Sui Dynasty established three provinces and six ministries that could check and balance the monarchy, but the founding Emperor Wen himself often trampled on the dignity of the provincial officials, this dynasty since the rebellion of the King of Qin, the post of Shang Shuling was not granted, passed to the mother regent, Liu Yizhi, who refused to follow the order that was not reviewed by the disciples, was given to death by the hand that was not reviewed by the subordinates, since then, although the three provinces and six ministries are still operating normally, Fengge has become a private secretary-like existence on behalf of the emperor, and Luantai has become the mouthpiece of the emperor's will, and no one can resist the firm will of the politicians, whether this will is good or bad。

And I was separated from my mother. I can't get a glimpse of her emotions and intentions at any time, I can't go into the palace at any time to explain or coquettish or negotiate with her, keep the courtesy and my life and death, or just hold a strange book covered with a jade seal held by a strange chamberlain.

I felt a strong fear again, even more so than when Ah Huan went hand in hand with me to the Manna Temple, when we were at least each other, but now we were hundreds of miles apart, with her nominal husband and de facto master, while I remained in the capital, anxiously awaiting the news of Ah Huan's letter.

On the third day of February, I finally waited for the first handwritten letter from Ah Huan himself, attached to the handwritten letter from his mother sent by Colliers. There was no seal on the letter, indicating that it was not afraid of being seen. The content is nothing special, but it is a detailed description of her recent physical condition, thanks to the knee pads and wheelchair I made for her, and at the same time told me to go to bed early and get up early, and eat modestly. The tone of the letter is not excessive, and if it were seen, it would at best feel unusually detailed, but in the eyes of those who know our relationship, it is probably a love letter that is too sweet to get tired of - especially after seeing the number of words in this letter.

In addition to saying that she planned to come back after her birthday, she also asked about the preparations for the canonization ceremony of the ceremony-although the book of the grandson had been issued, the mother thought that the winter was too cold, and postponed the canonization ceremony to March.

Ah Huan's letter is full of thousands of words, it is difficult for her to expand so many words into such a few contents, it seems that it can be so smooth, I caressed this letter, imagining that she retreated from the people, and she considered the content of the book word by word under the lamp, and unconsciously smiled, according to the number we agreed on, word by word on this letter to find what she really wanted to say to me: the prince complained, felt that it was better to be free for the prince than for the prince, made friends with thirteen courtiers, promoted six sons, and the list is as follows. 166 Reading Network