"Maybe that gift is not so heavy for him, and the money is not worth mentioning to him. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info just for me, it's very heavy.

After he left, I calmed down for a year and laughed at myself for a year.

Low self-esteem, I admit, you're right.

I was eroded by this hopeless feeling.

Every time this happens, I grit my teeth, I work hard, even harder than before, and a year later, I finally got the opportunity to go to his country. ”

Xia Lan's diligence and hard work have always made Lu Ran admire and respect, but now he is not in the mood to praise her.

"Went to his country? Why did you do that? Why are you trying so hard to pursue him? You can't let him go?" Lu Ran was a little strange.

"No, I'm not after him. Xia Lan thought for a moment and said, "Maybe it's also to pursue him, but not to be with him, but to prove yourself." ”

"In his eyes, I am a sparrow who wants to fly up the branches and be a phoenix. ”

When Xia Lan said this, there was a slight hint of sarcasm, and Lu Ran couldn't tell whether she was satirizing the senior or herself.

"From that day on, my heart died. I don't dream anymore. Sometimes, I also think, what he said is right, fantasizing that I can wear a ring and a wedding dress?

Xia Lan said and spoke, and anger was born from sadness.

Lu Ran could feel the power of transformation in her body, it turned out that she was not without energy, but her energy, from love, gradually turned into hate.

She hated him as well as herself.

She did not follow in his footsteps out of love, on the contrary, she followed out of hatred.

Out of professional habits, Lu Ran wanted to persuade her and help her as soon as he heard her negative thoughts at first glance.

However, if one person hates another, where is the exit?

"You know, I'm not the kind of person who doesn't have the power to act. From the day my self-esteem was frustrated, I made up my mind that I would work harder and be better than I had ever been, until one day I would be able to stand in front of him again, equally, in front of him.

No matter what kind of family background he has, what kind of pride he has, how great he is, I have to prove it to him, I want to prove it to myself, I can be better than him. ”

Xia Lan's voice trembled a little, and she almost gritted her teeth and said this bold sentence.

Lu Ran was also a little shocked by her words.

He almost wanted to cheer her on, cheer her on, "You can do it." ”

But when he wanted to speak, there was a gut feeling that something wasn't quite right.

"At that time, I just wanted to prove myself. I worked hard and I got the opportunity to exchange and learn. Together with Mr. Shen's team, I took a plane and crossed the ocean to see a wider world and learn those advanced knowledge. To know how good he has become. ”

"So, do you know?" Lu Ran asked.

Xia Lan nodded, "Well, I know." She looked a little depressed, "I see, he's really better." And yes, it's hard for me to be excellent.

It turns out that his family background is not just as simple as buying a diamond ring as a toy and giving it to me casually.

He brought what he had learned in the blue ocean overseas and, with a large investment from his family, established his own consulting organization and began to set up branches. He is a well-known Chinese psychologist in the United States.

And I, what is it? ”

Lu Ran wanted to say something again, but he didn't interrupt Xia Lan to talk to herself.

"I turned on my computer and searched for his consulting agency, and on the homepage, the background picture was a picture of him, and on the photo, it was his sunny smiling face.

Above is an introduction to his organization and all the services he has launched.

The first is silent hypnosis. It was the silent hypnosis that I had discussed with him eagerly, and it was the silent hypnosis that I had taught and created myself. ”

Hearing this, Lu Ran was stunned.

"I finally understood why he suddenly complimented me on how good I looked that day, why he had been studying with me for so long, and why he left suddenly.

Because, what he wanted, he had already gotten. He noticed me, but never noticed me. ”

This time, Lu Ran became angry and angry, "It's really hypocritical." ”

This is simply plagiarism!

Even if he wanted to restrain his overly excited emotions and prevent himself from saying anything more that would increase Xia Lan's hatred.

But he couldn't help it, gritted his teeth, and said those four words.

"But what can be done? Who can prove that it's my craft? He became a psychologist, and I, what is it? ”

Xia Lan repeated the decadent words again.

"And then, you're back?"

"Well, the time for exchange learning is limited, and I'm back. I came back to set up my own counseling room. ”

Xia Lan briefly explained the reason why she returned to China and took the exam.

"Why, in order to compare with him?" Lu Ran was worried.

"No, I said it, I'm going to prove myself. ”

"Really, is it just for yourself?" Lu Ran asked again.

"I don't know. Maybe I still fantasize that I can defeat him. ”

Xia Lan's eyes turned away, as if thinking.

"Can you quit this game?" Lu Ran asked her.

"What?" Xia Lan didn't understand.

"I mean, you don't follow in his footsteps anymore, you don't hate anymore, and you don't hold on to a game of nothingness anymore. ”

Xia Lan is very smart, she understands this advice.

"Why not?" but she was still unwilling.

"I can't forgive that past, I can't forgive him, I can't forgive myself, no matter how good you are, no matter how beautiful you are, no matter how rich you are, Xia Lan, you will always be inferior. ”

Lu Ran's series of answers broke through the magic barrier in her heart.

"Don't hate it?" Xia Lan looked at Lu Ran and muttered as if asking.

Lu Ran felt that this look was not looking at himself, but blankly, not knowing which direction to look at.

"Hmm. He nodded affirmatively.

Xia Lan seemed calm now, but Lu Ran could feel from her undulating chest that she was taking deep breaths in order to regulate her emotions.

Hating someone, after a long time, will become a habit, will become a motivation, and even, will become something very similar to a dream.

That's a misconception.

Some people are able to perceive the difference between the two, and many more are not.

Xia Lan seemed to be unable to fully accept it for a while.

"So, what about my dreams, do I want to give up?"

If you hate someone for a long time, you can't let it go, and you can't bear it.

Even though hatred is tormenting and painful.

But hate and love are never two opposing emotions.

They are similar.

They are equally deep and intense.

It makes people nostalgic, dependent, and powerful.

Hating a person is not really turning around.

If you hate someone for a long time, it becomes another emotion that is difficult to let go.

Because of hatred, I have put in so much effort, walked so far, trekked through mountains and rivers, and worked tirelessly.

Xia Lan will call this emotion that traps her and hurts her a dream.

Lu Ran was not surprised at all.

It takes time for a person to go from being aware of their own problems to figuring them out.

With someone who has been with you for so long, even if it is someone you hate, it takes time to say goodbye.

Xia Lan is so smart. Lu Ran believed that she would wake up one morning in the future and would truly see the sunshine again.

"You need time. (To be continued.) )