Chapter Fifty-Six: Memories may change, but the pain is still intense
Half a month has passed in the blink of an eye, Mo Wei's life is plain and quiet, without the slightest wave, he lives silently in a corner, like an old man living alone, alone, the vicissitudes of his cheeks are quietly displayed, so that he has complex thoughts that are different from ordinary people at this age.
The village is not big but has everything, vegetable markets and supermarkets, Internet cafes, game rooms, etc., Mo worries occasionally go out, but only wander in this area, most of the time is in the room, a person with his head pestle looking out of the window in a daze, thinking about things and remembering people, his heart is full of bitterness.
Years of wandering, deep in the mixed world, made him tired and more confused at the same time, this feeling is like Qingming's eyes are obscured by the bursting wind and snow, unable to see, he can't sort out his thoughts at all, he doesn't know where to go......
Time has passed, and the hot summer has also turned the page.
The night of early autumn is slightly cool, very quiet, and quite comfortable, and the people who work fall asleep at night, all wrapped in a thin quilt and are sleeping in the whirring, not hot or cold, comfortable and warm.
"Hey!"
In this comfortable and cool night, Mo Wei lost sleep again due to confusion in his thoughts, and he couldn't fall asleep from the side, maybe it was easy to be sentimental to cause this, and this time has always been like this, he often let out this slightly helpless sigh.
And every time at this time, he would open his mobile phone, click on the memo, and write some words to vent this complex and sad emotion.
The screen of the mobile phone was lit up in the dark room, Mo Wei was lying on his side on the bed, his fingers were pressed on the mobile phone screen, he would quickly enter and stop thinking for a while, and after a period of time consumption, dozens of words appeared on the memo:
Even if you are unwilling to do so, you still choose to compromise, and in just a second, persistence and giving up are just human ......
The helplessness and bitterness between the words are also in line with his thoughts at this time. Observe for a while.,Click save after a slight modification.,Open the browser with an artistic conception map.,Upload the text with the picture to QQ.。
Eventually, he refreshed his feed, kept checking on the viewers, and slowly fell asleep as sleepiness swept over.
In the past few years, he has been like this, every time in the dead of night and the mood is dull, he will click on the memo, and write all the hurts and pains in his heart, the beauty of the words also makes him like it more and more, and he enjoys this pressure release very much.
The next day, at ten o'clock in the afternoon.
The sun hung high, sprinkling a large area of golden light, illuminating the originally somewhat dark room, Mo Wei woke up from the daze, and was suddenly blinded by the dazzling sun.
After washing, he went to a nearby restaurant and ordered a fried mein to fill his empty stomach, and then walked to the small Internet café next to him.
"The boss turned on. ”
"Okay. ”
As usual, Mo Wei chose a quiet place to sit down, turn on the computer and enter the phone number, and start a long and boring day, which is very negative.
"Ah, Brother Mo, it's you!" As soon as he sat down, Mo Wei heard someone calling him, and the voice was slightly familiar, but there was no one left and right, which made him feel very depressed.
He was relieved, he must have come up with a hallucination day and night, and when this idea appeared, a huge head popped up in the opposite direction of the computer, and he said, "Hehe, here." ”
", it's you, scary!"
Mo was worried and looked at it, he was not angry for a while, he stared, it was his little friend Dongzi, and this guy's way of greeting was also peculiar. This reminded him of Yuan Wuda, and when he thought about it at the moment, the two were really a bit alike, they were both a little ruffian, and they looked bad, but they treated people very well.
"Have you eaten, haven't you eaten, brother, please eat. Mo Wei smiled.
See you again, Dongzi's appearance of killing Matt three years ago has completely changed, and now he is significantly worse than before, with a fair and fleshy face, but he is also handsome, with a lot less hair, slightly inclined bangs, and the whole person is very energetic.
At this time, he touched his empty belly, nodded emphatically, and kept giggling there.
Then, the two retired together and walked towards the small restaurant.
"Boss, a couple of specialty dishes, oh yes, another case of beer. "Don't worry about drinking, old friends reunite, how can you reminisce without wine.
The two reunited, their faces were full of joy, and before the dish was served, they touched the cup first.
"Dongzi, where have you been for the past three years, and how have you been doing?"
"Since you left, I quit my job after the last month of work, listen to your advice, go home to school......" Dongzi put down his wine glass and said slowly: "There hasn't been much change since then, and it's always been good." ”
"That's a good dare, it's out, it's a lot more handsome than before, haha!" Mo Wei looked at him from top to bottom, see Dongzi again this time, not to mention that he has indeed changed a lot, not only has he lost a little, but he is more handsome.
When Dongzi heard this, he was called happy in his heart, it was like being coated with honey, and he was not modest at all, he said: "This is the truth, fat people are potential stocks, if I really lose my face, then I don't have ....... appearance."
Mo Wei pouted and didn't dare to speak, and in the end he couldn't hold back and laughed out loud.
"Dongzi, brother will tell you the truth, your previous appearance of killing Matt was really ugly to me, wahahaha!"
"Consciously, a drink. Dongzi said with wide eyes, not at all listening to this.
The two drank and talked, smiles kept appearing, greeting each other, Dongzi said: "What about you, how have you been in the past few years?"
"Hey, don't say it, stop and go, it's the same, everything is okay. Mo sighed, thinking of the experience of the past few years, his heart was full of bitterness, full of bitterness along the way, and there were many unsatisfactory things, but he didn't say much in words, and he brought a sentence of "okay".
After a while, the dishes were also served, and the two of them were very happy while eating and drinking, and their faces were full of smiles.
"Brother Mo, have you found a girlfriend?" More than half of a case of beer, the two were slightly drunk, Dongzi was in a panic, and asked when Xiao Xie returned.
Mo Wei was silent for a long time, and said in a deep voice: "No." ”
"Find one, former junior high school classmates, high school classmates or something can't be let go, one more person to accompany you, and you don't have to wander around alone. ”
"Come, drink, don't talk about this. ”
Seeing that he avoided this topic, Dongzi didn't peel it any deeper, smiled and raised his glass, and drank happily.
Mo Wei drank a cup and filled himself with a cup, his expression gradually became depressed, what Dongzi said reminded him of some people and things, the memory slipped, and the faces of several women passed through his mind, and finally froze in the junior high school period, a beautiful figure emerged, it was Mu Kite.
The more he remembered, the more uncomfortable he became, and he couldn't suppress his emotions.
Mu Kite, this name, he has been buried deep in his heart, reluctant to mention, to miss, thought he could forget, but he didn't expect that because Dongzi mentioned looking for a girlfriend, the words and sentences of his junior high school classmates were stimulated, and he once again turned up the old things and people in his heart.
Mu Yuan left in the second year of junior high school, the two have not seen each other so far, there are nine years of time in the middle, three years and three years, Mo Yu learned to enter the society, recognize the reality, he has long lost his vision.
Time will consume everything, once sincere feelings in his heart may be a good memory, he has no extravagant hope, but whenever he thinks about it, the pain will still be there, and it is very intense, making him unbearable.
It's just a pain, but this pain will involve more pain, which always embarrass him.
Just imagine, a young man who should be innocent and optimistic has no childhood, his life is full of gloom, how he will feel when he encounters pain......
Time is bitter medicine, right and wrong.
When time really passes, the memory may change, but the pain will not decrease, but will become more intense, like a maggot attached to the bone.
"Come, drink. ”
Mo Wei's face was gloomy, his mood became more and more dull, he didn't speak at first, and drank vigorously, Dongzi noticed these abnormalities, but he didn't ask anything, he understood, and he kept drinking with him.