"Changjin?" I was told by Wei Huan that I wanted to laugh a little, but I couldn't laugh, "What is Changjin? Suspicious of the people around you? Or do you always think about calculating whether others are Changjin?"

Wei Huan said: "If you don't count others, others will also count you." Rather than being counted by others, it is better to strike first. ”

I looked at her: "So your sister has never offended you, but you think about it and take precautions?"

Wei Huan sneered: "You have never offended me? You should go around and ask, there have always been concubines who don't 'offend' concubines? How do you think those furnishings and sub-examples of mine came from? What did you think fell from the sky? Even if you are really naïve and ignorant of world affairs, then how did your own third brother, Li Zhuo, a native of Yanshu, die? Why did King Wu leave the country of Beijing at the age of three? He was not allowed to enter Beijing at the age of a few years? You are the second in the preface, and the saint really only has two daughters? Countless unjust souls in the palace of the Imperial Court are afraid to laugh when they hear your words!"

She specially calculated Wei Xin at the beginning, and sure enough, there was a side reason, and I felt a little sad in my heart inexplicably, both for myself and for her. When Wei Xin fell off her horse, I don't blame her for lying to me. Because at that time, she and I were just friends, I treated her just ordinary, and it was natural for her to treat me as usual. Mother doesn't like others to calculate herself, but I feel understandable, after all, a qiē in this world is not only for me, everyone has their own interests, Tao Yuanming said, 'relatives or sorrows, others also sing', death and life are still like this, not to mention a little bit of small profits? And she chose the most raw way.

I still remember that day at the banquet in Ruzhou, when I gave winter pears to Wei Huan, she said "between friends, you don't have to be polite". That was the first time she had admitted that we were friends. Although I didn't say it on my face, I was very happy in my heart, and felt that although we may not be able to reach the realm of mountains and rivers, we can also be a pair of friends like Guangwu Ziling, and then even if I had different thoughts about her, I never thought of being estranged from her to the point of abiding by the difference between the top and the bottom, who would have thought that she would treat me like this - since she was willing to treat me like this, then those things before were out of natural intimacy with friends, or were they clinging to and using with ulterior motives? Did she care so much about my diet and daily life, or out of care for a close friend, or out of care for a princess? If even she and Ah Yang were only using me and being ruthless, how much of the feelings of the rest of the people around me were worth trusting?

Wei Huan looked at me, his eyes full of mockery. In the past year, she has described Ju Zhi more and more like a qualified palace person: gentle, docile, and quiet all reveal a respectful and cautious attitude of a subordinate, but at this moment she shows a completely different arrogant expression, like when I first met her, like the real Wei Huan.

I probably never got to know her. What if I wanted to understand her, what would she do? What would she do if it wasn't me sitting here, but my mother?

"Sit. I raised my hand to her and sat down first. It was not yet hot, but my sitting place was already covered with a dragon beard mat, and a small brocade quilt was cushioned, so that the two of them sat cross-legged.

Wei Huan glanced outside, the door was closed, she sat down, clasped her chest with both hands, tilted her head and looked at me coldly: "If you want to ask me how I do it in Beijing, you can save your tongue as soon as possible." ”

I suppressed my anger, lowered my eyes to the tip of my right finger, and then looked up at her again: "Do you think that if you are so clever, I don't know, no one will know?"

Wei Huan smiled and said: "Obviously, it was Jin Wuwei who caught the lawless people in your palace, what does it have to do with me? Besides, no matter how you say this, it's Ah Yang's, isn't it, what can you do to me?"

Her smile was so annoying, I suddenly got up, and sat down again when I was about to get angry, she looked at me and smiled, I closed my eyes, and said lightly: "If you are judged by the rules, of course I can't stand you." But don't forget, the rules are set by my family. ”

Her face moved slightly, and her eyes were fixed on me. I looked back at her without showing weakness, and said word by word: "Your father is in charge of the election? Now that the prince is in charge of the country, trivial matters are out of the ordinary, you say that I will talk to my prince and brother in the past, and let him arrange an errand for your father, what will happen? My cousin just came from there, and I heard that the natives are rebellious and have a lot of miasma, and the officials don't seem to be very easy to do. But it doesn't matter, your father is a member of Jingzhao Webster's East Family. Famous families, family and family origins, there must be a way to promulgate education, for the court to govern one side? He goes over there, of course you have to follow the appointment, you are about to be young, follow over there, I am afraid that the marriage will be delayed, why don't I ask for a favor with A-Niang again, and leave you in the palace, and when the time comes, I will choose a good family for you, and the Son of Heaven will tie up and marry a famous man, how do you think?

Wei Huan's face changed color and sneered: "You see, that's why I won't have an equal relationship with you. You are a princess, you have been high since birth, when I befriend you, you naturally kiss me and love me, and protect me in every way, and once the grace is no longer there, when you want to pursue me, you naturally have your means. You have also seen the truth that Mi Zi was convicted of seeing the virtuous before, don't you know? I am just a side branch of the Wei family, my father is not obvious, and I have no maternal family to fear, and His Majesty chose me to enter the palace, just to ask me to be your plaything. If a person like me doesn't plan for himself, should he rely on you, the so-called 'friend', to live?" she said, and her voice grew stronger, and she actually brought out a cry.

My anger melted unconsciously, and I leaned forward, grabbed her hand, and said, "If you really have your own agenda, you shouldn't have said these things to me. When you really want to profit from me, you will never have such resentment, but because you think about me... I will never do to you what my predecessors did to you. ”

She shook my hand away and said, "You love and hate to the point of change, what can I do? Ah Yang is your nurse, you love her, what is wrong with her now? You are usually close to the palace people, sometimes no big or small, once you encounter something, don't you also beat and scold? Are you an ordinary palace person, when you are irritable, will you kick and beat people? But because you are a princess, no one dares to stop you. Now that you are in the palace, there are still two Majesties who have taught you, and when you leave the palace and live alone in a mansion, the people around you will take your will as their purpose and your joy as their joy, and their death, life, honor and disgrace are all tied to you, and they are not even flatterers, but they are just dogs and horses under your door! If you are good with me, do you want me to become such a person in the future? Become your dog? Let you fiddle with it?"

I never thought about it. Looking back on the past ten years, although I still boast of being enlightened and equal, I have been flattered for a long time in the rich and noble field, and sometimes I am indeed very arrogant and willful. My former palace people were all friendly to me, but they were expelled by my mother, and I didn't do anything for them except to take care of a few of them. The palace people are not satisfied with the service, I am in a good mood, I am in a bad mood, I am reprimanded, without scruples - if this was in the era when I came, I would have been called "the best" or "princess disease" by everyone, alienated and excluded, but now these people not only dare not alienate me, but are proud to be reprimanded and scolded by me, after all, not everyone has the opportunity to serve the princess closely. Willingly or unwillingly, I have indeed changed, and I have become completely different from the person I used to be. And my life here has only just begun, and I can't even tell if I will change again in the next few decades.

Wei Huan is right, it doesn't do her any benefit for someone like me to be "friends" with her. She doesn't want to be my child, and I don't want her to be a lucky person, so what's the difference between her and others? But she was brought into the palace by me, and my mother's intention was to make her my servant, and whether she wanted to be or not, she could only be mine. Since she refuses to be a Mi Zifang, that is my Uncle Zhong, Zhu Tuo and Wang Sun Jia, humerus heart, is it more like a "friend" than love luck?

I didn't suddenly look at Wei Huan until this moment, and said solemnly: "Ah Huan, don't worry, I will look at you with my arms, respect you, respect you, and be with you in the same boat of bitterness and joy, and I will never lose each other for the rest of my life." ”

For some reason, I couldn't say "respect you, believe in you", Wei Huan must have heard it, looked at me, lowered his eyes and said, "May you not forget this heart." ”