Chapter 110: My Own Way
When Ye Jing returned to the restaurant, Ling'er was holding orange juice with her lips in her cup, but she didn't drink anything, she just sat there in that posture, like an empty shell.
"He's gone......" Ye Jing sat down beside her and said softly.
"Huh?" Ling'er looked up and put down her drink in slow motion, "Let's go...... Gone?"
"Hmm......" Ye Jing licked her lips, "Before leaving, he said that he wanted you to come on...... That one...... ...... as an idol"
"Did he really say that?" asked Ling'er, her eyes slightly aura, but still covered with a layer of sadness.
"Yes...... Ye Jing nodded, pondered for a moment, and still couldn't help but say, "He also said...... I'm sorry, but in fact, he's scared of losing you...... How can I say it......"
"I understand...... Ling'er raised her hand to signal Ye Jing not to speak, "I understand......"
Ling'er took a sip of the drink, and while the sweet and sour juice swallowed down her throat, a stream of hot tears also poured out of her beautiful cheeks, making the girl couldn't help but whimper.
Ye Jing sighed, wanting to reach out and support her shoulder and comfort her, but she was a little worried about whether she would take advantage of the danger of doing so. However, before she could make a final decision, Ling'er on the other end had already stopped sobbing by herself, wiped her eyes, and took a deep breath as if she wanted to swallow back the sadness that came out of crying.
"Before, because of Secretary Lu's relationship, everyone will, intentionally or unintentionally, make me and Brother Yuwen a pair......," Ling'er said softly, "It is precisely because of this relationship that since I walked out of the mountain, my life has always been related to this funding, and when people stand in front of me, I can feel that their eyes are not looking at me, but looking at Brother Yuwen behind me and even Secretary Lu through me......"
Ye Jing didn't speak, she understood that there might be an easy road in front of Ling'er, but it was also a path that a strong girl like Ling'er would not choose, even if the world thought you were wrong, but you can be so proud of being wrong, isn't it what youth should be?
"I don't want to ...... like that," Ling'er continued, "I know it's going to be very uncomfortable, whether it's Brother Yuwen, or me, or even more people. But...... If you want to have a new future, you have to say goodbye to the past, right?"
"I don't dare to make a conclusion about what is the right thing to do...... Ye Jing pursed her lips, "But I know that every time you are on the stage of Little Red Riding Hood, the audience is indeed looking at you, and all the attention is because of your name, not who or what is behind you!"
Ling'er choked back tears and looked at Ye Jing, her eyes were as beautiful as usual, so beautiful that people didn't dare to look at them directly.
Ye Jing scratched her hair, avoided the direct gaze with Ling'er, and continued after pouring a large mouthful of orange juice: "What I want to say is that no matter how tired you are, you may get hurt, but walking on your own legs is something that has been engraved into our genes since the day humans learned to stand up straight. If I feel tired from walking, I want to ...... Just sit down and rest for a while...... No need to ......"
"Ye Jing ......" Ling'er suddenly pounced on Ye Jing, snuggled tightly in her arms, tears like a string of beads with broken threads, choked up and forth intermittently, "Woo~~ I didn't do anything wrong, right?"
"Huh?" Ye Jing opened her mouth and was stunned for a while, until the fragrance of the girl in her arms evoked a trace of softness in Ye Jing's heart.
Ye Jing stretched out her arms tremblingly, and her crossed arms made Ye Jing suddenly feel that Ling'er was so petite, and how her thin shoulders could bear the hardships along the way......
Secretary Lu's help, Brother Yuwen's feelings, the expectations of her parents and fellow villagers, and the eyes of the people around her, these forces that were intended to help her became a burden that crushed her in the end. However, as kind as she is, she wants to get rid of all this, but she is reluctant to abandon those people and things, and every sentence of 'you have changed' said by the people around her sounds like a reproach, alienating everything in the mountains that she has never forgotten in fact.
When I left the small mountain village and those people, am I still me? Sometimes I dream that the girl in the mountains looks at me as if she is looking at a stranger, and when I suddenly wake up, even the girl I see in the mirror does not seem to be like me. The girl was scared, afraid that she would lose herself and the important people around her.
How so? If I'm really wrong, can it all come from? The girl was exhausted and exhausted in the back and forth of the swing.
Ye Jing gently hugged the girl, and Ling'er's tears wet the clothes on her chest. There will always be times when we regret every decision we have made, and we will cry out in the emptiness of our hearts, thinking that we are too weak to be defeated by the air, and we will sit limply in the corner and not want to do anything......
Yes, it's just that we feel tired, and as time fades around us, we instinctively cling to the wall to get back up, take a deep breath of the fresh air outside, and stretch to try to forget everything that was before. It's not to give up, it's not to wait, but to take a temporary rest, in the place you like, to accompany the people you like, and to rest together in the pure land of the soul......
Ye Jing accompanied Ling'er and waited quietly for the moment when the wind and waves were calm......
"Ye Jing, thank you......"
Sitting in the car back, Ling'er kept rubbing the bell on Ye Jing's backpack that she gave her.
Ye Jing smiled: "Actually...... I didn't do anything, just if you're okay. ”
"Well, I figured it out......" Ling'er said and opened the window, the coolness of her nose was refreshing, "No wonder Sister Yao is always annoyed that I can't open it, I think, after today, I won't treat those as a burden anymore." I'm still me, I'm not the same, I'm just moving from the mountains, haven't I?"
"It's great that you can think like this~~" Ye Jing shook her neck, looked up at the dim lighting on the roof of the car, and couldn't remember how long Ling'er had been crying in her arms, what she cared more about at the moment was Ling'er's relaxed smile.
The heart is like a double wire net, there are thousands of knots, when everything suddenly opens up, it means a new beginning.
"Goo~~~"
Ye Jing hurriedly covered her stomach in embarrassment, causing Ling'er on the side to giggle.
"Are you hungry? That's right, because you didn't eat at night because of my business......
"Ahh......h......h
Ling'er lowered her head embarrassedly, for her, there was really no position to say anything more at this time, all she could do was to silently remember Ye Jing's good in her heart.
Ye Jing pursed her lips, and then asked curiously, "What, didn't you eat anything at night?"
"I've been eating very little at night...... That ......" Ling'er said and pointed to her slender and soft waist, "Work needs~~"
"Oh~~" Ye Jing subconsciously pinched her abdomen, and then quickly lowered her arms as if she was suddenly awake, pretending to look around.
It just so happened that the car also arrived at the station at this time, and after pulling Ye Jing out of the car, Ling'er looked at Ye Jing with a smile.
Ye Jing still didn't dare to make eye contact with her, put her hands in her pockets, and paced in place for a few steps.
"Okay, then you go that way, I'll go this way......" Ling'er sighed, "So...... Goodbye?"
"Hmm...... Uh-huh......" Ye Jing nodded, "That's it, uh...... Good night?"
Ling'er glanced at Ye Jing a few more times, and curled the corners of her mouth: "Bye-bye~~"
"Bye-bye~~"
After seeing Ling'er walk away, Ye Jing turned around and left, unconsciously raised her hand to cover her chest, and on her clothes, Ling'er's tears had dried out. Ye Jing sniffed, smoothed out the folds on her clothes, and during the movements, she could vaguely smell the perfume on Ling'er's body from her hands. It is like a wild flower in the field, clear and melodious, lively and charming.
Ye Jing came back to her senses, only to feel that her heart was pounding.
"Ling'er...... She's a good girl......
"Wow......" Ye Jing shook her head, as if she was going to drive something out of her brain, when the mobile phone suddenly rang happily, startling her.
On the caller ID, Lu Jingying's name was like a fire, and Ye Jing's heart tightened. As if in a hurry to make up for some mistake, he hurriedly picked up the phone.
"Hey, Lu Jingying?"
"Xiao Jing, are you free tomorrow?do you want to come to me......" Lu Jingying's voice on the other end of the phone sounded very interested, but she felt that Ye Jing's reaction seemed to be different from usual, and asked with concern, "What's wrong? Are you feeling unwell?"
"I didn't ...... No......" Ye Jing hurriedly denied, "Ming...... Tomorrow?"
As if being slowly thawed, Ye Jing felt that the cells in her body were activated layer by layer, full of exciting anticipation.
"Okay, okay, I'll come after class tomorrow!" Ye Jing cheered into the phone.
"Then it's decided, everything here is almost arranged, I was about to invite you to visit, and ......" Lu Jingying licked her lips and said softly, "I haven't seen each other for a long time, haven't you?"