The moonlight is beautiful tonight.

Apart from the rustle of falling snowflakes, there was no other noise.

It's winter again, and in a few days, it's my birthday, and after this time, I'll be twenty-nine and thirty.

The sage said that he should stand at thirty, but he never clearly told us what it was to "stand".

Wei Shuxuan has explained some of the great principles of standing up for morality, but until now, I haven't figured it out. On the contrary, what Xu Jingzong said made me remember it to this day, he said, "When a person reaches the age of 30, what he does cannot be prevaricated by 'being young and ignorant' or 'young and vigorous'."

When people recalled my Master Xu, they always belittled me more than praised, saying that he was mean, mean, and unkind, and even his own son didn't necessarily treat him much, but time flies, and I have almost forgotten the things that the stern Wei Shuxuan once taught us to memorize, but it is Xu Jingzong, who doesn't care about things, and many of his words and deeds are still in my heart.

Wei Shuxuan blamed him for letting us do our homework, but he instead criticized him and said: "Do you want to learn form, or do you want to learn God? If you are studying God, then why should you be attached to external objects? If you only learn form, then why should you use us?"

That time, Li Rui echoed Xu Jingzong, thinking that practicality is more than form, in other words, as long as the goal is achieved, you don't have to care about the means, although I vaguely feel that it is wrong, but I covet the convenience of class, and also stand on Xu Jingzong's side, that time Wei Shuxuan was so angry that he brushed his sleeves away, and then went to a long book of 10,000 words to advise Li Rui - because there are too many words, Li Rui and I naturally didn't read anyone, but my mother wanted to play this performance, read it carefully, and then punished Li Rui and I to kneel down and apologize to Wei Shuxuan in public.

With the degree of favor of the two of us at that time, this was an extremely rare punishment.

Wei and Xu have been in the ancient world for many years, and Li Rui is also far away in the domain, and I am the only one who stays in the capital.

I quietly walked out of Lichun Terrace, looked up at the full moon in the sky, it was late at night, the palace people were afraid of causing trouble, and did not dare to sweep the snow, the place was covered with a thin layer of snowflakes, in the light of the moon, I didn't feel dim.

I asked the palace people for a lantern, holding an umbrella in one hand, aimlessly stepping into this plain white snow, clogs stepping on the snow, making a creaking sound, a team of people in the distance with lanterns and candles, it seems to be a night patrol pedestrian, met me alone, the team stopped slightly, a moment later came out, bent over, but it was Gao Yanfu: "It's so late, the princess is still outside?"

I glanced at him lightly, followed his head and face, and unsurprisingly saw the figure of my mother, who was still taller than ordinary people although she was old, but tonight for some reason, she finally showed some old age.

I stepped forward slowly, put away my umbrella, and bowed to my mother: "A-Niang still doesn't sleep?"

My mother approached me and stroked my cheek with one hand: "You haven't slept either." Looking downward, it fell on my clogs, and said, "On a snowy day, it's really better to wear clogs." ”

I couldn't help but go to see my mother, she was wearing heavier clothes than before, but only stepped on a pair of splendid cloud shoes, although it is also a thickened style in winter, after all, it is not resistant to snow water, and at this time, the shoes have gradually become wet: "Deeper snow is heavier, Auntie... It's better to take advantage of it. ”

Mother nodded, Gao Yanfu had already called someone to carry her over, I helped my mother to get on, but she held my hand and said softly, "Let's sleep with me." ”

I said, "Okay." With the help of his mother, he stepped up to the chariot, sat next to each other, put the cloak on his mother's body, and closed the curtains on all sides, so that the wind would not bring it up, and he put a small incense burner at his mother's feet, and dried his hands on it, and then covered his mother's hands. My mother looked at me with a smile and took my hand in turn: "Taiping has grown up and knows to be considerate." ”

I said, "I see them doing this every day, and when they are not there, my son will serve A-Niang on their behalf." ”

The mother chuckled, but after a while, she moved her gaze into the distance, half out of mind and half out of consciousness: "Zheng Xiu is far away, Wan'er asked for a funeral out of the palace, and I agreed." ”

I vaguely felt a little reason why she didn't sleep so late, and said in a low voice: "When Cui Mingde's grandfather was mourned, Ah Niang granted ten days off, and when she went to Master Shangguan, although she was only an uncle, she had few blood relatives left besides her mother, so it was not good not to give it for a day." ”

My mother was silent, holding my hand all the way, and rode to the inner court, but instead of sleeping in the past, she stopped in front of the newly renovated small hall Qiyun Hall near the north gate.

I know that my mother has been sleeping in one place recently, so I helped her to get down and entered, the hall has already been prepared, baked fragrant and warm, and two rows of large candles are lit, and the people who are always present in front of the emperor are listed on the side of the big candles, those who hold hand towels, those who hold water basins, according to the class, although there are dozens of people coming and going, but they are in order, and they do not hear a word. Seeing that I was of little use, I took my mother's outer robe, and I took my own clothes, and sent my mother to the inner room, and I wanted to go to the side hall, but my mother stopped me: "If you are not sleepy, you may as well sit with me." ”

So I turned my steps, and sat down on the couch with my mother, and she got on the couch, and ordered me to sit on the opposite side, and asked someone to bring me a pair of lands and two piles of gold and silver objects.

I threw the dice and rode the horse, but I didn't make a sound, and I went back and forth several times before I heard my mother say, "What are you thinking?"

I bowed my head and said, "I think of Wei Shuxuan and Xu Jingzong." ”

My mother casually pressed the crystal chess piece on the chessboard and raised her eyebrows at me: "Oh?"

I thought that these were the last things I should say to my mother, but at this time, I felt that it was nothing to say to her: "A-Niang has done anything in her life that makes you regret it?"

The mother's hand stopped in mid-air, and immediately fell again: "No." He sat down and looked up at me: "Did Taiping do anything that he regretted?"

I pursed my lips and said, "Not yet, it's just... I'm afraid I'll do something like this. ”

My mother raised her eyes to glance at me, and after a while, Fang said softly, "When I was young, I had such hesitation as you. But what I was afraid of at the time was a little different from what you are afraid of now, the only thing I was afraid of was that the empty envoy tried all his means, but in the end he couldn't reach the position he wanted, in that case, not only me, but also..." He has never been cornered. ”

I looked at her with some curiosity: "Auntie... There will be times when you are scared?"

The mother chuckled: "A-Niang is also a human being, so naturally there are times when she is afraid." Your brother... When you were born, you were weak and sick, you Aya and I, every day I was afraid that you would not be able to survive, at that time he retreated from the court, and when he came back, he must ask you first, and then ask Da Lang and Erlang, what about me, I take you, day by day to ask the Buddha, ask the Tao, ask all the gods and Buddhas, and calculate whether you can survive that day, if it is good news, the next day will use the best offerings to make a vow, until you are five or six years old, I am not willing to move you to the outer world, every morning and evening must look at you to feel at ease... You, Aya and I have both been honored as the Son of Heaven and are extremely noble in the world, but even we can't help the six realms of heaven and man, and all beings are reincarnated. ”

She looked at me with a gentle gaze: "I'm glad that you have grown up now, and you no longer need A-Niang to watch you day and night." However, sometimes I think about it, I would rather you be just a teenager forever, stay by A-Niang's side forever, and never experience the world. ”

I crawled over to my mother, leaned on my mother, and gently called her "A-Niang", she patted me on the shoulder, and called me by my nickname after a long absence: "Son." ”

I answered, my heart was surprisingly calm, and I called "A-Niang" again, and said: "I have a lot of things I want to do, but I don't know whether I should do it or not, and I don't know whether it will be good or bad after doing it." ”

The mother smiled and said, "I haven't done anything, so naturally I don't know whether it's good or bad." But even if it's a bad thing, just do it and correct it immediately, it's better than doing nothing and regretting it in the end - not to mention that your aunt is far from old. She looked down at me, her hand stroking my face repeatedly, as if she saw someone else through me: "Try it, see you... How far it can go. 166 Reading Network