Chapter 469: Two Loves
Zhang Zixuan listened to the conversation between the two, and he couldn't tell what it was like in his heart. The girl in front of him was the woman in his dream, and he should care about her very much, but unfortunately, she didn't seem to care about the feeling between them. Or maybe as she acted, she didn't have that familiar feeling with him at all, just like the first time they met, she felt that the other person was so familiar, and she didn't know each other at all.
Although Zhang Zixuan didn't ask Youran in person, he was not stupid, not only was he not stupid, but he was also known as a young genius, but he clearly remembered the leisurely expression at that time, confused, strange, and even a little unhappy, all because of his rude staring at her, which caused her negative emotions, but there was no familiar feeling like him.
It is because of this that he has never associated the person in his dreams with the little girl he met by chance in all these years. But now things seem to have no way to go back to the past, he no longer seems to be able to treat the woman in the dream as a non-existent person, when the dream and reality coincide, he was confused and panicked, but he also felt lucky, it turned out that she really existed, the woman who haunted him, she was really here.
Maybe she doesn't feel the same mood as him now, but if he loves her, he will definitely make her fall in love with him again, and it's too late, isn't it? At least they met, and that's enough.
What he didn't know was that Zhang Zixuan was really emotional, he was not looking for the truth about the story of his previous life, but in his dream, he really knew that he loved this woman very much. That feeling is not an illusion. He could clearly feel that every time he watched the woman fall off the cliff, his heart hurt very much. It hurts so much that you can't breathe, and even when you wake up from a dream, the pain won't go away all at once.
Although he doesn't fully believe in that story now, at least he has found a good reason for his pain, so let him follow his heart willfully once.
Since he was a child, he has been growing up in the expectations of his family, and he has always been excellent, although he is naturally smarter than others, but behind those excellent also need to pay a lot of effort. Because of the family he grew up in, he has never been willful, he knows his responsibility, but now he really wants to be willful once, for this woman who makes him hurt, makes him miss, and makes him lovesick even if he doesn't know each other, he wants to use that story to keep her by his side, and protect her from getting hurt again, because he doesn't want to hurt anymore. Experiencing that pain again.
Regarding the reincarnation of Youran and Zhang Zixuan, Fengyan did not tell them that he had exchanged his future for it. So he naturally didn't mention that the two people of Zhilu Dao were lovers of the tenth reincarnation, so Zhang Zixuan didn't know that Lu Dao and his leisurely love were in the past and present lives, and they were destined to be incomplete, this is fate, it is the fate arranged by the creator for everyone, which is destined from the beginning.
The messenger of the underworld can't fall in love with ordinary people, maybe the bitter love of this tenth reincarnation is because of the intervention of the Hades, but from the moment they met, it was destined that the result of this relationship would be no result at all.
But there was no way to tell them these rumors, because it was a test for them, and he could only watch. Whether it's love or letting go, he has always been a spectator from before to now, and he can only watch quietly, this pain is something that no one can understand.
God knows how much he loves this woman, he has never changed from a thousand years ago to now, but she never loved him, which sounds ridiculous, but it is another kind of happiness for him.
For thousands of years, he was involved in all of her. From her becoming a small waiter in the underworld to cultivating as an envoy, he watched it, and he silently guarded her like this, and he felt very happy.
Even if she leaves, she falls in love with ordinary mortals, he never complains, he never hates, he never thinks of snatching her back into possession, because he really loves her, as long as she is happy, it is enough, he can wait, because he has a lot of time, he can wait for her to come back, maybe one day she will find out his true heart.
When Zhilu said that she escaped into reincarnation, he did not hesitate to turn his face with his father, he followed, but unfortunately he was still a step late, another disappointment, sad, but for her, he sacrificed himself again and fulfilled them. He still couldn't let go of it when he got to the end, and he still followed because she let go of everything except her.
Until now, he is still guarding, helping her find her soul and be reborn again, giving her the ability to protect herself, and the space bracelet was given to her by him from the beginning. From the underworld to the human world, the bracelet that has always protected her, but what I don't know is that it actually belongs to the wind.
But it will be a secret forever, and I am afraid that I will never know the way.
"I think I should return this hairpin to you, although I don't doubt the story told by Fengyan, but we are no longer Lan Xue and Xue Pinren, this hairpin has no meaning, so I don't think I should accept it. Leisurely handed over the hairpin that Feng Yan had just returned to her to Zhang Zixuan's hands.
"Although I don't know if the story of the rumors just now is real, but since it is something given to you, maybe this is the will of heaven to send her to you, even if it is not a token of love, it should also be your thing, and now it is also your fate to return to your hands, don't think so much, accept it." Zhang Zixuan smiled, he didn't show any of his feelings for Youran, he didn't want to scare her, he could see that Youran's attitude towards this matter was completely different from his.
"But...... This thing ...... leisurely still a little hesitant, I don't know what Lu Dao is for, she always feels that if she accepts this hairpin, it seems that she has an unclear relationship with Zhang Zixuan.
"What should come will always come, there is no way to escape, don't you already know the way?" Feng Yan looked at the leisurely expression and touched her head funny.
Whether it was three thousand years or three days, he didn't want to let her go. Whether it is the little girl in the underworld back then, or the later envoy of the underworld, she has not changed even when she is reincarnated in the world. In addition to her appearance and that heart, those little habits and small actions, the simple and lovely woman who made him never be able to rest assured that she was alone really hasn't changed at all in his eyes.
"That's right, those people I don't want to meet, it seems that the things I encounter never let me go, so it's really not a way to escape, the best way is to face it and solve it, right? "You were woken up by a word from the wind, yes, fate will never sympathize with the weak, it will only succumb to the strong, this is the fundamental way of survival in the world.
But she really felt a little sorry for the rumors. If it is really as he said, she is really Lan Xue, then the person he loves is himself, it turns out that she is not a substitute, but a deity, a Lan Xue who has forgotten the rumors.
For Feng Yan, from the first time she met him, she did have an inexplicable sense of familiarity and dependence, but she didn't remember the stories they used to have at all. From the beginning, you can feel how deep Feng Yan's feelings are for the woman who looks exactly like herself, many times you feel that you are very envious of Lan Xue, someone loves her so deeply, whether she exists or disappears, there are always people who remember that she loves her, but she has never been jealous, she feels sorry for such rumors.
But now that she has really confirmed that she is Lan Xue, she suddenly feels so sorry for this man, his deep affection has been hundreds of years, even if he faces the woman he loves deeply, he still has no way to express it. Just like back then, for the sake of her happiness, he willingly gave up her, fulfilled her, and married a woman he didn't love, but in the end, he gave up everything because of her.
leisurely remembered that she once saw in the history books that there was a very good prince in the Ming Dynasty, but he was jealous of the talent and died of an emergency at the age of twenty. Many people say that if that prince can inherit the throne, maybe the Ming Dynasty will not be defeated in the hands of such a faint monarch.
The prince who everyone praises is Zhu Tianyi, and it is this rumor that died early for him in his previous life. This man who now makes her extremely distressed in front of her.
Leisurely knowing that his rebirth would definitely not be an accident, this man must have done something for her to have such an opportunity. What kind of price did he pay for her? What a serious price to rewrite his fate, leisurely dare not think or guess.
"It's okay, silly girl, aren't you still there now? It doesn't matter if it was in the past or now, no matter where it is, as long as you are good, I can rest assured. Feng Yan is still so gentle, it is enough for him to watch her happy, even if he doesn't remember him, it really doesn't matter.
"Well, let's get to know each other again, hello, I am Meng Youran. You Ran said very seriously staring at Feng Yan's eyes.
"Hello, I'm Fengyan. There is only a leisurely reflection in Feng Yan's gentle eyes, and there is only this one woman in his heart.
"I don't have those memories of the past, but I will never forget all the bits and pieces of being with Fengyan in the future, because Fengyan is a good friend leisurely. On that day, this leisurely sentence touched everyone's hearts, friends who will never forget, firmly engraved in their hearts, the past is lost, then tomorrow she will remember.
"Well, a good friend of Leisure. When Feng Yan heard Youran's words, she seemed to think of the little girl she saw for the first time in the underworld one afternoon, and she said that they were friends because she liked his smile. (To be continued......)