How much a person's life can be better and how bitter it can be is a matter that no one can say.

But Cui Yingyi, the princess of Jiangping County, always thinks of her life, and there is always a feeling of unease in her heart.

The Cui family faced the entanglement of Xiao Shaomian, the third son of the prince of Anxi County, so they had no choice but to marry her.

Before she got married, the emperor gave the Anxi County Mansion an additional reward and gave Xiao Shaomian the title of Jiangping County King.

At that time, she was still a little relieved in her heart, the concubine is the concubine, at least, it is also the royal blood, at least in the future, those noble daughters in the capital who looked down on her because of the fall of the Cui family, when they saw her, they should also salute respectfully and call her a "princess".

But as soon as she got married, her mother-in-law, the princess of Anxi County, asked the king of Anxi County to separate the two of them from the Anxi County Mansion on the grounds that Xiao Shaomian had already been knighted and started a family.

A concubine with no foundation, although he has a title, he is not looked down upon by the emperor, and he leaves the big tree of the palace of Anxi County, what future can he have?

The princess of Anxi County has been planning to kick this obstructive concubine out of the Anxi County Palace, and at this time the scenery has achieved her goal, and people outside praise her for her dedication to the concubine, what else does she have to scruple about?

Originally, the concubine couldn't share much of the family property, and it was even more deducted, when Cui Yingyi and Xiao Shaomian moved out of the Anxi County Palace, in addition to their own dowry, the things they could take away were only ten thousand taels of silver!

Such a county king, I'm afraid it's rare to be poor, right?

Because the little relief brought by her identity immediately turned into the gloom of the road ahead, Cui Yingyi faced only a husband with a cold and sensitive temperament and no long things.

But she can't say a little bit yet.

Whenever she wanted to let go of her former arrogance and persuade her husband to be motivated, Xiao Shaomian would always sneer;

"Heh, am I climbing your Cui clan in the end? It's a pity that I'm not as good as the king of Rongping County, and I'm pleasing to people!"

This is still a grudge against the fact that she once had her heart for the king of Rongping County.

At first, it was just a quarrel, but then it developed into a fight, and after a few years of tossing, even though she had given birth to two children, Cui Yingyi still felt that her life was even darker.

And she is the only one who lives alone in a dark and cold corner, suffering so much that she has a premature birth.

Her cousin Cui Yingjia lived a loving and harmonious life with King Jin in Hedong, giving birth to children, far away from the right and wrong in the capital, and the years were good.

The king of Rongping County, whom she once longed for, married Li Chang'e, the daughter of the Li family, and the husband and wife raised their eyebrows, which is another legend in the capital.

Even the younger sister of the King of Rongping County, the county lord of Rongyang, is also the wife of the prince of Cheng'en Mansion, who is the star of the Cheng'en Mansion, and she says everything in the Cheng'en Mansion, turning the prince of Cheng'en into another famous wife in addition to the emperor.

And the most unsatisfactory is the one on the phoenix seat.

It is said that men are fickle, and even a useless waste like Xiao Shaomian has accepted two side concubines in the mansion, but the emperor's harem, which should have been three thousand beauties, has been monopolized by the queen alone-

This is the most ridiculous thing in the world!

The emperor and his wife have never been able to get over, why can they be dodged by Bai Chenghuan so easily?

The ministers have not made a fuss, asking the emperor to draft a draft, and folding the bullet to impeach the queen for being jealous and unvirtuous, but as the country of Daqi is becoming more prosperous year by year, and the country is peaceful and peaceful, the emperor is no longer the young man who is in the fashion of first ascending the throne and is afraid of a few ministers.

He is young and strong, and he is very assertive, although he will not criticize the ministers because of these letters, but the criticism of these courtiers is like a cloud of smoke in front of him, and he can't get into his heart at all, what should he do.

Song Changqing, who is even more annoying, as the prime minister, never said a word more on this matter, no matter how the courtiers jumped, it was always difficult to twist into a rope, until the tenth year of Taifeng, the queen was still in the harem, and she was unmatched.

Such a woman is really jealous, but she can't stop envious.

Beauty, glory, children, and her husband's unwavering affection, what else does she not have to do as a woman with all that she strives for?

So every time she enters the palace to congratulate her on the New Year's Day, Cui Yingyi always can't help but want to look at the queen a few more times, even if she doesn't follow the rules, she can't suppress the injustice in her heart-

She wanted to find the same traces of sorrow on that delicate face as herself, and how much she wanted to find a few wisps of time and frost on her golden phoenix sideburns.

In that way, she can at least comfort herself, look, there are no invincible women in this world, don't they all have to experience the sorrow of the world, and grow old in the passage of time?

But no matter how irregularly her eyes roamed Bai Chenghuan's body, she never found the trace she wanted to find.

The face of the empress with a distinguished status seems to always be a peaceful smile, with the exceptionally generous favor of the years.

On the New Year's Day of the fifteenth year of Taifeng, when she entered the palace again to congratulate, Cui Yingyi's body was already worse than before in the perennial sorrow and depression, and her wind and cold did not get better all winter.

Originally, she could report her illness and ask not to enter the palace, but she was still unwilling.

Pinching her fingers and counting, they are all nearly forty years old, and it has almost become her obsession to see that woman old and decrepit and lose everything.

But after a thousand calculations, she didn't expect that in front of the women of the palace, she actually accidentally coughed!

The violent sound that suddenly erupted in her chest, like what she had hidden for many years, was menacing, and it was too late to cover it up!

All the ladies and ladies immediately turned their heads to look at her, and the only thing left of the hall that had been noisy and lively just now was the sound of her coughing.

"Cui's, since you are infected with the wind and cold, how can you dare to come to the Imperial Palace?!

Her eldest sister-in-law, the Wang family, who had inherited the decree of the princess of Anxi County, turned back to reprimand her, and between her eyebrows was disgust and contempt for fear of being implicated by her.

The people who were standing closer to her all avoided her, lest they could avoid being contaminated by her.

She stood in the empty corner of the main hall, looking at the phoenix seat in the distance, the woman who also looked at her, tears welling up with despair in the corners of her eyes.

Why, she has never done anything evil, but she just wants to fight for a better life, and she has to come to this point?

She could only watch as the woman got up, and then slowly walked towards her, with the grace and demeanor of a long-time queen, and then stopped not far from her, like a blooming peony, reflecting her withered face.

Cui Yingyi knew that at this time, she should kneel down and ask for guilt.

But her knees can't bend at all—

She wanted to watch Bai Chenghuan's jokes once in her lifetime, but today, everyone saw her own jokes, perhaps, for so many years, everyone in the capital has been watching her jokes!

She raised her hand to cover her face, and the depression that had been held in her heart for more than ten years surged up in an instant, and her eyes were dark, and she didn't know anything.

When Cui Yingyi woke up again, there was a dim light in front of her eyes, and there was a small voice in her ears.

This is not in the main courtyard of the Jiangping County Palace, and there is no such warm feeling in her house.

But she could make out the voices of her children—

“…… Queen's mother, my mother is always not very happy on weekdays, she, she may not like us very much...... But as long as the mother concubine can get better, it doesn't matter if she doesn't like me, I won't make her angry in the future......"

This is the voice of her little daughter, who has always been quiet in temperament.

"Yuanyuan, in front of the queen mother, don't talk nonsense!"

It was the voice of her steady eldest son.

What are they talking to the queen?!

How could she not like her children?

Cui Yingyi struggled to get up, but suddenly heard Bai Chenghuan's voice, like gurgling water:

"Yuanyuan, how can your mother not like you? You are her own child, she is unhappy, there must be her own reasons, but in any case, you are all her heart, but some parents are willing to say it, and some parents are not good at expressing it, do you think about it?"

The little girl, who was only six years old, was silent for a moment, as if she was thinking, but still in a wistful tone:

"But my mother never wanted to hug me, she was always angry that my father was not good at progressing...... She also said that her own life is hard, not as good as the queen's mother, and I don't have the dignity of the princess's sister......"

Cui Yingyi only felt a sweetness in her throat, and a mouthful of blood immediately coughed up-

What kind of fool did she raise, and why didn't she follow her at all, but her father who was making trouble everywhere?

There is no doubt that this is in the palace, but she dares to tell the queen anything!

The earth-shattering coughing sound in the bed tent interrupted the little girl's conversation, and she turned her head and ran after her brother in that direction:

"Mother, you're awake!"

A pair of children poked their heads out of the lifted curtains, and Cui Yingyi subconsciously wanted to slap them, but she raised her hand and stopped in mid-air.

The flesh of her heart, these two debts, how can they not be her flesh and blood!

Bai Chenghuan probably already knows everything-

Her jealousy, her resentment, her unwillingness, and her unease, all know it, right?

At this time, what's the point of hitting your daughter again?

After hesitating, the curtain was silently lifted by the palace people standing on the side, hung with a golden hook, and Bai Chenghuan's face appeared in Cui Yingyi's sight, and her gaze was on Cui Yingyi's raised hand.

Cui Yingyi withdrew her hand as if she was being burned.

She could see a faint compassion and disapproval in that gaze.

"Xiao Baoyou, you come in for me and take my younger brothers and sisters out to play. ”

Cui Yingyi only heard Bai Chenghuan shouting, and then saw Her Royal Highness the princess of Daqi walking in briskly, complaining with a smile:

"But just eavesdropping, you will be discovered by the queen mother!"

On the face of the young princess, it is the wanton flying that a girl should have, and her appearance is similar to the queen's seven points, but with the brightness of the emperor's facial features, like a budding flower bone, fresh and bright.

The girl grinned and took the little girl's hands in front of the bed, and greeted them warmly:

"Aunt Junwang, this is in the palace, you can rest in peace, I'll take them out to play!Come, Yuanyuan, I'll take you to the Imperial Garden to enjoy the plum blossoms, cousin A Xuan, I'll let you go to my brother, cousin They are competing in Guangyuan Palace, it's lively!"

A pair of children looked at Cui Yingyi in unison, waiting for their mother to speak.

Cui Yingyi suddenly felt sad, she was about to face the queen's harsh criticism, why let her children embarrass her here?

She smiled reluctantly:

"In this way, thank you for taking care of them, Ah Xuan, you take Yuanyuan and Her Royal Highness the princess with you, remember to follow the rules. ”

A pair of children grew up in the discord between their parents, and they knew how to read their mother's eyes, so they had to reluctantly glance at their mother, hide their worries, and leave with the princess.

In addition to the palace people in the main hall, only Cui Yingyi and Bai Chenghuan remained.

Maybe her body was too weak, and Cui Yingyi's little heart was not enough to support her, so she struggled to kneel down on the bed:

"The queen mother, the courtiers know that they are guilty...... Please also ask the queen to let the courtiers go out of the palace, so as not to give the mother ...... after being sick."

Bai Chenghuan glanced at her, turned around and walked back, sat down again, and said:

"Your illness has been diagnosed by the doctor, it is depressed in the heart, the liver qi is damaged, it will not be overcome, after all, the depression in a person's heart can only be dissipated by himself, how can he live with others? ”

There's something in the words.

Cui Yingyi had this thought in her mind, sat back down, coughed lowly twice, and laughed sadly:

"Yes, how can a person like Niangniang who is blessed with great fortune understand what kind of dark life a person like me lives?"

"Someone like you?"

Bai Chenghuan looked at Cui Yingyi and shook his head gently.

"Although you were born in the Cui family, you have never harmed me like your eldest sister, nor have you done anything evil, and your children and husbands have come to intercede for you, so this palace is willing to forgive you today, but if you can't forgive yourself in this life, then there is nothing this palace can do. ”

"He has come to intercede with you, too?"

Cui Yingyi was incredulous.

It was expected that the children would come to intercede for her, but how could Xiao Shaomian, who was already wishing for her early death, come to intercede for her? He was afraid that she would implicate the Jiangping County Palace, right?

As soon as Bai Chenghuan saw her expression, he knew that she wanted to be crooked again.

She couldn't help but sigh:

"You are from the Cui family, and your parents have loved you since you were a child, even if the king of Jiangping County is not as good as you want, compared with other Cui daughters, you are already much better. In this life, if you only look at the sky and refuse to look down at the blessings in the palm of your hand, you will never have any fun. ”

"The king of Jiangping County is a mediocre person, but he really treated you well earlier, your children are smart and well-behaved, healthy and healthy, and they are full of your mother concubine, although your mother clan is defeated, but it is still much better than the ordinary small family, why do you want to be like this?

After Bai Chenghuan finished speaking, Cui Yingyi was still stunned.

Bai Chenghuan didn't say anything more, got up and prepared to leave.

The women in the hall are still waiting for her, and Cui Yingyi is just an insignificant person in her life.

She said these words to Cui Yingyi, but she just watched the little sister Yuan enter the palace, her face was full of horror and melancholy, and she couldn't bear it.

She walked a few steps before she heard Cui Yingyi's voice behind her.

"Queen Mother, have you ever had any regrets and grievances in your life?"

"I'm ......"

Bai Chenghuan turned his head with a smile with a little emotion:

"It's not just regrets, but there are a lot of heartbreaking things. But so what? It's all in the past. Did the princess of Jiangping County remember that in the past, the palace was still a crazy woman who was bullied. ”

Cui Yingyi was choked by these words all of a sudden, and she didn't say a word until the queen's figure disappeared into the warm winter sun outside the hall.

Yes, she forgot that Bai Chenghuan's life was not completely perfect, and she was once just a crazy woman in Yuzhou.

The breath that had been circulating in her heart for more than ten years seemed to collapse in an instant because she found that the person she was jealous of had such a fatal flaw.

Heaven turns out that it is fair to everyone, but it is just sweet for a while, bitter for a while.

Since Bai Chenghuan can turn from bitter to sweet, why can't she?

Cui Yingyi's heart suddenly came back, but it seemed to be completely different.