Lu Ran sat quietly opposite Ms. Yin and handed her a few pieces of paper one after another. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

But she didn't say too much, just waited patiently for her to vent her emotions to the fullest.

After a long while, Ms. Yin stopped her tears, and the emotions of the surging crowd finally calmed down a little.

She slowly removed her hand from her face and wiped the wet corners of her eyes with a tissue.

A pair of red eyes after crying looked at Lu Ran blankly.

At this time, Ms. Yin is no different from any fragile woman.

She doesn't have three heads and six arms, and she is not invulnerable, no matter how strong a woman is, there is a reason behind her that makes her have to be strong.

"Ms. Yin, do you understand yourself?" After Ms. Yin was almost calm, Lu Ran asked with a smile.

"What?" Obviously, Ms. Yin didn't understand what Lu Ran meant for a while.

"You just said why he can't understand you, so, I want to ask, do you understand yourself?"

"What...... What do you mean?" Ms. Yin frowned slightly and asked again in confusion. "I do want my son to understand me, but why do you ask me if I understand myself? I know what I'm doing, so how can I not understand myself?"

But if you fully understand what you're going through, if you understand what you're doing, why don't you have the courage to talk to your son, why don't you have the courage to tell him that you've really done your best?

And why are you afraid that one day, your son will stand in front of you and ask you, why did you betray your father?"

"This ...... Because, I was afraid that he would not understand what I was doing, and he thought that I had abandoned the past and sought my own happiness, and I ......" Ms. Yin searched her mind for the answer, trying hard to explain.

"If you don't think you've betrayed his father, your husband, why should you be so afraid?

I didn't dare to take that step, and I didn't even want to fight for myself a chance to argue.

Isn't it because you don't have the confidence?"

Is it a lack of heart?

Ms. Yin was speechless when asked by Lu Ran.

Why is it so scared, why don't you stop trying, don't argue?

"Did I betray him?"

Ms. Yin asked softly to herself.

When she asked herself like this, her mind flashed with the indifferent eyes that her son had once looked at her.

There was a look in that look of alienation and questioning.

Why are you so scared?

It's because I'm afraid to face this look that I don't even have the opportunity to argue for myself.

Is your heart weak?

Right.

If Dewen were to look at him like that again, would I be able to tell him with confidence that I hadn't done anything to be sorry for his father?

Ms. Yin asked herself.

"I, I can't. Ms. Yin blurted out. "I can't do it. ”

"What can't be done, what can't be done?" Lu Ran asked.

Ms. Yin did not directly answer Lu Ran's question, she muttered to herself: "Weak heart, you are right, but why should I have a weak heart? I have obviously worked very hard, very hard, why do I always feel sorry for someone."

I seem to feel sorry for my dead husband and I feel sorry for my son, and I don't know what that feels like......"

When Ms. Yin said this, she crossed her hands on her chest, looking very depressed and uncomfortable.

She felt as if her chest was shrouded in a layer of fog, and she was about to see the answer in her heart, but at the critical moment, it was covered by layers of fog.

Lu Ran could see that she needed someone to help her now and disperse the smoke that was an eyesore.

"You feel guilty, you always feel a little indebted, but you can't tell why?" Lu Ran tried to help her, describing his feelings.

"Yes, that's what you say. ”

"Think about it, what's the debt? Is it because you moved out of the house you used to live in, or because you got a new job, you have a new life, you have a new boyfriend?"

Lu Ran threw out some possibilities and guided Ms. Yin to do some reflection.

Ms. Yin thought for a moment, nodded lightly, and said, "That's right, I think you're right."

I don't know, maybe deep down, I'm just like Dewen. He misses his father, and he always remembers that his father said that they will always be together.

For him, his father didn't really leave him, he didn't leave our home.

And now, I have a new life, and it is possible that I will have a new man to live in the house.

This is a betrayal in his opinion. ”

Lu Ran continued with her words, "And Huang Dewen is your son, you can understand and experience his thoughts and feelings."

Although you have become more and more estranged in recent years, it is undeniable that you are still his closest relative.

Since you can understand and appreciate his thoughts, and since you love your only flesh and blood in your heart, you must also hope that you can meet your son's expectations in your heart, and you don't want to let him suffer, let alone let your son down.

However, because you know him too well, you know that these efforts you have made are, in his eyes, a betrayal.

And this kind of thinking of his also affects your judgment of yourself. There are times when you are able to defend yourself and shout that you have done nothing wrong. But more often than not, you will stand in his shoes, doubt yourself, feel empty, as if you have done something wrong. ”

When Lu Ran analyzed her mental journey and behavioral logic.

Ms. Yin was silent.

She carefully went over every sentence that Lu Ran had just said in her mind.

"Yes," her voice trembled a little, trembling with surprise from being told what she was saying, "you're right. It's because I love him, so I don't know how to face him. ”

She was a little flustered and overwhelmed.

"There is nothing wrong with loving someone, and there is nothing wrong with loving your loved ones, but you must understand that there is nothing wrong with pursuing your own happiness.

This is not a betrayal of the deceased, but the freedom and rights of every human being.

You and your son need to understand this truth. ”

"My son and I need ......," Ms. Yin clearly hadn't fully comprehended, she was still thinking.

Lu Ran continued: "A person you love deeply, the pillar of the family, has left you.

Of course, it will express nostalgia, sadness, and inseparability, but in addition to these, there is one more thing that is equally important.

That's goodbye.

Your husband, who is Huang Dewen's father, must have said that to his son before he died out of nostalgia and the desire to comfort his son.

But I have to say that I don't quite agree with his expression. His words made Huang Dewen blur the line between life and death, so that he never really said goodbye to his father in his heart.

even gave him a beautiful fantasy about death. ”

Lu Ran looked at Ms. Yin's eyes seriously and said, "It is precisely because of this that Dewen does not allow any changes in the family, and he does not want you to live a new life." Because he always felt that his father was still at home.

Since his father has not completed the farewell ceremony with him, you, as his mother, should help him to do it, and he needs your help. (To be continued.) )