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first raised his head and looked at Ning's family, and then looked at Shen Nishang, and then greeted Ning's family: "Mother." ”

Ning's face was kind, and he stepped forward to take Ling Fei's hand and examine it up and down, and said angrily, "Why did you come here without drying your hair?"

Ling Fei changed his clothes, but his hairline was still wet, and he obviously came in a hurry.

Ning's heart was unhappy.

"My son is fine. Ling Fei glanced at Shen Nishang again and hesitated, "What is my mother talking to Miss Shen?"

Shen Nishang was silent.

The cold color in Ning's eyes swept by, but he smiled faintly on his face: "It's nothing, I just misunderstood Miss Shen, and then you said that your mother knew that Miss Shen was a guest, and her mother misunderstood someone, so naturally she had to say that it was a courtesy." ”

Ling Fei's face softened when he heard this, and the cold color in Ning's eyes flashed again when he saw this.

"It's not too early, my mother is here to rest today?" Ling Fei asked.

Ning glanced at Shen Nisheng: "No, I'll go home." ”

After that, he called Mama Gu to prepare, and Ling Fei didn't persuade much, but only personally sent the Ning family to the carriage, and watched the carriage go away, and then turned around and went back to the inner courtyard.

After hesitating for a moment, Ling Fei still went to the Liuyu Courtyard.

Miaozhen quickly came out to open the door, and when she saw Ling Fei, she didn't show much surprise, and only said, "Miss is in the study." ”

Ling Fei was stunned and stepped in.

Shen Nishang was holding a book and was leisurely flipping through it, Miaozhen introduced Ling Fei into the study, served a cup of tea and then retreated.

Ling Fei stood inside the door, a little uncomfortable.

"Sit down. Shen Nishang put down the book.

Ling Fei sat down on the circle chair by the window.

"The medicinal properties are over?" Shen Nishang looked at him.

Ling Fei's ears were hot, and he nodded his head indiscriminately, a little afraid to look at Shen Nisheng's eyes.

"Although the medicinal properties are over, they will still be somewhat weaker, and there are still two competitions today, so you have to be careful. Shen Nishang said.

Ling Fei nodded again.

There was silence in the room for a moment.

After a while, Ling Fei asked out loud, "My mother...... She didn't say anything, did she?"

Shen Nishang raised her eyebrows and looked at him, smiling: "What do you think your mother will say?"

Ling Fei froze, but he didn't know what to say for a while.

He's not a fool, on the contrary, he's an extremely perceptive kind of person.

As soon as he entered earlier, he noticed that something was wrong with the atmosphere at that time, whether it was Ning or Shen Nisheng's mood, there should be something he didn't know about before he entered.

"I'm afraid your mother has misunderstood something. Shen Nishang looked at Ling Fei, "She said that she was going to Yunzhou to propose marriage, and she also promised to let me enter the Enhou Mansion as a side room." ”

Ling Fei was stunned!

"But I've made it clear to her. Without waiting for Ling Fei to speak, Shen Nishang said again, "But I don't know if she will dispel this idea, so if you have the opportunity tomorrow, I still want you to talk to her." You also know that I came out this time to hide from the house, and if your mother really sends someone to my house, it will be very troublesome. ”

Ling Fei only felt that there were mixed tastes in his heart.

Sure enough, something happened.

But he still didn't expect it to be like this.

For a moment, Ling Fei only felt that the taste in his heart was indistinguishable.

The Ning family actually took the initiative to propose marriage for him, which Ling Fei did not expect at all.

When he heard Shen Nishang finish the first sentence, he was shocked, but also a little bit of expectation.

But in a blink of an eye, Shen Nishang wiped out this expectation.

Although it was not unexpected, the moment he really heard it, it was still difficult to hide his loss.

"Ni Shang," after a long struggle, Ling Fei suddenly raised his eyes and said softly, "I-"

But Shen Nishang didn't give him a chance to speak.

"Ling Fei, do you know what kind of life I want to live?" After Ling Fei's first "I" word came out, Shen Nishang also spoke softly, and under the melting lights, those black glass-like apricot eyes looked quietly.

At this moment, there was no other emotion in these eyes, just calm, calm, and sincere.

As quiet and clear as the lake water in autumn, Ling Fei couldn't help but pause under such a gaze.

"I was in poor health," Shen Nishang said softly, "...... Very bad. So I can't do what others can do, I can't go where others can go, and even the people around me never dare to make me too happy or unhappy. And myself, although I have a lot of ideas in my heart, a lot of things I want to try, and a lot of places I want to go, I can't say anything. Actually, I'm not afraid of death at all, but, to the people around me, he needs me alive more than myself, and I don't want to disappoint him, and I don't want him to worry. ”

The candle flame reflected Shen Nishang's snow-white cheeks, the expression on her face was a little distant and her eyes looked hazy at this moment.

Ling Fei was stunned.

"But one day I suddenly got better. A smile bloomed on Shen Nisheng's lips, her eyes lit up, and she stared at Ling Fei, "Do you know how it feels?...... Although the person who loves you the most is no longer there, you will feel that he is blessing you in the dark, and he is asking God for a chance to reinvent you and let you get what you want. You will regret that he did not see all this, but you will believe that he must be watching over you and accompanying you. Because you know that in this world, he is the one who wants you to live freely. It is precisely because of this that in this life, we must not live up to it, nor can we succumb to it at will. Because he knows your heart's desire, he gives you such a chance to make up for all your previous regrets. Those things that have not been tried, those places that have not been visited, as long as the heart yearns for it, you can do it freely. ”

Shen Nishang sat on the chair, tilted her head slightly, the candle flame in the cross gauze lamp on the bookcase danced slightly, and there was also light and shadow jumping on her face, but at this moment, her eyes were amazingly shining and shining that Ling Fei had never seen before, as if she was as moving as an ambilight, better than all the most luxurious gems in the world!

Moreover, there was also an incomparable resoluteness in this amazing shining, just like her voice, which was clearly gentle and gentle, but Ling Fei could hear a kind of determination and persistence in it.

This is an attachment that no one can change, and it is the life belief that belongs only to the girl in front of her!

At this moment, Ling Fei suddenly had a feeling that neither he, nor the Ning clan, nor anyone else in this world could make the girl in front of him go against his heart.

Whether it is status, wealth, or coercion, she will not really give in.

She will never be willing to be a canary, not to mention the position of the side room of Enhou Mansion, which is the most gorgeous birdcage in the world, and she will definitely do everything possible to escape.

He didn't know that the "he" in Shen Nisheng's words was not "her", and he didn't think of this elsewhere, but just regarded it as Shen Nishang's early experience.

Ling Fei was shocked, moved, and stunned.

Shocked because he didn't expect to hear such a passage, moved because he could see and hear the sincerity of the feelings, but what was stunned was the complexity of his mind at the moment.

He knew what he was trying to say.

For the first time in his life, he had his heart set on a woman.

This feeling of feeling for the first time in his life made him feel strange and novel at the same time, he couldn't tell what kind of feeling it was, he only knew that he was suffering from gains and losses, and knew that he would be jealous of the tacit understanding and secret between her and Mu Qing, and even, he would lie to Ning for this feeling, and after taking the medicine, he had only one thought, that is, he wanted to return to where she was......

And even ......

Knowing that she had rejected Ning's family, he still wanted to show his joy to her......

However, Shen Nishang did not give him this opportunity.

She interrupted him, and she spoke first, telling him what she wanted with such a gentle and resolute gaze and a soft but firm voice that he could not speak again.

Because, he can't give her the life she wants.

is clearly a refusal, but he has nothing to say, and he can't give birth to half of the blame.

There is no more cunning, wiser, and more likable woman in the world than the woman in front of you...... I liked it.

Ling Fei held his forehead with his hand and smiled lowly.

He can't leave his family, and Shen Nishang won't change his beliefs, perhaps, this is the best, whether it's for her or for himself.

Shen Nishang only looked at Ling Fei calmly with calm eyes, and did not ask him why he was smiling, nor did he speak again.

After smiling again, Ling Fei raised his head again and was already calm as usual, and even a slight smile appeared on his face, and his tone returned to relaxed: "I really haven't heard you say that your former Mr. is seriously ill?"

"Hmm. Shen Nishang nodded.

"What about you...... What kind of life do you want to live?" Ling Fei looked at Shen Nishang and bowed his head, like a confidant, "You need to stop when you travel all over the mountains and rivers, do you want to live like this for the rest of your life?"

"I really didn't think that far ahead. Shen Nishang smiled lightly, her eyes deep and serious, "I don't know what kind of life I will end up with, but I know what kind of life I won't choose." ”

Shen Nishang's face also revealed a kind of lightness, after Ling Fei caught it, although it was already clear, but people's hearts could not help others, after all, it was difficult to hide the astringency of that moment in his heart.

"I just want to do a good job right now. What you said to me that day, I thought about it later, is indeed promising. Shen Nishang saw that Ling Fei lowered her eyes and was silent, and she was a little apologetic in her heart, but she had to say these words, she sighed in her heart, and said sincerely, "I have never said those words to the same person. Originally, I never thought to talk to the same person. But now that we are friends, I really don't like Madame Enhou very much, but I know that you are different from her, and you should be honest with your friends. Some of these words I also said to Mrs. Si. I won't hide it from you, I do have the idea of breaking away from the Shen family. I also promised her that one day I would take her out of Yunzhou and live freely. At the moment, I don't really have any other thoughts than this wish. ”

There was silence in the room.

Ling Fei's silence made Shen Nisheng's gaze at Ling Fei couldn't help but show a hint of nervousness.

She really doesn't want to leave a mustard between the two because of this matter, she is not the kind of character who is easy to accept people, so far, there are only a few people who are really regarded as friends by her, and she really doesn't want to lose this friendship.

As soon as Ling Fei raised his eyes, he saw the slightest nervousness in Shen Nisheng's eyes, and after being stunned for a moment, he chuckled: "What's wrong?

Shen Nishang was relieved at this time, and nodded with a smile, but a little seriously: "I'm afraid that you won't recognize me as a friend." ”

"Is Xiao Ye such a stingy person?" Ling Fei raised his eyebrows and squinted, "What's the matter?"

Shen Nishang shook her head helplessly: "You're okay, I'm really afraid of your mother." ”

"My mother, she-" Speaking of the Ning family, Ling Fei couldn't help but apologize slightly, "She's also for me, and please don't be surprised." ”

Shen Nishang lowered her eyes: "Don't worry, you are you, your mother is your mother, I can tell the difference." ”

Even if he looked at Ling Fei's feelings again, Shen Nishang was still reluctant to say anything against his will.

Ning's earlier words and deeds really violated her bottom line.

Even if the Ning family spoke ill of her again, she might not take it to heart, but the Ning family actually hit Yunzhou with the idea and implicated Mrs. Si, which Shen Nishang really couldn't bear.

She wouldn't say bad things about Mrs. Si in front of Ling Fei, but if she didn't mean it, she would have to express her understanding.

Ling Fei saw that Shen Nishang was still emotional, he was silent for a while, laughed at himself and said softly, "You should know that I am not my mother's biological child. ”

Shen Nishang was stunned when she heard this, she knew this, but Ling Fei never took the initiative to mention her life experience.

Shen Nishang didn't interface for the first time, and only looked at Ling Fei.

She knew he should have something to say.

"My biological mother is my mother's dowry. Ling Fei glanced at Shen Nisheng, his eyes were half-drooping, and said, "I didn't know when I was young, relying on my mother to love me, and I was also a little domineering in the house." When I was five years old, once, my second sister got a little jade horse, I had to argue, my second sister refused to give it to me, so I went to complain to my mother, my mother ordered my second sister to give me the little jade horse, my second sister was very angry and slapped me, I was angry and fell the little jade horse in front of my second sister. My second sister was so angry that she cried, and my eldest sister also cried, and asked my mother if she didn't even want her own daughter for the sake of a slave and a slave? I still remember what my mother looked like at that time, and she let the two sisters go out without saying a word. ”

“…… I didn't understand it at that time, so I asked my mother, who is a cheap species?" Ling Fei paused, "My mother took me in her arms and told me that my mother is indeed a maid, but she is not an ordinary maid, she grew up with my mother and is like a sister." My own mother was bleeding profusely after giving birth to me, and entrusted me to her on her deathbed, and she promised my mother that she would treat me as her own son. She said that in her eyes, I am her biological son, and no one can say that I am bad, not my two sisters. For so many years, she has indeed done the same. Anyone in the house dared to chew the root of the tongue, and she knew it, and she never spared it. And my two sisters, because of me, are becoming more and more estranged from her. After being married for so many years, they rarely return home. Ni Shang, just like you do to Mrs. Si, I do owe a lot to my mother. She may have something bad about her, but I am the only one in the world - I have no right to blame her. ”

After Ling Fei finished speaking, he raised his eyes and looked at Shen Nishang fixedly.

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