Frankly speaking, I am a relatively lazy person, I have never been in the habit of writing a diary, the reason why I will write today is only because this diary is a gift from a very important person to me, she said to me, people sometimes inadvertently forget some important things, in the long life lost direction, looking back only a blur, can not find their own starting point. I think what she said makes sense, a good memory is better than a bad pen, and I am writing this now, so that when I feel lost in the future, I can open up and see the journey I have experienced, and draw some strength from it.

My name is Ye Jing and I am a girl. People may not be able to imagine that I was once a boy, an ordinary boy who, like most people, had no achievements but lived a serious and down-to-earth life, and I never regretted the twenty years of my life, and I never prayed to the gods to let me start from scratch, never ......

Well, I'll be honest, it doesn't seem to make much sense to lie in your own diary. In fact, there are times when I am confused, lost, or even frustrated and inferior, I wish I could turn back time and let me go back to that starting point and start all over again according to my ideas...... But...... Who hasn't thought so?

So, when this bizarre thing really happened to me, fortunately or unfortunately, I had to think, why?

Although going back in time would theoretically allow me more time to think about this esoteric question that seems to never have an answer, in reality, I don't have much time to sort out these facts, because I have become a girl!

I admit that I was interested in girls and other beings, but liking burgers and being a burger are completely different things! I don't understand why the gods play such a joke on me, I feel like I've come to a whole new world, everything I knew before is gone in an instant, this undoubtedly subverts everything I knew before, needless to say how panicked I was at first, but fortunately there is still a presence in this world that can calm me down.

My home, my parents, their concerned eyes, their hard-working posture, I was relieved for a moment.

It's not the world, it's just me.

When I think about it, everything becomes much simpler, the sea is never short of a drop of water, and for the six billion people living on this planet, no matter what I become, it seems that nothing will change.

After getting through the initial shock, I gradually began to realize that I was still me, although the gender transition made my behavior quite strange in the eyes of others, but the world is the same as a hundred kinds of people, and what I show is not a different temperament in their eyes?

So I began to try to adjust to my new identity, which was not easy, but it wasn't all boring, and although I still resisted it, the gods were kind enough to let me inherit the good things about my parents' appearance, adding to this otherwise terrible experience.

Yes...... At this point, I'm beginning to hesitate to write about my adventures, and if I'm already unbelievable about the above, then maybe it's even more crazy to talk about it.

Anyway, I met some people, some people from the future, who in some way took the place of the gods and explained to me how all this happened to me, and I didn't remember a lot of them, but what they experienced was more interesting to me. Mr. Xue, who pursues the foresight of the future and decides with the past, Yang Yue, who tries to make up for the past and refuses to accept the future, and that Xiaozhi, repeats a certain moment in reality that makes him worry.

They are all lost in time, and despite the pain and sorrow, they never give up, trying to find their own true meaning. So...... What about me?

What should I do now, or what can I do?

"We always overestimate our pain and underestimate our happiness. ”

I loved it, and when I returned to my old campus, I was even more convinced of its subtlety.

Of course, I have to admit that I didn't treat everyone in the class honestly and honestly, and there were always one or two personality types that I couldn't accept anyway, didn't I? But to my surprise, when I looked for them again in my memories after many years, even all the unhappiness in the past became a glittering treasure now.

When I met those old acquaintances again, it was true that I almost couldn't hold back my tears. So, I suddenly felt like I was in a mood of ascending joy, going through all kinds of beings, encountering dangers, and making me feel as if everything had become less important, and the only people I could care about now were them, the familiar strangers.

A few of my previous best friends......

Tang Jiajun, who has always been hippie and smiling, is burdened with the burden brought to him by his family.

The seemingly carefree Gu Kai is the responsibility given to him by the heir's family.

and Jiang Tao, who is ignorant and reckless, also adheres to the courage and ideals of his father.

And also......

And also......

Do you want to write about her?......

It's decided, let's write......

I can't get around it.,Since it's a diary.。

What to say, she is the most important thing to me.

I don't want to write if I could, because once I put it on paper, every time I read it, it will undoubtedly be a curse that reminds me when to hurt and when to grieve. Somewhere, however, I can't wait to write down every moment about her, even if I can write her name one more time, it will make me look forward to it.

Lu Jingying, Lu Jingying, Lu Jingying......

What a beautiful name, belonging to an equally beautiful girl, the first time we met, I forgot to breathe, forgot my heartbeat, at that moment, she was my whole world.

In the past, her beauty haunted me, and now, her heart haunts me.

In view of my current situation, I once thought about trying to cross this hurdle so that I could accept the relationship with Lu Jingying more calmly, but I soon found that it was impossible.

At least, I can't......

Because, I love her......

I don't know if Lu Jingying is aware of my feelings for her, let alone guess how she will think of this relationship, and I don't even want to think about every day after that. I wanted to do it all over again, but because of her, I just want to leave everything the way it is, and not change anything.

I remember that on Crescent Island, I kissed her for the first time, and I didn't look back, and when I came back to my senses, I felt a wave of fear, as if I had just realized that I had become a girl, as if I stepped on the air in front of the cliff, and my heart fell. I don't know how I faced Lu Jingying at the time, but I remember that there was silence between us for a long time until she smiled and stretched out her hand to tell me that she had learned how to kiss.

Since then, there has been a secret between us, a tacit understanding that is as thin as a window screen, but cannot be pierced, a tacit understanding that is sad but cannot bear to lose.

Maybe I'm not mature enough to use reason to suppress all unrealistic dreams.

Or maybe I'm too accidental, the waves are sweeping the sand, only by believing in the original true feelings can I feel that life is still sunny and fragrant.

Unfortunately, as I said before, we are so small, so powerless, the world is not up to me, change is the eternal truth of this universe.

No matter where you are, time can always find you accurately, whether you want to or not, and take you step by step to a certain end. The people around you will leave you, and you will leave the people around you. The three years of high school passed by again, and although I would say to myself every morning that I must spend every day seriously this time, the moment I walked out of the college entrance examination room, I thought back to the previous things, but it was the same as last time, and it became blurry again like seeing flowers in the fog.

In accordance with the previous agreement with his father, Gu Kai set foot on the other side of the ocean in the midst of everyone's silent farewell.

Jiang Tao relied on the sprint in his third year of high school to get a high score that even he couldn't believe, so that he was very grateful to me who often tutored him in his homework, at that moment, I seemed to see me as a boy in his eyes, because at this moment, he was 100% grateful to a friend from the bottom of his heart.

Of course, Lu Ying is quite satisfied with her test scores, although her grades are not high, but fortunately, she is not a greedy person.

There are also Tang Jiajun and Xiao Xun, although they were not admitted to the same school, I believe that they will eventually be able to come together. I bless both of them, and partly because I'm thinking......

If time can't give me the answer, can space?

Lu Jingying was finally admitted to the Academy of Fine Arts, and she was very happy, and so was I.

It's just that it means we're going to be separated......

In the last summer vacation, she gave me this beautiful diary with a golden lock, and told me to remember to write down the things I had forgotten, even if I was unhappy, the things I wanted to forget might be a treasure in the future.

I certainly gave her a gift, a sealed piggy bank......

Hehe, I don't know what I thought at the beginning, I just remember telling her.

"A little bit of pay, a little bit of accumulation, when the piggy bank is full, it is the happiest moment of harvest after a long time......"

Lu Jingying smiled sweetly that day.

But after all, it's just a piggy bank, and since there is no designed outlet, if you want to take it out when the money is full, I'm afraid you'll have to break it, of course I don't really mind if she does it, maybe she's curious to see what is inside the piggy bank.

"I'm not going to break it, it's beautiful to look at, it's really broken, I'm afraid there's nothing else in it......," she said, "some things, let it remain as it is, break the casserole and ask in the end, I'm afraid it will only ruin this beautiful ......"

I nodded and listened to you......

The promise made to you is valid at all times and in all places.

Once again, I will welcome a new life, and once again, I will face an unknown future.

If there is love in the sky, it should be destined to meet you in a long life.

If you are interested, you will be acquainted with you in the vast sea of people.

Life......

If only it is as first seen