The tea was cold, Shen Nishang poured it and changed the cup again, and he didn't drink it, holding it in his hand to keep warm.

Ling Fei seemed to understand, but he seemed to be a little confused.

Shen Nishang smiled clearly, but it was inexplicably heavy in her heart.

"You...... Didn't you grow up with your mother?" Ling Fei asked.

Hearing this question, Shen Nisheng seemed to pause with the gesture of holding the teacup, and her long eyelashes moved, but she didn't raise her eyes: "She never taught me." ”

After saying only this, Shen Nishang turned back to the beginning of the topic, Ling Fei's initial question, with a calm expression and a somewhat sincere answer: "Regarding trust, it shouldn't be your problem, but ...... on my own. ”

On her own, she had not yet learned to fully trust and surrender, whether to friends or otherwise.

Mrs. Si taught her a lot and changed her a lot.

But there are factors such as the right time and place, as well as people and people.

Among all of them, perhaps only Mrs. Si is the one who knows her the most, so Mrs. Si used the best way to unload her guards, make her attached, and can't help but give the most trust and dependence.

Mrs. Si is tough enough, tolerant and delicate enough, in a sense, this tenacity and tolerance and delicacy may be what she needs most.

So, unconsciously, she paid the trust and dependence that she had never paid in her two lifetimes.

For the first time ever, such attachment and dependence on a person.

Therefore, when facing loss, she has never had the trepidation and confusion.

is different from the father-daughter friendship with Li Chenggong.

In the previous life, she was precocious.

On the day when she found out about her child's condition when she was seven years old, she understood the moment Li Chenggong cried like a child after being questioned by her.

I understood, and I was mentally prepared.

Her father, who was so bold and powerful in the eyes of outsiders that he seemed to be omnipotent, was actually not so powerful.

Because he is extremely powerful in the eyes of outsiders, he clearly knows that he has no way to save his only daughter.

She could die anytime, anywhere.

She was already precocious, but at that moment she became fully mature without a teacher.

Slowly, this maturity turns her into a monster.

Even in front of those closest to her, she will only show what she is willing to show and make the other person feel at ease.

Don't and can't rely on any one person.

Because that will make you miserable and vulnerable, and it will also be a burden to the other person.

I saw my father, who had always shown strength in front of others, cry bitterly in front of my eyes...... She never wanted to experience this feeling a second time.

The best thing to do is to make yourself strong and put the other person at ease.

Then, try to live.

Live to the day when the one who needs himself the most doesn't need him.

Other people don't need themselves so much, so they don't matter that much.

People who don't do anything don't need to care at all.

Of course, she didn't have any more energy to care.

Although her previous life was only thirty years, she executed her life perfectly.

Yes, in her previous life, when she was seven years old, she regarded it as a task that she had to use all her strength and perseverance to complete.

And she did.

But what I never expected was that the plan that should have been put to rest had an unbelievable change.

She died and lived again in another world.

At first, she took the unthinkable as a reward from God.

Especially after Mrs. Tongsi slowly began to have a heart-to-heart relationship, and was slowly moved and emotionally affected by these people and things around her, she was surprised to find that she could actually choose another way of living.

Don't refuse the traction of the outside world on your emotions, let go of yourself appropriately, such a completely different way of living, bring her a novelty and spontaneous pleasure that she has never experienced.

Although she couldn't laugh and scold like Mrs. Si, she learned to laugh from the bottom of her heart, and for the first time, she allowed herself to worry about a trivial thing that could have been restrained.

She also learned to be coquettish.

In her previous life, this was definitely something that she couldn't even imagine.

But she not only did it, but she did it with great ease.

Every time she is coquettish in front of Mrs. Si, she feels pleasure and peace of mind, and Mrs. Si is not the only one.

In addition to these.

Even, she ......

………………

Everything seemed to be moving in a direction she had never imagined or experienced.

Not without her confusion, but she eventually convinced herself.

It's all so good, why not keep trying?

Just a little more courage.

She has never lacked courage.

But just as she was determined to step out and kick the door, the heavens suddenly showed its most malicious side again.

Again.

Second.

The first time was Rong Su.

That night, after she couldn't help revealing her identity to Rong Su.

Heaven and man are forever separated.

And this time, it's Mrs. Si.

She wants to trust the people she wants to rely on, and it seems that they will be taken away one by one.

Her heart, which had been unfirm, became confused and frightened, but instinctively, she did not want people to perceive this confusion and fear.

It can only be blocked with the coldest hard shell.

After forcing herself to think calmly as quickly as possible, she felt that this might be the best way.

For oneself and others, try to isolate everything that can be isolated, so as to minimize those unknowable variables and harms as much as possible.

She thought she was right.

But...... Now it's a little uncertain.

People have no foresight, but they must have near-term worries.

That's what she's always believed in.

But is there really a foolproof thing in this world that can be done with thoughtfulness?

After Rong Su's death, she had vowed not to miss again.

However, she still couldn't protect Mrs. Si.

Instead, it was Mrs. Si who changed her life.

…………

Ling Fei frowned slightly.

After Shen Nishang said something that was close to an explanation, he thought that she would continue to speak, but she was silent with her eyes down, and in a short moment, the expression on her face obviously did not change much, but he had a complex sense of change.

Shen Nishang's heart is not as calm as she appears.

Even he saw a trace of long-term reminiscence in her calm and graceful face.

The short silence actually gave birth to a feeling of vicissitudes.

The person in front of him clearly existed, but it seemed to be distant and unreal in an instant.

Ling Fei didn't like this feeling.

"What are you thinking?" Ling Fei suddenly said.

"Nothing. Shen Nishang raised her eyes and smiled slightly, this smile made her come back from thousands of miles away in an instant, as if the distance at that moment did not exist, "I just suddenly thought of an old saying from before." ”

"What old saying?" Ling Fei lowered his eyes, he was sure that he had not had a delusion.

"Live and learn. Shen Nishang smiled softly, "It's not a profound statement. I just thought about it suddenly, and then suddenly felt that this sentence made a lot of sense. To live, you have to learn, and then experience. ”