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"Not to mention whether that incident really happened. ”

Lu Ran still didn't want to, and couldn't answer Xu Le with certainty, that thing was true.

At this time, he thinks that this issue is no longer the most important.

"One thing is for sure. Your father had always wanted to have a boy. That's what he thought from before you were born. ”

Lu Ran put away his smile and looked at Xu Le calmly.

This is a fact that he can affirm, and it is also a fact that Xu Le needs to face and accept.

Running away is useless, it only increases your own doubts and anxiety.

It's time to take the courage and admit it.

Hearing this, Xu Le's heart chuckled, and his expression darkened.

Although, she has always listened to her mother's words, she is a little suspicious, and because of her father's majesty and strict demands on herself, she is under pressure and a little hateful, but she really heard someone say it so surely.

She still felt uncomfortable.

Lu Ran still maintained a calm and objective tone, hoping that Xu Le could look at this matter objectively:

"It's a matter of your father's perception. It's not that he doesn't like you, he just doesn't like girls. There is an essential difference here.

It has to do with his old family, his philosophy, his environment. It was a prejudice that was fixed in his mind.

Any girl born into your family will be treated with prejudice by him.

It's not your fault, it's his.

You don't need to punish yourself for his fault, just to get his approval. ”

"But, he's my father......"

"You've grown up. Your life is your own. You are no longer the weak baby who needs his kindness and forgiveness to survive. You no longer need to please his preferences, you have the ability to choose your own life.

You're just used to the endless pressure he brings you, and you forget that you have the ability and you can already say no to him. ”

"But ......"

Xu Le covered her face, this question was too difficult, she felt that her brain was about to move, but her chest hurt.

Lu Ran slowed down his tone: "Your father just doesn't like girls, but that doesn't mean he doesn't love you." ”

Xu Le raised her head, and her eyes were already shining with crystals: "What do you mean?"

"Girl, it's just an attribute of you, a gender attribute. You have many other attributes, first of all, you are his child. That's it, whether he really had a heart or not, but that time, he didn't do it, and he won't hurt you again after all.

You're right, he's your dad.

After so many years, careful care and strict upbringing, perhaps, he himself didn't realize how much he loved you.

He asks of you, you try to perform, and he sees it all.

Human emotions are mutual.

He has gone from a father who can't accept girls to a father who has been raising you for more than 20 years.

It's hard to measure how much this will change.

But without love, I think, it's hard to do.

It's time to talk to your father. ”

The little bit of sparkle in the corner of Xu Le's eyes has slowly dried.

endured the pain, listened to Lu Ran finish this paragraph, and there were some things that I could see more clearly.

It doesn't seem to hurt as much as I imagined.

"You're right, you're very objective, Dr. Lu. He's not a bad guy. After all, he was my father. ”

In the eyes of a child, being hurt and abandoned will cast a huge shadow and fear in her heart, so much so that she forgets that she has grown up and no longer needs to be afraid.

After licking a wound for a long time, you forget that you can heal yourself.

When I was a child, I looked terrible on the night road, but when I really walked it again, I found that it turned out that this path through the darkness was not far away.

A time of fear to face the heart, really thought through, and there is no imaginary pain.

After talking about the root cause of the disease, Lu Ran needs to adjust her current symptoms again.

The internal injuries were treated, and then the skin was recuperated.

"Speaking of the fear symptoms you've had during this time. It does have to do with your father, or rather, with the relationship between the two of you.

He demands from you all the year round, and you please all the year round. Demanding oneself all year round, even, has become a habit. You are used to such a demanding job, a high-intensity life.

In my heart, I always have fear.

You're afraid that you won't be able to satisfy him, that he doesn't really love you. ”

Xu Le nodded, she had fully accepted Lu Ran's analysis.

"The fear symptoms you have had during this time have come from this root. However, it is also inseparable from the fact that you have put too much pressure on yourself during this time. You've always been afraid that you won't be able to do it yourself, is this time any different?"

"If I want to say different, maybe it's me this time, I'm worried that I really won't be able to do it. Like you said, I'm scared I'm going to lose. And, and there's a real chance I'll lose. ”

"Have you never lost?" seems unlikely in reality.

"Of course, there are times when we lose, it's just that this time, it's different. ”

"What's the difference?"

"Dad said that he was old and hoped that someone would take his place and help him manage the company. He had considered me, but, not enough in my abilities.

If I fail this time, he will completely disbelieve in my abilities.

Then I'll never have a chance. ”

"Is it important for you to manage a company?"

"Company ...... Maybe not so important. But, then, I probably won't ever have a chance to prove to him that I can. He's not going to give me a second chance. ”

It seems that Xu Le's father's education of her has unconsciously infiltrated her blood. It can be said that she is the only child in the family, and she is being raised as a boy.

Her father's demands have long been internalized into her demands on herself.

"If your life is your own, and your growth is your own, prove to him that it is so important?"

This question made Xu Le fall silent again.

After the silence, she smiled softly, this time, there was a little less pressure and tiredness in her smile: "I think it's more important to talk to him now." ”

"You're smart. Ms. Xu. It's time to talk to your father. If you have any needs, you are always welcome to make an appointment to contact me, and you can have a long-term communication and consultation together, which will help improve your relationship and resolve your misunderstandings on both sides. ”

"Thank you, Dr. Lu. Ms. Xu stretched out her hand and shook Lu Ran solemnly. (To be continued.) )