Chapter 144: A scar that can never be repaired and dare not face
ps: Today's dinner, I drank too much, and I can only have one, please forgive me!
When Gigi and Alice returned to George's side, George just put away the fishing rod and was about to return to the room with the keg, Qiao Tao's appearance relieved his mother's longing for her relatives and could relieve her mother's depression for many years.
"Today's fish is still good, let Aunt Zhang give us a fish soup, but unfortunately my mother is probably not in that mood now, my mother's skill in making fish soup is a must, as long as you drink it once, it will definitely be addictive." ”
George raised the bucket in his hand to Gigi and Alice, and pointed to the five or six crucian carp in it.
"Hmph"
Gigi gave George a roll of the eye and snorted to express his dissatisfaction, the reality of the situation was too different from what George told her, where is this villa, it is obviously a self-sufficient manor.
Of course, she expressed her dissatisfaction with George more, after all, when George narrated it to her, it was simply heaven and earth with reality.
"There are some things you don't have to worry about, as long as you know that I have you here. ”
George stepped forward and grabbed Gigi's hand and placed it on his chest, allowing it to feel his heartbeat.
"Brother, can you not be so numb, your sister is still here, you also have to consider my feelings, I don't have a boyfriend yet. ”
Seeing the movements of George and Gigi, Alice expressed her dissatisfaction with George with a disdainful expression.
She knew very well what her brother was, but she didn't expect him to have such a fleshy side, which made Alice a little unbelievable and unbearable.
"Boyfriend, what you need now is to keep your credits at the top and guarantee that you can get into college, as for boyfriends, before you enter college, I know that one will educate one.
You'd better forget everything you've learned around Paris, Paris is walking in the direction of a celebrity, you can't, my sister is noble, not everyone can touch it. ”
Hearing Alice's words, George glared at her, causing Alice to shrink her neck involuntarily, she knew that since George said this, he would definitely be able to do it.
It's just that she has received Western education since she was a child, and unlike typing that takes care of both Eastern and Western education since she was a child, she didn't force her mother to learn some Eastern thoughts, her thinking is very Western, and she is still a little unwilling to control George, just because George has taken care of her since she was a child, and over time, George, who is also a father and brother, has formed a certain majesty in her heart, so that she dare not refute.
Back in the living room, George brought the fish in the bucket to the kitchen, said hello to Aunt Zhang, and returned to the living room.
At this time, the mother's mood had completely calmed down, and she just pulled Qiao Tao to keep asking about her grandparents and uncle.
Faced with this situation, George did not interject, but sat quietly to the side, holding Gigi's hand tightly, and listening to their conversation.
It was also the first time he knew what kind of ordeal his grandfather and uncle had endured after his mother left.
Although I know, but this is a regret caused by history, but this is an unsolvable problem, no one has a way to make up for the original regret, fortunately they are living well now, which is enough, after all, there are many people in that era who did not survive, completely dissipated in the long river of history.
"Mom, there are some things that just let it pass, we all need to look forward, grandparents and uncles are waiting for your return, thirty years of regret can not continue, while you can make up for it now, just make up for it, grandparents are not young, there is not much to wait. ”
George saw that his mother was about to cry again because Qiao Tao was talking about his uncle, so he quickly got up and walked to her side and sat down, hugged her and whispered comfort and persuasion.
"I'm afraid of the situation before, I'm afraid of seeing the disappointed eyes of my parents and brothers, I don't dare, I've been away from home for 30 years, and I'm missing your grandparents and uncles all the time, but I don't dare to go back, even if I know in my heart that the times are different, and there will be no such situation.
But every time I think about that situation, the courage I finally mustered up is worn away, no one doesn't want to go home, don't want to see their parents, it's just that the situation is too terrible.
You didn't go through that era, you don't know what it was like, they locked me up in a dilapidated little house for five days, asked me to write a whistleblower letter, dissociated myself from your grandparents and uncles, and turned to criticize them.
I don't know what my father and brother have done wrong, and I need to criticize them, and I need to cut them off, and I have nothing to do with them.
I'm really scared of that.
At that time, I couldn't imagine, I didn't dare to see, you don't know, what kind of mood I felt in my heart when I fled, hesitation, loss, and pain.
I've missed them all the time since I left, but I just don't dare to go back. ”
Jory leaned on George's arms, while talking, she unconsciously left tears, she has been paying attention to the situation on the other side, knowing that earth-shaking changes have taken place, because of the shadow in her heart, she just dare not take that step.
George took the tissue handed over by Gigi, gently wiped away the tears from his mother's eyes, and sighed.
If it were him, he didn't know if he could take this step, after all, the situation back then was too crazy, and the shadow left was enough for a person to spend a lifetime to erase.
In the scattered information and online circulation that has been handed down from later generations, George was able to paint a complete picture of the situation in his mind.
One can imagine how great the fear in my mother's heart was.
Since he inherited George's body and continued to survive in his place, then he has to pay his due responsibility to his family, after all, he is the real pillar of the family.
Looking at his mother who was immersed in his own memories, George's heart ached for no reason, the regret caused by history made many people forever immersed in it and did not dare to come out, what kind of situation did he give to the people who experienced it at that time, outsiders really can't understand it, only the parties themselves can experience the panic, hesitation, and never want to face it again,
Escape is the best way, it is the way they use to numb themselves, this kind of person is not only the mother in front of him, there are too many people who will never dare to set foot on their homeland, and would rather die of old age, this is the situation.
Even if they have achieved fame and have investments in their homeland, the people in their homeland are constantly contacting him, hoping that he can go back, but because of the pain they once had, they would never dare or want to face it.