I didn't feel it when I was in front of the emperor, and when I withdrew from the expression and tone of my mother, I found that she was a little like Li Rui when she was still the king of Ji - when Li Rui was not yet made the prince, she often asked him in such a stern tone mixed with expectation and temptation, and after Li Rui was established as the prince, there was no such teaching.

And today she ordered me to read no longer the clichés of chanting and prayer, but the important tasks of taxes and transportation.

My heart was pounding, and I unconsciously gave birth to a little speculation: did my mother deliberately cultivate me and allow me to participate in the affairs of the court in the inner court? Or did she just want me to know a little about the affairs of the court and the sufferings of the people's livelihood?

With such speculation, I couldn't wait to find Ah Huan. As she had done every day for the past few months, she was sitting in the middle of the temple copying her precious scriptures, occasionally raising her eyes to look at the priest who was playing in the company of the little palace people—I gave him a red thread blanket two feet square, and ordered a set of small fences made of sandalwood wood, and usually asked someone to surround this red thread blanket, so that the little fellow could go wild on the blanket.

Ah Huan hadn't finished writing a volume, and refused to look up at me, I had nowhere to complain, so I could only sit on the side of the red carpet by myself, and tease Shou Li with a leather blanket across the fence, so that when he was about to cry, I saw Ah Huan put away the pen and paper, came over slowly, and took the leather blanket in my hand: "Don't bully Da Lang." ”

I laughed: "He's obviously very happy, how can I say that I'm bullying him?" Reaching out to grab the hammer in Ah Huan's hand, she flashed her backhand, quickly changed her hand, and looked at me with a smile: "Within a stick of incense, if you can take this hammer from me, I will lose." ”

I pouted, "What's the good of winning, what's the harm of losing?"

She looked at me with a smile: "My family plays, I don't need any big luck, I lose, make an object for you, you win, make an object for me yourself, okay?"

I immediately complied, grinning and stopping her, because whether I won or lost, there were benefits, so I was not very serious, but she seemed to be more perfunctory than me, and after a few times, she suddenly took the hammer in my arms, took a step back, and said with regret: "I lost." In a few days when the things are ready, ask them to bring them to you. ”

I chuckled and said, "I don't need them, I'll get it with my sister-in-law myself." I wanted to smell the fragrance of her, but I didn't dare, so I carefully held the coffin closer, and said while looking at it: "What kind of coffin is this, it is very exquisite, sister-in-law give me this coffin." ”

Ah Huanbai me: "It's the usual qi in the palace, if you like it, take it, and I'll ask them to give you ten." ”

I laughed, "I'm alone, just this one." "Frolicking enough, to Ah Huan to make a look, Ah Huan understood, then said to play with me on the land, pulled me on the couch to sit opposite, leaving only seven seven one to serve in the inner room, while throwing the dice, has been the recent things to pick up a few things to me and said, I also bent forward, told her to play right today, Ah Huan to my mother ordered me to see the matter of the sparse noncommittal, only to hear the medical officer when the consultation showed a little displeasure, but said: "It's time to ask someone to take a look for you." ”

I was puzzled: "Every ten days, there is a royal family who comes to see me, and it never stops, so why do I need to make another diagnosis?"

She glanced at me, grabbed a son between her two fingers, and slowly fell, blocking my way: "Your life is at stake, of course, you need a medical officer to consult, and you can only be allowed to do so... Giving birth to children. ”

I almost squirted out a sip of tea: "Ah Huan, don't scare me, I... How can I possibly have a baby?"

Her eyes drooped slightly, and she fell straight on the chess pieces: "The heart of being a parent naturally hopes that the children and daughters will reproduce and prosper, especially you, the only daughter, the noble emperor, if there is no incense in the end, and let the son of the concubine inherit the title of concubine, how can the A family rest assured?"

I can understand why she was weird last night, most of them were in the palace, and they had heard some rumors, and now they were feeling sorry for themselves, eating jealousy indiscriminately, and hurriedly pulled her sleeve and said: "No matter how much A-Niang cares, she can't manage me and Zheng Bo's room, don't worry, I am wholeheartedly devoted to you, and I will never have anything to do with him." ”

Ah Huan sighed and slowly tore my hand away: "Actually, even if you want to have something happen to him, I don't blame you." As I said at the beginning, even if you have a colt and have children, as long as you still have me in your heart, I will know enough. In the long run, if you can have children, it will be much better than having no children. ”

For some reason, I was a little angry: "Ah Huan thinks that the two have sworn to be together, but one of them hooks up with someone else, and even gives birth to children, is this a legitimate thing?"

She said lightly: "However, Zheng Bo is your husband. ”

I glared at her: "Li Rui is also your husband, if he wants to have a child with you, will you have to have a child too?"

She didn't expect me to call Li Rui's name and look up at me: "Erlang has many concubines, no matter who he is born with, they are all his children." Bridegroom... If it is not your son, what does it have to do with the family?"

I stared at her: "What if it happens, in case Li Rui has to have a child with you, how will you stay?"

She bowed her head, and after a long while, she said, "I remember you said that even if I am not a virgin, even if I have given birth to many children, you still like me." ”

I endured it a few times before I let myself yell: "If that happened before you met me... Naturally, I don't mind. But... We're in this together. ”

She said: "It's always hard to have both worlds. He took my hand and smiled at me: "But don't worry, Erlang has always disliked me and won't want me to give birth to a child for him." If you... I don't mind if you have an heir with a colt, but your body always needs to be recuperated and confirmed, and besides, it's not that you will have a baby this year, it's just that you are prepared early. Ah Jia is the only daughter of you, and I will never risk your life, don't worry. ”

She smiled fakely. I knew she must be feeling bad. But I don't understand, how could she say such a thing?

Even if she cried and asked me to alienate the colt, even if she designed to frame Zheng Bo, it wouldn't make me feel so uncomfortable.

But if she wants to say such a thing, she hurts others and hurts herself.

I clenched and loosened my hand, loosened and clenched, and there was infinite anger in my heart, but I could not express it clearly. After being silent for a long time, he threw away the chess pieces and stepped down: "I still have something to do, I'll find my sister-in-law another day." I walked to the door without looking back, and when I heard her calling me, I stopped, hoping that she would take back Fang Cai's words, but I only heard her say, "The things I promised you will be sent tomorrow." ”

I refused to look at her, and whispered "There is a sister-in-law Lao" and hurriedly stepped out of the door.

When he strode back to his dwelling, when he was alone, he dared to let the tears fall in strings, and his thoughts were chaotic, as if there was infinite unspeakable sorrow, but his mind was unusually clear.

I don't want to have children. Whether there is Ah Huan or not, I don't want to have children with Zheng Bo or any man.

Although there are many things in my life that I cannot control, these things will always become less and less.

One day, I will be just me, not the princess of the Tang Dynasty, not the daughter or sister of the emperor. Etiquette can't manipulate me, my mother can't manipulate me, Li Rui can't manipulate me, and even my Ah Huan can't completely manipulate me. 166 Reading Network