She still knew about Gu Qinghuan.

This was the only time Gu Qinghuan really wanted to hide from her that he was injured for her, but he didn't succeed.

It was Yang Rongan who went to tell Jiang Xiange, he felt very uncomfortable, he never thought that Gu Qinghuan's affection had reached such a level, he would rather Gu Qinghuan beat him and scold him, than Gu Qinghuan did such a cruel thing to himself.

As soon as Yang Rongan finished speaking, Jiang Xiange rushed to the Gu Mansion. The Gu family also came back, so she still had to face them, and she had to face Gu Qingxuan.

Gu Qingning and Gu Qingfeng didn't know how many questions and complaints they had about her, but Gu Qingxuan told them to calm down, and when she came, they were not allowed to pester her.

Autumn is deep, there is a wind in the south, the bamboo on the corridor moves the green leaves to reflect the clear, the clothes follow the wind, and the figure is sparse.

The world, hot and cold, is irreversible, and human power is unreachable, only people's ears.

A lonely shadow under the corridor, blue ink cloth, holding the roll independently, looking at the sky, ethereal and profound, quiet is born, and moving is into the world.

"Uncle ......"

Jiang Xiange walked towards him slowly, Gu Qingxuan looked back, smiled lightly, as always, treated her kindly and peacefully, "Xiange is here, Qinghuan is in the house, he is fine, you don't have to worry." ”

She looked at Gu Qinghuan's door, her eyes wandered, she looked at him, and seemed to be disguised, frowning and sighing: "Uncle, I'm sorry......"

Gu Qingxuan said: "No, you didn't do anything wrong, don't apologize." Although my uncle really wants you and Qinghuan, a pair of childhood sweethearts, to tie the knot, and our two families can be closer, this is your own marriage after all, and you should be allowed to advocate it. Either way, it's your choice, and if you want to. Yang Rongan is a good offspring, and if you are a good match, your choice is right. ”

In the face of such understanding, she didn't know whether she should be happy or not, and nodded with a smile, "Uncle Xie is forgiving." ”

She stepped back, turned around wordlessly, and entered Gu Qinghuan's bedroom.

……

"I also thought that you, the phoenix crown and the xiaxia, married in a beautiful way, married to others, but never dared to think that it was not me who married you. ”

Lying on the couch, his breath was weak, his face was bloodless, and he saw her appearance clearly in the vastness, he still remembered how beautiful the face under the veil was, her eyebrows and eyes, her smile, were all his biggest thoughts in this little half of his life.

But he couldn't have it.

Jiang Xiange sat on the edge of the couch, looking at his weakened appearance, his heart ached, "Qinghuan...... Show me your wounds......"

She went to pull his left hand, but he retracted his arm into the quilt and refused to show her, and he was willful and stubborn, facing sideways to the other side, curled up, no longer facing her.

After trying a few times, Jiang Xiange gave up, she leaned down and hugged him from behind, her side face was close to him, like two children hugging him for warmth.

"Qinghuan, I know you don't want to hear me say I'm sorry, but I can only say I'm sorry. Please believe that there are very few important people in this world, and you will always be one of them, and you will have an irreplaceable position. It's not that I don't want to marry you, but I can't marry you...... If you are not a family member...... I will marry you, you are Qinghuan, you are my Qinghuan...... Who else is better than you? However, you are Gu Qinghuan, you are the Gu family...... I love my family, but I can't be tied to my family......"

"Why? You're leaving us......" he was saddened and puzzled.

She said, "Last night...... I witnessed with my own eyes that Zheng Zhiyang, who had gone crazy, fell downstairs and fell to the point of separation...... Qing Huan, do you know what a horrible scene it was? I could even see his distorted face when he fell next to me, and I felt his wide eyes see me...... I was there, witnessing it all, and I knew the truth behind it...... Does he really deserve to die? Not necessarily. But even if he died, I was also an accomplice...... At that moment, I suddenly became confused, I don't know what my father and I have been doing all this for so long? Yes, for your sake, I can ignore right and wrong and ignore good and evil, but I always feel that my conscience is still alive......"

"I know it's not easy for you, you're ambitious, you both know very well what you want, but I never knew what I wanted...... Last night, I suddenly figured it out, I can't go on like this, those confusions, those obsessions, I have to let go, it's time to end, I, no ambition, I just want to be an ordinary woman, marry a wife, teach a husband and children, be a good wife, a good mother...... That's enough......"

He was already in tears, his heart was almost desperate, and he suddenly turned around and took her hand with both hands: "I can too, Xiange, I really can! I can give up all this, not to be an official, no longer to fight for anything, no longer to let you be frightened, you can marry me, okay? As long as you agree, I will resign immediately, we don't want to stay in Chang'an City, we go to a place where there is no dispute, I will take care of you for the rest of my life......"

He became more and more agitated, like a dying man, still making his last struggle in agony, and without hesitation, he would do whatever it took to make a promise to her.

She didn't wait for him to finish, then covered his mouth and didn't let him continue, tears streaming down her eyes: "No, Gu Qinghuan, you can't ...... Don't be stubborn anymore, we don't have false illusions, let's all let ourselves go...... Let this all end, you are a good official, you deserve the fame and fortune of the official position, you can't give up, and I will eventually become someone else's wife......"

"You have killed for me, and I can give my life for you, but Qinghuan, you will always be just my family, I can't marry you, I definitely can't marry you......"

No one can understand the vastness and depth of her heart, nor can anyone understand her pain and despair.

Gu Qinghuan was no longer excited, at that moment, the world was annihilated, and all the cognitions of the past twenty years seemed to be wiped out in an instant.

Yes, they all have to move forward, each with its own struggles and trade-offs.

Yes, the girl he has loved for more than 20 years will eventually become someone else's wife.

And he, only accept, and then go his own way.

Gu Qinghuan lay down quietly, tears dried up in his eyes, he didn't move, his eyes gradually became calm and thorough.

"String song, the wound will always scab, and then heal unconsciously, and the pain of the past will be forgotten. ”

"And I, will never be able to put you down. ”

"But that doesn't mean I won't accept your choice. I am willing to give you what you want, even if it is through others, indirectly to fulfill your happiness......"

"It's not just because I love you, but because, like you said, you're my family. ”

In fact, he has already seen through it and accepted it, just after he came to life, it's just that feelings never make people feel better.

Go with the flow, it doesn't mean really letting go, not letting go, and not letting go, it doesn't mean still being persistent.

It's just that I don't force it anymore, so that you and I are free.

……

Yang Rongan and Jiang Xiange's wedding date is set for half a month later.

Gu Qinghuan thought that by that time, his wounds should also be healed.