In this season, when people are always worried about what to wear to go out, although the weather during the day still carries the residual heat of late summer, the cool breeze in the middle of the night is already a reminder that early autumn is coming.

Ran out of the door in such a hurry that he didn't even have time to put on his sunglasses, and only used a large mask to cover most of his face: this was the thickest part of Wang's body, and now his arms and calves were almost completely exposed to the air of the Seoul night.

He couldn't get enough calories because of his body management, and the unexpected low temperature made him shudder gently: when last autumn came, he was still struggling with his life to see if he could seize the last chance to make his debut, and whether he could successfully be selected for the large boy group that will be officially launched by the company next year - I felt that I was worrying about my future every day. The years spent in anxiety every day seem to be still in front of me, and it feels like the winter scene that Lin Hyunjun brought to the ground from the underground practice room seems to be just yesterday, but before I know it, autumn has come quietly.

In the blink of an eye, a year has passed.

From a trainee with no status, no identity, no dignity, only dreams.

So far, he has been a member of the group EXO, the captain of EXO-M, and the actor of the TV series "Please Answer 1997", and has been evaluated by the Korean media as a "trending artist".

It seems that everything has become different.

But there seems to be no difference between a qiē and before.

Walking in the silent alley, there is a whole row of tall trees on the right, and there has been nothing moving in the narrow lane on the left for two minutes: strolling in such an environment, Wang Nanqian suddenly feels inexplicably like the trainee who ended the practice in the early morning and dragged his tired body back to the trainee dormitory.

Another cool breeze blew on his unprotected skin, and he couldn't help clasping his hands in front of him: there was still a trace of perfume on his clothes that had just been pounced on by the bastard girl, and it smelled like some kind of fruit—it was this little bit of breath that reminded him that everything was completely different after all.

After signing the names of the last two bastards who were still reluctant to stay at the door of the dormitory, and even giving them a big hug as a benefit, the two girls finally embarked on the journey home contentedly at his urging: they loved their faces, their dances, and their songs. Sometimes they are even crazy enough to love them, but if these girls who are full of naïve fantasies about life really understand what kind of people they are after they have gone through the cruel life of trainees, will they still be as fanatical as they are now?

If these eaters knew how messy EXO's dorm was, how ugly each of them looked before they were put on fine stage makeup, how swollen their eyes were, how bad their skin was, if they knew how lazy these members of EXO were on weekdays, and how they talked about these crazy meals that always appeared around the dormitory - they would still pay for EXO's albums, buy EXO merchandise, and scream for EXO's every move, as they do now. Do you stay online all the time in order not to miss any bit of news from EXO?

Wang Nanqian, who is a trainee of S.M. Company. Maybe just one person.

However, Wang Nanqian, who is an artist of S.M. Company, is no longer a "person".

When you're just a trainee, there's probably no one who cares about your private life except for the agency. Even the company is just constantly looking at your singing, dancing and acting skills, and they only focus on whether you have the ability to bring enough money and profits to the company in the future. Can you make other people willing to pay for you?

At that time, although you couldn't have much personal space and time because you had to practice a lot every day, at least you knew that you were free: even if they wouldn't admit it at all, Wang Nanqian, who had been a trainee in S.M. for too long, knew very well that almost everyone in those Korean trainees had their own significant other—maybe to find a little fun in their boring lives, maybe to find comfort and support for each other - Even the S.M. company turned a blind eye to the feelings between the trainees, which is already a strange thing for everyone.

As long as you can continue to show the company your potential, your abilities, and let the company know that you can make money for them, who really cares if there is one or several little girls who call you Oppa affectionately every day and want to give you a hug behind your back?

However, this qiē is not until you really enter the debut project, until you are really about to become a real artist: from this moment on, your life has embarked on a path that can no longer be called "ordinary".

From an "ordinary person" who just practiced singing and dancing. After a lot of packaging, you have become a completely new person, a person who has no stains, a flawless person - at least you have to make those who are willing to pay for you think so, at least your economic company must "make you" such a person.

From now on, as long as there are "people", you must do your best to show your face after being packaged anytime and anywhere, even if the real you are not like this, even if you feel pain and fatigue for this, you must maintain such an image: As an idol who debuted in the cruel Korean entertainment industry, you must have such awareness and perseverance. to be able to spell out a piece of the world of their own.

Lu Han is a typical example of his personality who has lost his personality in order to make his debut, because of the company's packaging and image requirements, he always has to force himself to pretend to be well-behaved and cute in front of the camera and in front of the meal: However, Wang Nanqian, who has been with Lu Han for many years and has long understood this child, understands very well that he is actually a very manly and disgusted with deliberately selling cuteness.

He is the face of EXO. He is the popularity king of EXO, and he is the favorite member of Fan: how many people know that he is actually very tired of what he is doing now? and how many people know how much he paid to get such a status and for the company's strong push against him?

As a newcomer, he must always protect this layer of packaging that has been carefully spent countless energy and money until the day when he becomes popular - not only Luhan, but every member of EXO is trying their best to do such things, and every newcomer Idol who debuted in Korea is doing the same thing.

They weren't even allowed to add a scratch to the carefully camouflaged wrapping paper. If the company finds out that they have worked hard and trained for so many years to "make zuò" a newcomer, whose career has not yet been on the right track, and who has not been able to earn back the cost that the company has invested in him, they just fall in love so indiscriminately, and the object is still a female idol - will they even have their faces turned green?

When Kim Young-min's face turns green, his future will no longer have any color other than black.

Such a thing must not be discovered by anyone.

Never let anyone know.

Even Kim Taeyeon can't let her know the truth of the matter.

Wang Nanqian, who shivered lightly again because of the cool breeze in the middle of the night in early autumn, gritted her teeth and made up her mind.

p.s. was caught by the boss today.,A little busy.,So the word count may be a little less TT.,Two more tomorrow.,We'll say so (to be continued.。 )