My hands were shaking. Ever since I learned that my mother was the Heavenly Majesty, I couldn't help but think a little more about her words and deeds, and I gradually discovered many details that I didn't usually care about. In the past, I knew that my mother's ascension to the throne of the queen required not only my father's favor and mercy, nor the generosity and love of her subordinates, but knowing and knowing were not the same thing. For example, the same concubines who are trying to bewitch the saint and divide the favor of the queen of heaven, the mother can match them to the military officials, can mix them in the palace and release them out of the palace, or can they be secluded in the cold palace and never see the light of day, and can kill them all and once and for all, I used to think that my mother did at most the first two, but recent observations have pointed to the most cruel choice, or rather... The safest one. Mother is known as a name for leniency, a deacon of the palace people, quite daring to speak, but it is also benevolent and tolerant, the subordinates in my palace can be regarded as deceitful and lawless, but the Zichen Palace is purged up and down, there is no leakage of secrets outside, there is no obscenity inside, and there is occasional dereliction of duty, without waiting for the mother to scold, these people themselves will tremble, such as a great disaster, if the mother is really as lenient as she seems on the surface, these people will never be afraid of being like this - of course, only such a mother can perform the supreme body as a woman, and can be worthy of the name of heaven. I'm not unproud of it. However, just as there is often a distinction between a strong country and a weak people, a strong mother is not all good for me. My every move, all without her attention, when I was young, I only took care of eating and living, even if the occasional behavior was not satisfactory, but it can be regarded as the innocent state of the little daughter, now the older I get, can no longer shirk the age, and the friends involved are extensive, the mother's control of me is more detailed and extensive, she herself is a natural asset, intelligence, to treat others, inevitably picky, we are her children, she is more strict with us than others, I hate that we can always be perfect in everything, a little disobedience, is angry and change face, to beat and punish, follow the heart- We are her relatives and flesh and blood, so naturally there will be no such thing as killing with a cane, but the people around us are inevitably affected by the fish in the pond.

For example, today's Wei Huan. What she did, at worst, was deceitful and treacherous, and it was not an exaggeration to kill her immediately, but at best, she was loyal and dedicated to the public, and when she caught up with her mother in a good mood, she couldn't say that she could get a reward. However, my mother was annoyed that I was being controlled by my subordinates, so she thought about it more and more in the worst way, what harbored evil intentions, what played with right and wrong... In the final analysis, the root of this matter is still on me, and if you want to save Wei Huan, you can only start from me, as long as my mother knows that I am not a stupid person who is fooled by others, Wei Huan will be generally fine. Thinking about this, I pressed my right hand with my left hand, folded my hands in front of me, and bowed to my mother, who sneered: "Why, who else do you have to intercede for this point?"

My hands were actually still shaking, so I had to hold each other left and right, and pretended to be calm and said, "It's not to intercede for anyone, but to ask A-Niang for guilt." ”

The mother raised her eyebrows and said, "She is the one who tells the truth, how did it become your sin?"

I said: "Ah Niang is a dignified queen of heaven, everything in her heart is a major matter of the family and the country, Wei Huan and Ah Yang are slaves and maids, how can it be worth Ah Niang's anger for her? I made A-Niang angry to this point, it was really unfilial, and I asked for the guilt first. ”

Mother said lightly: "Let's talk about it." ”

I couldn't hear the joy and anger in her voice, but the more solemn my face became, and I leaned over and said: "Ah Yang is my nursing mother, but I can't restrain her, let her act arbitrarily and violate the law, it is my first sin; ”

The mother sneered and said nothing.

I said: "Ah Yang's matter, Song Foyou, Wei Huan has already had some admonition, that day Ah Yang because of my scolding, then it is clear that he is sick, but he really wants me to go to the court to extend, before he is willing to come back on duty, this is to coerce himself to be on duty; my companion has read into the palace, gifts and exchanges, up and down there are many greed, although this is the duty of the inner servant, Ah Yang but also more connived; my property, both in the treasury, but often short, last year I have ordered Wei Huan to investigate, but then but not too affectionate, entrusted Ah Yang to keep, she will play tricks from it, guard and steal, I have felt that there is a difference, Ah Yang has been serving since I was born, both the merit of conservation, and the accumulation of years of seniority, many years of affairs, but also thanks to her handling, suddenly repulsed, afraid of instability, so he didn't dare to make a big move, so he had to promote Wei Huan and take her as Ah Yang's rival. Wei Huan is young and cannot convince the public, so he is intimate and pretends to be authoritarian. ”

My mother squinted at me, and I could only continue: "It's me who is confused, thinking that Ah Yang Fu and Zi are both officials, and there are nannies, and I am to her, I am both a monarch and a junior; Song Foyou is the person in front of Ah Niang, and he is a square gentleman, and he must obey in the right matter, and there are some small things, but it is not easy to entrust her to do; only Wei Huan, who is neither a prominent family background, nor has any outstanding meritorious deeds, is fortunate to enter the palace, and the gains and losses depend on me, so that the arousal is the most convenient, and he is closer to her in daily life- I only care about my own convenience and convenience, but I forget the principle of self-cultivation and self-righteousness, and the principle of being virtuous and far-reaching, this is my great sin, and I ask my mother to judge it. After speaking, he lowered his head again, preparing to kowtow a few times in case it didn't work, but fortunately, my mother didn't get angry again, but just lifted my shoulder with her hand and forced me to stand up.

The anger on her face has long faded, there seems to be a little appreciation on her face, and it seems to have a little regret, she touched my face hard, her hands were very slow, and her eyes were staring extremely hard, but it was not the fierce kind of staring, but as if she was thinking about something, for a long time, her mother said again: "At your young age, what personal matters are not good for Song Fuyou to do?"

I was stunned, I didn't know why my mother asked this sentence outside the world, this question was really private, and I didn't know how to answer, so I muttered: "It's all a trivial matter, it's nothing to worry about." When his mother looked at him, he could only say half-truthfully: "Yes... Daughter's family affairs. ”

The mother was thoughtful, brushed her clothes and got up, and said lightly: "It's good to remember the truth you just said." "As I spoke, I took out a scroll from my sleeve and threw it in front of me, and I opened it to see that it was the file of the person who had stolen and sold property from the court, where did the matter originate, who reported it, and who interrogated him, and the confession, the details of the property, and the people who were involved in the case were all listed, but the signature at the end of the volume was not a court order, but: The general Qiu Shenyun of the minister's left Jin Wuwei bowed his head and bowed again.

My mother had already stepped down and stepped into the hundred stage, and I hurriedly grabbed the scroll and hurriedly followed. The wind blew, and my back was cold, and it turned out that in a short period of time, I was already sweating and sweating.