That winter, the old monk still took him back.

That clearing was left unattended, and I was afraid that one day, I would not even be able to see the half-man-tall weeds.

The house was burning with charcoal, so it was warmer, and my father said that Zhang Gongzi was coming tomorrow and asked me to prepare well.

I started to feel a little uncomfortable, Chun'er said it was shy, but I didn't think that Zhang Gongzi was so good-looking.

"What are you taking?" I saw Chun'er in her arms with a paper bag, so big.

"The old man ordered to send charcoal to the two monks. ”

I remember that before they left, my father had given them a lot of charcoal, enough to survive the winter...... Sure enough, even monks are insatiable.

"Give it to me!"

Chun'er protected her desperately, "Miss, it was ordered by the master, this ...... Not so good!"

"They are insatiable, and if they indulge it, they will only get worse. ”

Zhang Gongzi was standing behind me, it was the first time he saw me, and I thought he wouldn't like a woman with a tough personality like me.

Unexpectedly, he said, "The girl is right, she shouldn't be indulged." ”

I smiled at him, he didn't even know what was going on, how did he know if I should or shouldn't?

"Chun'er, the charcoal bags in the future must be detained, and they are not allowed to be sent to the temple again. Daddy's place must not be out of order—" I lowered my eyes, "and I should be able to handle it if I send some incense and candles." ”

When I turned around, the Zhang Gongzi was still in place, squinting at me.

"Do you have a problem?"

He came back to his senses and said respectfully, "Master Chen has made an appointment to discuss the marriage, and you want to invite the girl to go with you?"

Marriage...... I looked at Chun'er with some hesitation, I was still laughing earlier, and the child I gave birth to in the future will definitely look good.

But today, why don't I—I like it anymore?

On the hall, I sat on both sides of my father with Zhang Gongzi, and Chun'er said that it was like a family.

I laughed, since I was born, my family has only been my father.

"My kite is still a little young and vigorous, but a good girl, if she is disciplined a little, she will definitely become a good wife. ”

"Old Man Chen said seriously, if Miss Chen Yuan is not virtuous and virtuous, presumably no one in this market can become a good wife. ”

He smiled at me as he spoke, those fox eyes were very charming, and Chun'er's soul was about to hook away.

I turned my head and smiled, "Meng Zhang Gongzi looks up to me, Gongzi is afraid that he still doesn't understand the little girl, and I don't know what the little girl likes and dislikes?"

He smiled respectfully at me, "But I heard it." ”

I coughed and turned my eyes to him, "I hate people with oily tones the most, especially those who have different hearts and flattery. ”

"Kite!" Daddy's face turned blue.

I bit my lip and took a sip of tea, apparently the fox eyes drooped slightly, and I succeeded.

"So—what does the girl like best?"

I looked at him with a slight smile, "I just want to tell the people I like about what I like." I'm sorry, Childe. ”

The fox eyes drooped even more, and he probably knew that I didn't like him, and even hated him a little. It's cruel to a person, but I hope that beautiful fox will find a girl he likes......

That day, Chun'er asked me, why did you do this to Zhang Gongzi?

I called him hypocritical, Chun'er said it was just tactful, I said he had a different heart, and Chun'er said it was a love word to me.

I don't understand the love of the world, I only know that I should be sincere with others. When did you become insincere to your beloved?

That winter, I kept thinking about a question. What is love? Zhang Gongzi is love for me, so will I love Zhang Gongzi?

Until one day at the beginning of spring, Chun'er ran from the backyard in a hurry, and she suddenly told me that the yard was blooming, and the small yellow flowers all over the ground were so beautiful.

Backyard...... Yellow flowers all over the ground......

I remember telling the monk the first thing I wanted him to do: I wanted a field of flowers, full of yellow flowers next spring.

"Miss, it turns out that these grasses will bloom, but it will take ten years. ”

I laughed, those flowers were just grown from rapeseeds, and I watched Chun'er walk in the flower field with the people as if I had imagined ten years ago. Chun'er once said that there was once a flower field here, and perhaps, my mother had also seen it.

"What's wrong with Miss?" Chun'er made me a wreath and put it on for me.

I suddenly asked her a strange question, "Chun'er, do you say that the Buddha has faith in his word?"

"Naturally, don't they all say that their families don't speak?"

The first thing I want him to do, he did for me, so do I have reason to believe that he will not forget the second thing......

However, things always deviated from what I believed, and I seemed to forget that there was a stubborn old man in this house who did not like the flowers.

I was taken to the ancestral hall by the housekeeper and knelt on the cold ground, and I looked my father in the eye and begged him for forgiveness.

"Who told you to plant that flower? When did you stop knowing how to discipline!"

My body trembled slightly, and I still said stubbornly, "Daddy, I, I just want to see the scene that Chun'er said, when my mother was still there, it was clear that there was a ...... there"

With a crisp palm, I rolled down tears in pain, but I still stared at my father stubbornly.

"My daughter just thinks that that is the only thought of my mother when she is alive, I have never met my mother, I just want to see what my mother likes. I don't know what my father is afraid of, why is he stopping me?"

Daddy raised his hand, I thought there would be a slap waiting for me, but I thought, he was also distressed, after all, I looked so similar to my mother.

"Kite......" I could hear his voice trembling, and I would still look at my hands guiltily after he hit him.

"That's what your mother loved most when she was born, kite, every yellow flower there is piercing the heart of a father——"

Every yellow flower is piercing my father's heart——

I think I'm too selfish, and I forgot how much my dad loves my mother. The yellow flowers all over the ground, why don't they remind him of the past more than ten years ago?

I lowered my eyes, I knew my father's obsession, and he felt that it was something he owed to his mother. That's why he believed in Buddhism, so he never raised flowers for ten years.

I suddenly figured out that love is not the so-called respect for each other, but only after parting to know how to be unforgettable. But Zhang Gongzi and I are not like that.

On the second day, my father still ordered someone to bulldoze all the yellow flowers, and those yellow flowers were ruthlessly broken when they were at their most beautiful.

"Miss, why are you crying?"

I stood in the spring breeze, smelled the residual fragrance of flowers and said, "It turns out that it is not the Buddha's words and no faith, it is me, and I should not ask the Buddha." ”

Chun'er laughed at me, saying that she was getting more and more incomprehensible about my words, and it was true that the monk also said that my words were a little profound.

They won't know, what I'm looking forward to, and they won't know what I've lost all of a sudden.

I'm beginning to understand that that kind of flower only blooms once in ten years, but like an epiphany, it destroys all after one night.