I don't know how long I slept or where I slept.

The walls are all painted pale pink, and teddy bears and rabbits hang from them. I saw a vanity mirror with a whole set of cosmetics on the table, even though I only knew lipstick. The closet was ajar with a white and black skirt inside.

Wait, here's ......

I sat up in a hurry, and there was a sharp pain in my waist, but I couldn't care about it, so I lifted the quilt and jumped out of bed. My feet landed on a pair of tiny slippers with a cartoon rabbit head.

"Are you awake?"

Lin Jie just pushed the door in, holding a bowl of cloudy things steadily.

"No!" I cried out in despair, "I slept in the enemy camp. I'm a prisoner. ”

"Say it as much as you like. Lin Jie lightly tapped my chest, and I immediately collapsed on the bed weakly, "You don't count, how many times have you been captured." Do you really have to capture you seven times before you are willing to be honest?"

"Meng is a thief, I, Guo Qian, is to capture a hundred ......" Before he finished speaking, a spoonful of turbid things was pushed by Lin Jie into my long open mouth. This thing is bitter to look at, and it is even more harmful when it enters the mouth. I suddenly wondered if the bitter mother-in-law could be interpreted like this: the bitter mouth is this bowl of soup, and the mother-in-law is the vicious Rong Mama.

"Don't think you've escaped this again. This is to help you recover and make it easier for you to travel to Midtown. Lin Jie pushed the second spoon over and pressed it between my bitten lips, "Do you want to drink?"

As soon as I heard that it was medicine, I thought there was nothing wrong with drinking it, and if I wanted to poison it, I definitely wouldn't be able to poison me to death in her own bed, wouldn't it......? The great bowl was finally empty, but my spirit was filled with bitterness.

After drinking the medicine, I was sleepy again, but I had to go down for the sake of dignity. Lin Jie put the bowl down and punched me in the chest, knocking me down and almost throwing myself on her bed. She took off a one-foot-tall teddy bear and gave it to me: "Hey, give you a little bear, give me a good lay." Drink medicine again in the evening, but there may be no food. ”

"Where's your dad?"

"I'm back at work. She said, "I'm going to study on my own, don't bother me, just go to bed when you're bored." ”

"Every day in this castle, the castle is a cage. ”

"Nonsense again. Have I been here for more than a year? I've only been back for a long time. And it's just that I happened to be home when you were captured. ”

The door slammed shut, and I fell into deep thought. In fact, everything is still my own greed for life and fear of death. Yes, it must be that I am greedy for life and afraid of death. I turned it out on my own, and it was pretty easy. I have said so many things that sound noble and high-profile, but in fact they are lowly and low-minded - empty words without any basis. Lin Tian didn't kill me because I was useful, but because he saw my weakness. Now I just have to stand up, and I can die with my head against the wall, but I can't. I lay here stiff. I had the strength but I didn't want to move. I've been making excuses, I've always thought that there are so many things waiting for me to do, so no matter how beautiful I say it, I don't want to die, I'm running away from it. I've been through many desperate situations, and I'm already scared. I am not a scum compared to my own courtiers.

I avoided Uncle Sugar Gourd, I slept in Lin Tian's house, and I was lying on Lin Jie's bed.

But no matter how much I hate myself, I can't change my sad idea of stealing my life. I love my family and friends, I hope to see Yusi again and then hug her to protect her, I hope I can sit with Li Haodu Township and them again to drink and eat meat, I hope that my father can also take special leave, push me in a wheelchair, and walk through the streets and alleys of Qingxian County.

I also hope that I can stand in front of Lian Po Zilong, towards a certain bright place, and walk without stopping, and no one can stop me.

Lian Po is still asleep, the past has become a memory, and the future is unpredictable.

I stared at the ceiling until dusk, and the light hit my face through the cracks in the curtains. Lin Jie pushed the door in, a trace of blush appeared on her sweaty face, and the medicine in her hand was swaying, looking like she was always going to spill.

"Dad said that these medicines can only cure your symptoms, but not your roots. If you want to restore the second pulse, you have to have two things. ”

I didn't say anything, just turned my head to avoid the glare of the falling photos.

Lin Jie put down the medicine bowl, leaned over and tightened the curtains, and then gently walked next to me. She lifted me up, put me on a pillow and made me half-sitting, and said, "Brother's blood and lover's tears." Then he added, "All of them are indispensable." ”

"Brother's Blood ......"

"It's literal. He didn't tell me exactly how. He said he would help you connect to the second line. ”

"But it's brother's blood. I said, "I'm not qualified." ”

"It doesn't have to be blood. I said it literally. But perhaps something more terrible than bloodshed. I can't say for sure. ”

"Really?"

"All you have to do now is drink the medicine. Tomorrow, the people of the company will send over the detailed information about Zhongcheng, and you and I will study it together and discuss the plan for receiving the words. ”

"I can't do it. ”

"You can do it. ”

Lin Jie's voice was unusually gentle, so gentle that my body and mind were soft, and I didn't notice the spoon that had been sent to my mouth. Like an obedient child, I quickly drank a bowl of medicine. Lin Jie is also like the mother of an obedient child, full of joy.

"Guo Qian, you can wait until you are mature and strong in the future, and then come back to challenge my father. Challenge the Martial King of the whole world, and when you defeat the Martial King of Liangjiang and become Wufu, you will become the Martial Emperor. Lin Jie didn't pack up her things and leave immediately, but sat on the edge of the bed and gently cocked Erlang's legs, falling into a daze.

"Tang Yao and the others are all iron-clad men, and they can't be more loyal than anyone else. But they are missing something, ambition, vision. With these, they can become martial kings like Dad. But what Dad lacks is ability, so he can't compare to King Liangjiang Wu, and he can't compare to the triumphant legends of those eras. I always thought that the human realm was about the same, until I met you, Guo Qian, you have something unique.

"I can't tell. ”

I listened attentively to her for a long time, but I didn't expect that I couldn't say it.

"Maybe it's pedantic. I smiled wryly and said, "Your dad just said that." ”

"You listen to that, too. Lin Jie's smile was completely different from when she was in front of her father at noon today. I felt very comfortable, and even wished she had been smiling like this, maintaining this faint sadness and sorrow.

"Dad's dream is so far away. He knew it himself, but he respected the dream so much, and he admired himself so much that he admired himself after realizing it. I think he became. ”

Lin Jie burst into tears.

"Guo Qian, let's go and pick up Yusi together, and then what you want to do, I promise, it's okay. This time, you just listen to your father. ”

Is it playing the bitter card?

"Don't talk about that. Lin Jiewan smiled, but her eyes were still shining, "The drunken flower yin and the Buddha you filled in for Yu Si, read it again, I want to hear it." ”

"You know that, I won't tell Yu Si about this. My eyes widened, "It's a must-have, I haven't shown it to anyone." ”

"yes, a word. ”

She looked at me with her cheeks crossed, her eyes full of affection. I don't know whether to read it or not. Now that she's seen it all, let's miss it.

"Drunken Flower Yin • Seek Buddha. ”

"Hmm. ”

Chixia wiped the love and hatred, worshiped the Buddha and put his hands together. Twist red candles and fireworks, burn yourself to the Buddha, and the Buddha said that he would ask for it in the next life.

I hate this life for a long time, and I am lonely and sad. To the birds and beasts, sing the moon and mourn the throat, and walk in the middle of the road.

"That year, you went to Wuning Temple alone, begged the abbot, lit a thousand lights in the hall, knelt on a futon, and offered to the Buddha with one heart and body. Lin Jie said, "The Buddha didn't respond to you, you yourself responded to yourself with this poem." When the abbot told me about this, I knew that it could only be you.

"The abbot said that my heart is the same as that of the young man, and he is willing to light a thousand lights for me who comes to visit me late at night. ”

Yes. He also opened the mountain gate for you and prayed for you.

"Did the Buddha respond to you? I asked.

Of course, the Buddha didn't give me the answer I wanted. ”

"Buddha?"

"You are my Buddha. ”

Lin Jie stretched out her arms around me and pressed her head to my heart. In the minute I was close to her, my heart beat nearly a hundred and thirty times. She was like that teddy bear doll that didn't speak, lying on my chest, listening to my heart pounding.