Chapter Eighty-Four: A Female Colleague
It seems that Wu Li's entanglement is not a star.
Lu Ran could feel his dilemma just by looking at him.
In his life, two of the women he loved the most.
It's been so long, and he's always contradicted about it, without an answer.
It can be seen that this problem will not be solved for a while.
Just thinking of Wu Li's illness, combined with this past, Lu Ran thought of a key.
Guilty.
Wu Li's guilt for Xue Li reached such a point that after losing her, he decided not to have a new lover.
"You feel guilty about her?"
Compared with other questions, this question seems to hit Wu Li's heart more powerfully.
He just shook his head and didn't answer again.
He was in so much pain that he didn't want to speak.
Lu Ran didn't ask Wu Li again, he didn't want to ask the other party to open all the openings for him after turning out Wu Li's wounds.
This is a bit cruel, and it also tests Wu Li's endurance.
No need to ask, Lu Ran has roughly guessed why he has no plans to find a new girlfriend until now.
Or because of guilt, if he has a new love, he will think that it is a betrayal on top of the original betrayal, adding another layer of betrayal.
On top of the original sin, another layer of sin is added.
He couldn't forgive himself anymore.
He wants to atone for his sins with his loneliness.
After thinking about the source of Wu Li's inner pressure and pain, Lu Ran suddenly became enlightened, which may be the internal logic and root cause of his illness.
When Lu Ran was about to applaud himself in his heart and begin to secretly rejoice in his keenness, a fluttering heart was pulled down by him again.
Still not right.
If Wu Li was sick because of this, because of his guilt for Xueli, he avoided contact with women, and gradually lacked experience with women, until he finally became afraid.
If this is such a natural deterioration process, then why hasn't he found out that he has a problem in the three years that Shirley has been away from him.
But it wasn't until three years later, more than a month ago, that I found out that I couldn't talk to women?
Lu Ran's mind came up with Xue Li's delicate face.
When he was in that cabin, he only glanced at it in the mirror at the last minute, but he didn't see it all clearly.
The woman could not be said to be a stunning beauty, but at first glance, she was pure, clean, and her skin was snow-white.
Because of the snow white, Lu Ran noticed a feature on her face, a feature that is easy to remember and not something that ordinary people have.
She has a mole in the corner of her eye.
A little bit makes her skin whiter and more tender.
Thinking of such a sign that impressed him, Lu Ran touched his chin with his hand.
Then he asked Wu Li a question, "Have there been any women around you recently?"
"No, I don't touch women. Wu Li immediately denied.
"In other words, you don't have any other way to see women than your daily work?"
"Well, basically. ”
The corners of Lu Ran's mouth rose slightly, and he knew that the scope he had to consider had narrowed down all of a sudden.
"Do you know any new colleagues who have been here lately?"
"Female, colleague......" Wu Li searched and recalled in his mind, "probably yes." ”
He seemed to remember someone.
"In this way, next time, can you bring me a photo of that new colleague?" Lu Ran made a request.
"This ......" Wu Li was a little surprised, he hadn't answered with certainty whether there was such a female colleague, how could Lu Ran think that he could take out this photo.
"Well, if there is, I'll bring it to you. Wu Li agreed.
This consultation is over, and the time has exceeded the ordinary one-hour consultation time, but because this exploration is very critical, Lu Ran didn't mind the extra half an hour too much.
Wu Li, however, insisted on making up the cost of this half hour, and he knew that there were rules for the consultation fee, which was calculated by the hour.
Lu Ran's work allowed him to explore his heart in depth, and he was very grateful.
Although on the surface, it seems that nothing has changed, and he doesn't know when his illness will heal, but when he recalls the scene he saw today, he saw Shirley again.
Wu Li himself also felt that this place was very close to his heart.
Moreover, Lu Ran also made him discover a subtle change in himself, that is, he hadn't spoken so much to a person for a long time, not the last time he saw Dr. Yu.
Being able to expose the wound in his heart with a person, even if it has not healed, but he feels much more comfortable, he has always thought that he dare not mention it again, and he can no longer bear it, until today he found out that it turns out that he can still talk to someone about these things.
Lu Ran knew that Wu Li's isolated island, himself, had finally come ashore.
What secrets are hidden on the island, although he has not fully figured it out, but being able to go to such a depth today, Lu Ran's confidence has increased a lot.
After saying goodbye to Wu Li, Lu Ran's mood began to become relaxed, and his thinking became clearer and clearer.
He sketched in his mind the cause of Wu Li's illness and the whole thing.
Wu Li, playing as a child, had a mother who restrained him.
And his mother's reluctance to socialize with others, coupled with the suspicion of outsiders when she grew up, made her deeply attached to her family and her children.
Wu Li, who grew up in this environment, was favored when he was a child, and he has always been very obedient to his mother.
However, when he really grew up, there was a second woman in his life who needed his love, and when he really needed to be independent, he couldn't handle this contradiction.
He didn't know how to love a woman other than his mother independently.
So, he somehow let the woman go, and he stayed by his mother's side.
The pain of this separation has been buried deep in his heart, making him avoid getting along with women more and more, until one day, a woman who looks similar to Xueli appears, which finally arouses his heart and makes him show this strange symptom.
This is all Lu Ran's speculation about the cause of Wu Li's illness so far, and after straightening it out, it should be like this.
As long as the next time, if Wu Li can really come up with that photo of a female colleague, he will be more sure of his thoughts.
After thinking clearly about the cause and effect, Lu Ran felt that things had become much simpler.
He even thought about the next two treatments.
He wants to start with the relationship between Wu Li and his mother, and then help him sort out the reasons for separating from his ex-girlfriend, and accept the separation and start a new life.
Come to think of it, there will be some difficulties in this process, but the mystery has been reduced a lot.
Just as Lu Ran was about to go back to his desk and sit down to rest, Sissi came over to him and said, "Teacher Zhang asked you to go find him." ”